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+1 on happy to be trans

I have a new friend who is a cis woman who I’ve known for a few months. She was discussing with another new female friend of mine, how they’ve not shaved their legs for winter. I said oh I haven’t either but I’ve done laser and showed my legs under my skirt that had only some patchy hairs. both were like wow that’s less than I’ve got, we should try that etc

I also mentioned that finasteride, spironolactone, estrogen were all helping reduce my body hair too, as well as increasing my long thick head hair. The friend revealed she knew about those medications because she had alopecia that affected her head and presumably her long feminine hair is a wig (I wasn’t gauche enough to ask).

And I was like huh, I’m always comparing myself to cis women for my body issues, but cis women have their own body issues and battles going etc. We’re all subject patriarchal standards of beauty and femininity etc

Which has really helped a bunch of my brainworms

Tarot just told me I'd find love in an unlikely place. I can't think of anywhere more unlikely than Hexbear. So who is it?

I feel blessed to be trans too! Its the best thing that ever happened to me~ honestly if I could go back and redesign my life, okay maybe Id pick "figure out she's trans" at way younger - but Id still pick being trans! I get to wake up every day as the gender I wanna be, of course Im happy about it!

I did the old style of social transition before HRT - I was lucky to find a doctor who did informed consent, so I could've got it way faster but I basically did a year of social transition anyway. Whatever makes sense for people to do first they should, even DIY, but I was pretty happy even as a very awkward not passing even a little out trans woman. HRT was even better of course! I was doing that in fucking nursing school, that was weird.

wuff

bisexual
bigender
vers
switch

fuck you, i refuse to pick a side

So where I am we do Pride in August, to mark the August 28, 1971 We Demand rally at Parliament; it was the first major queer rights action in Canada, so it serves a historical reminder of our own liberation movements rather than tying the queer narrative here to America's history. This is something I think is actually really interesting, because so much of Canadian politics is tied up in American media that Canadians often have little to no idea about the history of social movements here. This can be dangerous, because it allows American narrative-building to supersede our own--erasing the struggles fought by people here, but also allowing social shifts in America to seamlessly integrate into the Canadian discourse.

Anyway, that same phenomenon also means that regardless of Pride being in August, June Pride is absolutely still celebrated here (because American media tells everyone this is Pride month, and much of the world has followed suit and celebrates Pride in June).

This results in Pride beginning in June, and then "officially" happening in August. No one wants to "de-Pride" the city in July only to have to "re-Pride" it in August, however, so what actually ends up happening is an entire Pride summer where from the end of May until the end of August the entire city is covered in Pride flags and people throw "Pride" events the entire time.

Basically my city the last few years has decided in gay summers, where the only part of the year with nice weather is entirely packed full of drag shows and queer karaoke. This also coincides with a country music festival, which had some friction at first but now all the country straights who come to do their rootin tootin yeehawing in the "big city" (the whole place is rural as hell, so the city is not "big") just get blasted to shitty music and then go dancing to Chapelle Roan with the queens.

i look cute in cami tops

Being on hormones makes me jump from being snuggly and romance yearning to horny. Today is a romance and snuggles day, I just want my hand held and my forehead kisses right now. I wish my partner lived closer because it would just make me absolutely melt right now.

Being a masochist is so hard. The dentist was using sharp implements and causing lots of pain as they say "you're doing so well" over and over again. Meanwhile I'm thinking "... this is so hot"

fortunately, somehow, my coworker had a spare PC he was wanting to get rid of that he hadn't touched in months that he sold me for $200. Despite its age it's still a better running PC than what I was using before. I need a new monitor to get it to work with an HDMI cable but the very thin thread that I my mental state was holding on by is now a little thicker

Almost done with face electrolysis

Soon starting bottom electrolysis

I am very sad

I love being a feminine tboy. I love being genderfluid.

It is kind of a blessing. We get to create ourselves in a way most cis people never do.

I didn't get a chance to respond before the new mega but HOLY SHIT MY CENTER OF MASS MOVING DOWN??????

its so hot wtf

It feels like just over the past few days it's become so much more obvious to myself that I have boobs. They're still itty bitty, but just over the past week it's like I've had to change the way I sleep and when I'm laying down and move my arm sometimes I brush against my chest and actually feel them. It feels like just a week ago I had to actually go out of my way to check that the estrogen was doing anything to my chest and now it's unavoidable. Kinda cool

down with cis

Just got asked by two different old ladies at the local crafts market if I'm studying fashion. I am simply too good at fashion.

AHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE JOB SEARCHING!!!!!

i just want a job that wont break my body, but jobhunting is also so hard im either breaking myself over it or not doing it. Its all or nothing. All means burnout in 1-4 weeks, nothing means no job.

I applied for a job i actually wanted for once. Would have been good for me, and good for others (helping at risk people). Got the "we have recieved your application and will pass it along". Didnt hear back after that. Looked at the website today, job posting is gone. So much for that one i guess.

Ill keep looking. I can do work. But really, can i? I just want to go home not in pain (so no kitchen work) but that seems to be all there is. My body is trash that doesnt work right but im not disabled i can still do labour and i want to do labour but nothing is hiring and i have nothing to my name no degree no anything and im almost 30 and god its looking less and less good for me these days. even if i can do a job i wont get hired and thats assuming i can even apply just applying is so hard for me even when i want the job i cant get myself to write the cover letter and do the stuff needed to get the job. I want to i need to and it doesnt happen. WHERES MY FUCKING DOPAMINE!?

FUUUCCCCKKKKKK

I FUCKING BENT THE SHIT OUT OF MY CPU PINS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WTF IS EVEN WRONG WITH MY PC AND NOW I STILL DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT'S WRONG AND MY CPU IS FUBAR FUCKING WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY I ALREADY WANTED TO MYSELF TODAY

I'm like 6 episodes into breaking bad and I really really hate this guy fuck me I want to shove him into a woodchipper

Parents are talking about moving back to a good state in a year ish if my dad gets this new job, god please, please let this happen. Let them pay to move me out of this shithole. If I'm a year on E then too... Maybe that's enough time... We will see. I'm trying not to get my hopes up.

We out here being trans

What a feeling

I just took my E and my night meds and now I'm super snuggly, I just want forehead kisses and my hair played with. Currently hugging my pillow and imagining being snuggled

Its so hot here im dyingggggg god why does the sun exist it shouldnt exist just go away already

Just had the fucking funniest conversation at work. For context I offered to help this elderly woman earlier.

hey, I just wanted to say I've never had someone here help me (she's probably a regular, not 100% sure tbf), thank you

oh I'm sorry no one else helps you, thank you though!

I just wanted to say that, maybe I can tell you're a Christian.

No, I'm sorry I'm not.

Oh, well I was wondering if you are or if you'd be open to that.

No I'm sorry not right now.

I just want to leave you with one question, if you died tonight, where would your soul go?

I'm sorry, I really don't want to discuss religion at work. I will think about it for you though. Thanks again for saying something, you really made my day.

Like God damn just pulled out the entire "where would you go if you died" shtick. I've been laughing this whole time about that part, like that's just so funny to me. I don't think I've had someone do that to me yet. Her thanking me was really nice though not trying to knock that part. Also funny to me that she assumed I was a Christian from helping her (couldn't be further from the truth) and then without missing a beat tries to convert me.

Want to be a slut but too fucked up from my breakup to get the slutty vibes going. Guess I'll just rot in bed and read poetry that makes me cry ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

up with trans

trying to give off a "girl who is clearly the one who can turn into a werewolf" in an urban fantasy novel. Wolf cut, broad shoulders, muscles, flannel, shredded midriff to die for, futchy PNW vibes

My go to flirting style is being unfunny and weird, need to work on that. Thus far tho it hasn't worked once but still I persist

I kinda miss having guy friends and their stupid shenanigans. All my guy friends have transitioned or we just naturally drifted apart after university and high school

Full of energy and understimulared but also completely paralyzed and unable to figure out what to do. I love my brain