Alisu

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[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 6 points 4 hours ago (3 children)

I'm thinking about how long it will take me to get hrt. It's prob going to either be in like march or 2027. Depends on some regulation stuff, but one year wait time buffer is stupid and ridiculous

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 4 points 13 hours ago

Wish I could wear a suit but have volume in my chest

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 6 points 19 hours ago

Well, this IS a PC

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 4 points 19 hours ago

Regardless of buying it or not this could make linux gaming much better, just like the steam deck did

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 9 points 1 day ago (3 children)

It's been like 20 years since I last saw a firefly

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 12 points 1 day ago (1 children)

cw: dysphoriaI got a wedding tomorrow and I don't want to go. Been avoiding all social events with lots of people. But I said I'd go, so I have to. Yeah, I'm avoiding social events because if I can't present as a girl, I'm being perceived as a guy, so I'd rather stay home and be treated as a girl by my friends on the internet.

I have to wear a suit. And, while that's stylish in a way, my body is still very masculine (because no hrt), so I'm going to be feeling bad. Wish I could wear a suit in a fem presenting way, but that's different I guess.

It's going to be like this for a while still. Just got to hold on, it's going to work out eventually

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 7 points 3 days ago (7 children)

It's "gaming related clothing" whatever the fuck that means

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 8 points 3 days ago

I kinda want this but I don't have money in the moment...

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 6 points 3 days ago

I feel exactly the same way and unsure what to do

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 6 points 3 days ago

Yes, but if nothing happened with an elected representative, imagine how many fucks they'd give about a rando

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 9 points 4 days ago (4 children)

Well, the US misgendered a Brazilian trans deputy on a visa, nothing happened.

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 3 points 4 days ago

I'm super old (mid-twenties).

 

I was going to illustrate the whole poem by Edgar Allan Poe, but since I wasn't able to do it, have the one drawing, and the poem itself. Keep in mind it is horror literature and has themes of grief and a haunting encounter with a raven.

The Raven CW: Grief, Horror

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore, While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. “ ’Tis some visiter,” I muttered, “tapping at my chamber door — Only this, and nothing more.”

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow; — vainly I had tried to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow — sorrow for the lost Lenore —

For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore — Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me — filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating “ ’Tis some visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door — Some late visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door; — This it is, and nothing more.”

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, “Sir,” said I, “or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, That I scarce was sure I heard you” — here I opened wide the door; — Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before; But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token, And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, “Lenore!” This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, “Lenore!” Merely this, and nothing more.

Then into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, Soon I heard again a tapping somewhat louder than before. “Surely,” said I, “surely that is something at my window lattice; Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore — Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;— ’Tis the wind, and nothing more!”

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore; Not the least obeisance made he; not an instant stopped or stayed he; But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door — Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door — Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore, “Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven, Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore — Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly, Though its answer little meaning — little relevancy bore; For we cannot help agreeing that no sublunary being Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door — Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door, With such name as “Nevermore.”

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. Nothing farther then he uttered — not a feather then he fluttered — Till I scarcely more than muttered, “Other friends have flown before — On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

Wondering at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, “Doubtless,” said I, “what it utters is its only stock and store, Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster Followed fast and followed faster — so, when Hope he would adjure, Stern Despair returned, instead of the sweet Hope he dared adjure — That sad answer, “Nevermore!”

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling, Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust, and door; Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore — What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore Meant in croaking “Nevermore.”

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core; This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining On the cushion’s velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o’er, But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o’er, She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer Swung by angels whose faint foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor. “Wretch,” I cried, “thy God hath lent thee — by these angels he hath sent thee Respite — respite and Nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore! Let me quaff this kind Nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil! — prophet still, if bird or devil! — Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, Desolate, yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted — On this home by Horror haunted — tell me truly, I implore — Is there — is there balm in Gilead? — tell me — tell me, I implore!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil! — prophet still, if bird or devil! By that Heaven that bends above us — by that God we both adore — Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore — Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore.” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!” I shrieked, upstarting — “Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore! Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! Leave my loneliness unbroken! — quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon that is dreaming, And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor Shall be lifted — nevermore!


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Beanis tshirt doesn't count, libs have bad taste and are like "eeeew i hate beanis" so it doesn't sell

 

Yeah, I'm making pizza, anyone wants a slice?

 

 

I'm worrying a bit about b12 levels, so I thought I'd ask here. From what I gathered searching the internet some morning cereals and some things that have added b12, there was a site talking about soy milk, but idk about that. I'm looking for more options so i could maybe find them more easily

 

Seriously, I wanna go begone every time I read some carrer growth opportunity bullshit. It's either a job or it isn't.

I really despise anything remotely related to linkedin or whatever kind of creature dwells in that place. Can everyone do this stuff? Like, is this really how everyone gets a job? I can't deal with all this pretending, everything requires having a linkedin profile, but not only that, you gotta sell yourself somehow. And I don't even use social media.

Well, I have a bachelor's degree from a good University, I'm good at what I do, here's a portfolio. But no, I have to prove I deserve to be selected as a producer of wealth for my potential boss by pretending to be someone else. Can't we all just be practical about this shit? I have to keep trying to put myself into boxes and trying to fit with a sort of profile that I just can't and don't know why.

Am I autistic? Like, do I go get a diagnosis and maybe that will help? Do I go do something on my own? Then I have to figure out what an then sell it, and I'm bad at that. I don't know what to do and I'm tired of trying. (I was almost crying while writing this paragraph).

Honestly though, I just wanted to rant and this is one of the few places I feel safer in. Thanks for reading my angery rambling

 

Comunas lindos do meu coração, vamos conversar em línguas mais bonitas

 

X, formerly known as Twitter, has said it expects to be blocked in Brazil after failing to meet a deadline to name a new legal representative for the company.

The social media network closed its office in the country earlier this month, saying its representative had been threatened with arrest if she did not comply with orders it described as "censorship".

The months-long row began with Supreme Court Judge Alexandre de Moraes in April ordering the suspension of dozens of X accounts for allegedly spreading disinformation.

X owner Elon Musk has threatened to reactivate the accounts, and has described Justice Moraes as a "tyrant" and a "dictator".

"Soon, we expect Judge Alexandre de Moraes will order X to be shut down in Brazil – simply because we would not comply with his illegal orders to censor his political opponents," the post said.

"hey, so we want you to ban these fake news spam accounts"

frothingfash "DICTATOR! TYRANT! STOP CENSORING FASCISM!!"

After melon-musk fighting in twitter with one of the supreme court judges, he's facing the consequences of his actions. I hope twitter is banned from every country

 

I've been curious about this and can't seem to find a good source on search engines, it's all wikipedia and human rights watch or some stuff like that. Tried looking for some dprk news sources (I wanted ones actually from Korea), but got only propaganda from the US or occupied korea.

 

Seriously, I wanna fucking leave my house every fucking day. They work everyday, all day and are exploited for their work, have bad health that they have no time to take care of and are so devoted to defending millionaires for "creating jobs" that they cannot accept that what creates value is labour. They hate the government and see it as bad, I agree, the bourgeois democracy is terrible, but when I say that, they don't believe in it. State owned equals inherently bad, seriously, its so hard to see the truth and ALMOST EVERYONE around you is a chud, a lib or at best a soc dem. And thank god for soc dems here, because at least they aren't anti-communist, at least some of them. Every fucking time I have to argue with a lib, I want to organize harder

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