Getting my hrt tomorrow

Coming out

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Came out to my parents and long story short, my little sister now has a big sister ready to throw hands at the slightest sign of manipulative, gaslighting bullshit from our parents.

I'm so glad being myself has brought my sister and I closer together, and we can finally start to heal the shit we dealt with. Together.

chat is this real??

::: spoiler i am not an identity state

Hearing people talk about their identity is great! Other people expecting me to produce an identity is fucked. I am not a stative identity. Stative identity is bullshit. I am actions (well, lack thereof). How do people make these statements about themselves? Like, i only do it because people expect a statement, people expect a label, people expect me to be an identity. But im not an identity state, im an identity process.

What i mean is, i am not a woman. I woman (verb). I am not a lesbian. I lesbian (verb). I am not a cyclist. I bike. I am not a gamer. I game. I am not a musician. I play music. I am not. I do. I am not a sub. I enjoy submitting. These statements of identity as a state one is in, they do not make sense. There is no thing. There is only isness.

weird 2 am thoughts but (this is mostly for other trans women)

did anyone else feel weirdly ashamed about being attracted to women as an egg? i remember feeling super ashamed by being what i thought was a heterosexual boy/man but in retrospect i can hardly articulate why i felt so ashamed of it. is this a thing anyone else had or was this just me being weird?

not to dox myself but holy shit i got some big fuckin tits now holy fuuuuuuckkkkkk

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if i randomly dissapear in the next few days i probably killed myself

just putting it out there, i guess. doesnt really matter, thisll probably be deleted anyway

After a very small 🤏breakdown at work, so I ending up coming out to someone. She was super supportive- it was very emotional for both of us. Apparently she helps with a couple local queer orgs and might know some people locally. Very unfortunately she doesn't come in often, maybe a few times a month. Once I get my license hopefully I can go to her org or something.

Also the stuff I was studying for I passed with no issue

Came out to a friend today and we’re still friends :)

Hello, shout out being trans. Big fan of that.

My blood test results came in and I got confirmation that my T is down to good levels!!! I thought that was one of the differences contributing to how I've been feeling lately. God I fucking love Hrt.

trans girl sliding into my DMs the other day so down horrendous for me that it's a big red flag but I'm horny enough to ignore it

I’m considering seeing a therapist about gender stuff in order to help me process everything better, but I’m having a really hard time getting over the idea that wherever they keep their records is somehow going to end up in the hands of genocidal maniacs looking for some slurs to kill.

I must report that I am rediculously cute today. I should have done my nails. That would have really completed it

Friend forgot. No hrt for me today. Our schedules don't really line up so idk. Maybe Friday will work? Bit nervous about it that day tbh.

Also I'm exhausted and feel like shit. Just need today go be over and have a day off.

Im modelling today~ should be fun!

Im fully tucked, like mega tucked. Like all my shit is fully locked down lol. Balls in the canals getting cooked, taped up to my lower back geez. Brought an extra tuck kit just in case.

I've been thinking about making some miniature clay sculpture. Would be a good excuse to try to find people to give them to and I find it pretty relaxing. Also I'm new here so I hope it's okay to talk about what's been on my mind or does everything have to be related to trans stuff?

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I have garlic bread

Fuck it feels so bad today. Dysphoria has been real bad lately.

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This has been nothing but a source of pain for me. I don't know how to deal with all of it. There's so many things

spoiler edit: things -Feeling alone and isolated from basically everyone irl, even after coming out. There's a huge barrier there and its lonely.
-Being trans + ND really shoots my dating options in the foot. I have been really wishing I had someone.
-Facial hair is brutal
-Everything about sex is brutal
-My fucking voice, oh my god I cant stop grieving my voice. Its never going to be okay and its so important.
-All the other dysphoria, the vague wrongness, all of that
-Everything about how society sees me
-Everything about the rise of fascism and trans women being one of the main targets
-Being so far behind everyone else, in everything. Fashion, makeup, college, etc. Everything is behind because I'm trans + the depression
-Constant depression etc from all of this
-Never getting a break

Any of these things would be bad enough on their own but I legitimately can't cope with all of this. This is the most painful experience ever. I can't get over it, I can't cope with it, it doesn't go away. fuck all of this. :::

transitioning has unlocked an unbelievable amount of rizz in me and i'm still shocked that i have so much, let alone any at all

What I like about Tarot is a lot of westerners looking for meaning in mystical stuff comes off as Orientalist or cultural appropriation.

But Tarot is pretty European. It's Italians playing Tarrochi, it's French doing cartomancy and English perverts believing they are magicians.

But it's also occult, feminine and gay enough that tradition Retvrn types haven't made it their thing either.

My gf? she's on another instance you wouldn't know her

The wait for insurance to kick in at jobs is so silly. You already hired me, just give me insurance already

CW mild transphobia mostly funny

I find it funny when I met old people who are enthusiastically albeit somewhat problematically curious about me being trans.

It's like meeting a Victorian period explorer. "By Jove! Are you one of those illusive transexuals I've read about in dispatches?"

First?

Typing in lines of code into the terminal thing of Linux is pretty cool ngl even if it didn't fix my problem, is this what Linux nerds are like

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cw semi-horny

so im messaging with this cute girlie and we got to talking about how succubus summoning would be real cool, and then she told me she'd actually like to be a succubus, which okay fair same here , but then she dropped "subcubus if you will" and she's just so gosh darn cute i dont even know what im going to do with her.

give her lots of i guess