Y'know, when I signed up for this back in June I had grand plans for some grand writeup on the domestically produced unmagnified gunsights of Cuba. I had collected images and info and sources but I lost sight of it as life stuff happened and my time for the trans mega snuck up on me.
Que sera sera.
Anyways, today felt like the first whisper (you have no idea how hard I just thought about the ideal word for this metaphor) of autumn and that put me in the mood for one of my favorite autumnal albums. More Constant Than the Gods by SubRosa is a really lovely doom? sludge? metal album. I like how big it sounds. The lead vocalist is a really talented lady, and its got violins, also the lyrics talk about dying and stuff and I'm into that. Its very fall-y to me, as is Standard Time Volume 1 by Wynton Marsalis, but for extremely different reasons.
The funny thing is that, like the poster of the previous mega it is also my 5th transiversary, I started HRT half a decade ago today (ok technically it was the 17th but I'm gonna count it since thats when I started writing this). Now, I don't think that taking HRT was what made me "officially trans", rather it was the degree of self acceptance required to get to that point. It's a long story, and one I prefer to share privately, but it took a very, very long time before my fear and desperation gave me the strength to allow myself to have this. I think it all turned out pretty well, I experience existence in much higher fidelity, I'm this whole person, along with everything that entails.
I feel very blessed to be transgender.
I hope you all stay safe and have a good, or atleast tolerable week.
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I feel blessed to be trans too! Its the best thing that ever happened to me~ honestly if I could go back and redesign my life, okay maybe Id pick "figure out she's trans" at way younger - but Id still pick being trans! I get to wake up every day as the gender I wanna be, of course Im happy about it!
I did the old style of social transition before HRT - I was lucky to find a doctor who did informed consent, so I could've got it way faster but I basically did a year of social transition anyway. Whatever makes sense for people to do first they should, even DIY, but I was pretty happy even as a very awkward not passing even a little out trans woman. HRT was even better of course! I was doing that in fucking nursing school, that was weird.
Being trans has been a gift for me, despite the many challenges. Proud to live life on my own terms. I hear you on figuring out sie was trans way younger, but in my case, I think I figured it out at just the juncture in my life where I could do something about it.
If I had known earlier, I do not think I could have done much about it, or been able to emotionally handle how difficult early transition can be.