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I’m happy that I’ve reached a point in my transition where I can encourage other comrades to be their true selves. I’ve come very far from the timid little egg I once was.

Yo I got ma'am'd at the grocery store? And I wasn't wearing makeup or anything??

Older ladies at the money order counter truly are my strongest soldiers

People have started calling me a name my name is commonly short for. I haven't asked anyone to do this but I'm not complaining. I kinda really love it

transgender day of visibility!

Even on my worst days I'd rather be myself than mutilate my existence to "fit in"!

Every single painful experience I've ever been through, I'd go through it again to protect whatever little happiness I collected up. Ain't much at all, but it's still mine! (And for you )

Wow, I'm in a positive mood these days. Funny how that happens when you don't get kicked repeatedly in the crotch by random nonsense for a while.

It's been 8 years since I started HRT. I don't know what else to say, really. Everything is better than I ever imagined it could be. It can, maybe it even does get better for you given enough time. Whoever you are reading this. Yeah, you. It gets better.

tdov!

How it feels like to insult people on the internet

Someone just came out to me as trans. It's wild how many people in my life have transed their gender since I came out

Real gender fluidity has never been tried because people are incapable of having a fluid view of someone. Like I basically can never be a real man in most people's eyes because I've tried being/am a woman sometimes. Im so tired of being third gendered when I'm totally cool being a MAN or a WOMAN, but never something in between/neither. Frustrateddddd. Think I'll just go back to being a butch lesbian and give up on manhood.

Finally just got estrogen!!

hello trans people of hexbear.

you have been seen.

that's all, enjoy your day.

I never explicitly updated here (or I did and forgot? I've been really confronting memory issues lately...). But. I have a job. I can't say what it is cause its kinda niche, but I'm supporting social workers, and its really nice. I'm doing something socially productive. And I'm kinda proud? I can go to work and know that I'm a thread of sticky fiber behind a gauze pad on a bandaid stretched too thin across a gaping shotgun wound. But I'm a part of that bandaid. I'm doing things that help people (well, I'm doing things that help people help people). I'm tired and happy. I like my coworkers. I'm getting treated kinda like I'm nongendered by them which sucks. But. They're chill. And. I can deal with that for work. And they're super supportive. I'm relieved. I'm not gonna starve. I'm not gonna live out of my car. I'm kinda sorta safe.

FUCK

Always thought day of visibility being before April fool's was a great idea in case coming out backfires

Despite everything I learn and go through the world will never take my wonder or whimsy from me :3

happy trans 364 days of invisibility to those who wish not to be perceived

Went to the local gay bar for their trans day of visibility fundraising event with my nb partner tonight, we had a good time and they even bid on and won the movie night basket. We're gonna make a night of it lol.

Love all of my trans comrades on Hexbear. You make this place wonderful.

Very weird thoughts are popping into my mind.

I socially transitioned to a man a few years ago, but only recently started hrt. In reality I’m probably some form of gender fluid/non binary leaning masculine, but I go through life as a guy because I’d rather not explain my unconventional gender experience to everyone I meet. The hormone treatment is making me realise that I’m sort of making this transition thing permanent, and now I get frequent flashbacks of me being a woman and it’s making me nostalgic. I really loved the way I looked as a young woman, and I was very good at exploiting my femininity for social and political gain. It’s just that in my day to day life I feel much more comfortable as a man.

Soon after I transitioned socially I became a labour organiser. It’s only now that I start to question if I would be a more effective organiser when I present as a woman. I haven’t tried it so I have no idea. It probably depends on where I’m organising, but generally I think as a woman I’d be able to kind of seduce people to a first meeting where it would be easier to get them to engage. On the flip side I would also be taken less seriously when I teach people about organising.

This is a super weird train of thought but generally I think my position is that I have already devoted my life to organising and have sacrificed a lot for it. What if I didn’t go through with hrt so I can potentially organise more effectively while I present as a guy in my private life with a bit more effort?

My first reaction to that thought is that I’m probably better at organising if I feel most comfortable which is as a guy. But I still can’t shake the thought of wanting to seduce people towards organising because it sounds so fun and romantic. Maybe I can learn how to seduce as a guy.

Would love to know if other people have similar thoughts about using their gender expression for efficiency or gain.

estrogen is really something else. i have never felt. so much.

I think I'm gonna start getting into exercising daily! I already wanted to be outside more, but I'm realizing now just how much strength I've lost from transitioning and want to build it back up.

Also want to lose weight slowly, I'm a big girl I'm 300+ pounds and want to get to around 230 by 2030.

Gonna read some books so I can exercise the best I can especially at my weight(don't wanna hurt my joints)

They also started doing morning stretching exercises at work and I've been really liking it, I feel less tired at the end of the day now.

My pill era is almost over. First vial is arriving soon, maybe even by tomorrow. Wouldn't it be perfect if I could do my first injection on TDoV?

::: spoiler spoiler

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I might lose my health insurance, because I'm offered other health insurance, and I'm probs gonna lose my whole care team, have to pay more for meds ($150/mo), pay more for doctors visits ($30-$50), pay more for "specialist care" (I dont even know how much, and that's assuming they're in network), pay more for everything, all while making roughly 1500/month. Gender care, 200/mo at best, mental health, 200-400/mo, doctor visits, 100/mo. So I'm going from making 0/mo to 1500/mo, and now I have to spend $700/mo or so on healthcare. That's not even counting surgeries!! I'm gonna have so little left over, I dont know what to even do here.

Why do I have to do this? Because I got a job and am no longer unemployed. If my employer didn't offer me healthcare this wouldn't be an issue, but they are so I'm getting kicked off the thing I was on that let me do all this for free/minimal cost.

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I had never known another trans woman, and Ive been out for less than a year. After meeting someone else (irl) and just hanging out, I had such a visceral response the next day when I reflected on it (so many tears but thats my life now I guess lol). Basically, that one interaction (and a new friend!) broke down almost all of my deeply entrenched transphobia.

Its really nice. <3 I hope y'all have a great day being yourselves

Also some of my friends seem to think they are supposed to buy me pizza tomorrow. I'm not going to say no.....

A friend actually did reach out to me about today, that was very nice of him.

down with cis

homebrew hormones are actually better because it's artisanally crafted in small batches instead of being mass produced in a factory

visibility is cool and all but i could really get shit done with a single day of invisibility

Is there any particular reason EV is the main variety of estradiol that gets prescribed? It's so inferior to EEn like, what the fuck, why are pharma companies wasting their time with that shit?

Every time a transfem expresses a desire for some aspect of womanhood or femininity, and a cis woman responds with "Oh... You don't really want that 😒🙄" I abort another straight fetus

I know it's tomorrow but I don't expect anyone I'm out to will say anything about it to me, kinda dumb to be upset/whatever about it but it would be nice. I mean I obviously don't blame anyone and don't expect anyone will but idk. I do wish they'd recognize my bravery about coming out to them. A couple did at the time though which was nice. Idk.

Trans joy moment:

Can't sleep anymore without tucking a pillow between my boobs. It's uncomfortable otherwise. And holy shit does it make me feel such euphoria in the morning when I wake up. My arms resting on my boobs.

Even though i barely slept today, i tried a new thing. I replaced the pillow with my arm!

In all honestly this gender euphoria is like the ONE thing keeping me going.

I already start missing my cuties. Last weekend, we were all meeting up and i ended up getting cozy on the couch with a puppygirl melting in my right arm (really nice perfume, doing happytaps and making cute noises) and a kittengirl melting in my left arm (really lovely girlsmell, literally making a :3 face while i gave her headpats). They're both really good friends and it's always lovely to hang out and cuddle with them, but i had never cuddled both of them at the same time before. I need to do this more often.

I met an adorable 10 cm wide… sandwich press? or something? at a thrift store and he is my son now.

Im feeling so good today ☺️

I looked so cute in the mirror~

up with trans!

hi! i am trans and visible :o

Insurance is such a fuck. I have to end up paying hundreds of dollars just to have people agree to maybe one day do surgery. I've been trying so hard to save as much as I can before moving too.

Money is so stressful

Tomorrow is also the 4th annual Mira Bellwether Buy a Trans Woman a Pizza Day*, for all the gals who don't feel like being visibly trans or just love pizza* <3

* or other food of her choice!

All the little bees come up to me see I'm not a flower and leave feels bad