Instagram targeted ads, you have recognised I am a woman who likes cute dresses, your ads ARE working, however somehow you don't realise I'm a transexual, I need BIGGER dresses!

Sometimes, I just touch my chest and realize that I have boobs now. Or like, I get pretty aware that my butt is much bigger. Even in my own internal talking and fantasies I sometimes accidentally call myself with she/her pronouns, instead of the usual dissociation or self-loathing.

The march of progress [E] is pushing against the reactionary tendencies of my body/mind. It is gaining ground, slowly but surely.

After my parents forced me to cut my hair, it's been growing back so slowly!!!

I hadn't even grown it past the "the top part of my ears are covered" phase! And yet even that progress is gone!

was working today at my very masculine job being very masculine masculiney and after helping a customer with a duton ranch yellowstone hat (just so you get picture the type of boomer) i think he accidently said "thanks doll" or slurred his words where that's what i heard

lol even if i heard it wrong bam i got paralyzed with gender euphoria for a few minutes. overall was kind of a weird scenerio but i'll take whatever.

nothing will ever beat my cis lesbian friends calling me pretty all the time when i was younger tho

Hair removal protip: Looking for cheap or free electrolysis for face or body hair? Look for your nearest electrology school. They're always on the lookout for new models and if you want work done somewhere where two people can work at the same time like legs or arms, you're even more valuable to them.

A lot of people canceled at the place I work at so I'm getting paid to sit in my chair and play chess on my phone for several hours. Life is good

had rice today, was very good.

I'm pretty well versed in yearning at this point but I'll admit tonight is the first time I've thought "I need a woman to physically reach into my heart and pull a magical sword out of my chest like I'm from Revolutionary Girl Utena"

The amount of people who know my true name is manageable, makes hexes and curses less effective on me

My back is broken carrying all my wins.

....

My back hurts so much . I clearly am not sleeping and sitting in the correct posture.

you ever eat a burger on a wednesday?

There is a guy in college. Haven't talked to him in 2 years. But everytime we see each other we aknowledge the other's presence by raising a hand.

What a beautiful friendship.

When I changed my pronouns to they/them I was legally obligated to take a sledgehammer to my bathroom and remake it into a gender neutral bathroom. It was fine they said the woke government was gonna cover it but then lost and won so now I'm 113k in debt

First

I'm so worn out idk why so much more today.

Oh, something kinda funny at work though. A little kid asked why I was [job]. Told him to make money and its not too bad. He then asks if I have a better job No buddy, this is as good as it gets.

Matrix update for those who use matrix.org:

https://bsky.app/profile/matrix.org/post/3lxwhw33wms23

The Matrix.org Foundation‬ ‪@matrix.org‬ · 6m Status update: we've restored the 55TB snapshot and subsequent incremental backups, and are about to replay the remaining traffic since the backup. There are still several unknowns, but if things go well the matrix.org instance should be back in 3-4 hours.

Fingers crossed it's back up soon. Tracha Aux is still running. If anyone needs a link my matrix info is in my bio.

Edit: it works now

MATRIX WORKING AGAIN

matrix isn't working for me

Don't mind me, just placing my foot down in the new megathread.

My professor brought us in today for a class in the morning, so I had to wake up at 5:30 am and drag myself to uni . God I woke feeling like I had fallen down a flight of stairs.

After the lecture starts the professor tells us that all the course stuff happens online. 5 minutes after the lecture starts, we are dismissed.

I had no other reason to come to uni today.

Please take me and the professor to a nice isolated location. I promise I will not harm them

And if you are wondering why I had to wake up at 5:30 am despite classes starting almost 9 am, the answer is literally capitalism. The cause and effect chain is very direct. I love living in a neoliberal hellhole.

Woke up feeling worse :doomer:

Periodic reminder that Ru Paul's Drag Race went woke apologised for all the shitty transphobic behaviour and routinely features trans and non binary contestants with multiple winners who are trans/non binary, bringing back past contestants who are now trans and non binary etc.

Even past seasons are improved when you know how many contestants are now trans. Jinkx Monsoon won it in season 5 (2013) and started estrogen last year! Adore Delano (runner up season 6) is a trans woman!

Season 9 is a great entry point. At the time it had the first (openly) trans finalist (Peppermint), but now it has in hindsight more trans women (Trinity the Tuck, Valentina, Farrah Moan, Eureka) and Non Binary people (Shea Coulee, Sasha Velour).