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About an $1,800 kitchen faucet that doesnt interface with Alexa properly.

Im liable to take the faucet and beat him with it til his legs dont work any more. The disconnect here may as well be the Grand Canyon and im Evel Knievel.

Pictured: A large mural of the Palestinian flag with a reference to Geurnika by Pablo Picasso.

Basque word of the Day: Askatu- Freedom/Liberation

Things are going well here. The Chinese friend I mentioned in the previous post is now my bestie. We’ve been hanging out daily and she even offered to host me in China so I could visit her family! I told her I plan to take her up on this once I get my Spanish citizenship in a few months.

She knows I’m gay/trans and she wants to be a matchmaker, “I will help you find a good man!”

I’ve been thriving here and every day I’m so happy that I managed to escape Burger Land.

HOWEVER: By having a Chinese friend I have been exposed to good ole sinophobia and racism. A dude at the bar asked me “why the Chinese? Why are you with Chinese people?”

We’ve been harassed by the elderly when we tried to study in a cafe. I’ve been pestered for looking not Basque enough (though I think in this case it’s because of anti-tourism sentiment in the region), and we’ve gotten dirty looks for just… hanging out?

Granted, most of it is from cranky old men. The rest is from general assholes. Most people have been chill, especially younger people, but after coming from the USA the bold racism is a culture shock and frankly- fucking annoying.

It was just laying in the middle of the street, not attached to anything. It was laminated and didn't look as if it had been taped or stapled to anything.

It had a link to a website with other ready to print flyer templates.

Knew this would probably happen and im lucky that my new partner is so supportive and understanding but holy shit im sobbing at my favorite hangout spot trying to play Mario and cool down. Texting a few friends.

Im sure I'll bounce back and enjoy the rest of my night and eat and watch one piece im just super teary eyed rn

I just saw an onion post about Jesus and there were a ton of hogs yapping about how they "wouldn't make fun of Islam!!!1!!1!". I think thats gotta rank up there.

Transferring to a Community College to finish my Associates, since I couldn't really handle all the annoying liberalism of my local 4-year (plus, I had a medical emergency every mid-semester, which wasn't fun.) Once I finish my apprenticeship and my Associate's, I was wondering what college is actually decent for socialism/communism?

Obviously, there's a lot of factors like tuition, student demographic, faculty, ect. But, this is mostly hypothetical. I've heard Evergreen was pretty good, emphasis on the was.

it's okay

i'm a thug

😢

(her rejection wasn't even an explicit no... it was really just a non-answer, like she totally ignored it and responded by bringing up a totally different topic, made it even worse but once again i'm a thug

i'll get through it

hugs and kisses all appreciated)

I keep wondering why my life turned out to be so hopeless and miserable. Did I do something in a past life and this is my punishment? Is it bad karma? But then karma has never made sense to me. If you murder someone, and karma decides you then need to be murdered to pay for that, it requires someone else to commit murder so you get your karma. The cycle would never end.

Is the New Age idea that we choose our lives before birth true? Do we choose everything that will happen to us in advance so we can learn something from it? Or is that just cope?

Are we just evolved pondslime who mutated into humans by chance and none of this means anything?

Why is life so incredibly awful for so many people?

I never knew just how much walking around outside improved my mental health until I lost the ability. While going through this benefit appeal, cancer treatment and recovering from a stroke, everything has been so hard but being able to walk down to the beach and spend some time outside with my landlady’s little dog each day, made life tolerable. Then I got stuck inside for a while due to my foot surgery, and this other one coming up on Thursday. Being stuck indoors has made life much more frustrating and stressful and given me nothing to look forward to, but at least this had an end date. After recovery from the surgeries I would be able to walk around again. But now I have developed achilles tendonitis. It’s the second time I’ve had it, the first time I was in a plaster cast for 10 days and couldn’t walk properly for months. This time who knows how long it will last. Google says it could take a year to improve, or it might never get better. I’m a lot older and sicker than the first time I had it, at best I could be stuck indoors for a year, at worst, forever. I just feel like this is the final straw. It’s too much on top of everything else. Potentially spending a year stuck inside doing nothing, staring at 4 walls. Getting more frustrated every day. And all for what? It’s not like I’ll even have a good life to look forward to afterwards. I feel like I just don’t even care about anything any more, not even whether or not I win my benefit appeal. I don’t even have a friend in the world to talk to or spend time with in real life, everyone abandoned me when I became disabled. What is the point of even struggling on with this shitty life any more?

I'm posting this partially for advice but mostly to vent bc I have no idea if there's much that can be done from my situation.

Also, any opsec advice to improve the description is appreciated.

The fucking entitlement of some people. It boils my piss that people my age are trying to do the same sort of gaslighting to young people as others did to my generation.

Young people, please don't fall for it. They're just trying to get you to be a good little workhorse. My peers fell for it and they're all burnt out tired husks now.

My skin crawls whenever I hear people my age talk about "Lazy young workers." As if ten years ago people weren't saying the same shit about us. Maybe your spirit got broken and now you want to break the spirit of the next lot, I don't know. Whatever it is it annoys me.

The funny thing is, the kinds of assholes that complain about "lazy entitled sensitive workers not getting shit done" are usually the ones making the workplace less productive imo. They make everyone miserable because they turn the place into a panopticon of "am I working hard enough?" And if you joke or show any kind of joy at work you're not working hard enough so the workplace becomes depressing.

I hate generational warfare, I hate protestant work ethic, so mix the two and I become rage incarnate.

The worst part is when you get a young "pick me" who is like "I'M NOT SENSITIVE LIKE THE REST OF MY GENERATION I THINK YOU'RE RIGHT WE ARE LAZY." It's fucking sad.

EDIT: AND ANOTHER THING! It's fucking ableist too! No Darren, the kid isn't too sensitive, he has fucking PTSD.

What machine are you using? What mask do you use? Hows it going for you? Any OSCAR users? SleepHQ?

Solidarity with all my snorebois and snoregals.

im at a loss for words i dont understand anything anymore. it just got dark enough here so it was definitely a planned out thing. i hate fireworks on the “normal holidays” to have them but come on now

It's getting to the point where I can't spend under $100 anymore for the week. I remember when $50 was like 5-6 days worth of stuff for a single person like me. Thanks Drumpf.

I went to church today for the first time in a few years (I may have attended other Easters, I don't remember) and I was not exactly impressed. I started noticing the hypocrisy more and more. And I know Christians are fond of the whole "Seeing hypocrites at a church is like seeing out-of-shape people at a gym," but it's more like meeting your new personal trainer, and they're really unhealthy, however that looks for them. There's one member who if there's an -ism or -phobia associated with it, he's on the wrong side of it. Yeah, they went and made him a deacon. They all just pick and choose which bits of scripture are literal and which are just metaphorical. Like helping the poor? Well, they mean the poor in spirit, which means I just have to spread Jesus, not actually materially help them. And there's no idea that the concept of capitalism as we know it was not even conceived of during the time of the Biblical stories. Or a good chunk of the church's history. They're worshipping a god they made up that is only tangentially related to the Bible. I almost wish I could go back to not seeing this, but that is no longer an option. It's just sad becoming disillusioned with something that was a huge part of my life for so long.

No, Game of Thrones didn't take place in Medieval times lmao. Dragons and wizards didn't exist in ye olde England.

It would be funny if people did this with more recent time periods and fiction. Like people genuinely thinking that victorian times had giant steampunk spider robots.

I will say it is a little concerning how often I hear people say shit unchallenged like "It takes place in the old days" about something that is a fantasy world that never actually existed. Makes me worried people can't tell fantasy from reality.

Edit: This petty rant is because I was talking about GoT with a friend and told them that the constant sexual assault put me off watching it and they were like "Yeah, but that's what it was like back then."

How's your Easter going?

26 years later and it's still happening and literally nothing is being done about it at all.

Edit: ClimateChangeAnxiety send me a private message to say I had things the wrong interpretation of things. They simply recycled their account for opsec reasons. They also said they appreciated everyone's comments!

It was my birthday party and almost everyone who attended was a gender freak named Alex who I didn’t know but introduced themself with an elaborate story

On this post where I talked about an awful situation I had with my brother, there was a comment siding with my brother suggesting fervent agreement with him and a strong sense on blame on me.

And while I absolutely do understand the point of the comment and was just going to "leave it to the side," especially since the post is a few days ago, I absolutely can't. I can be extremely obsessive when I feel as if I've done something wrong. I can feel even lower self-esteem than I already do in your every day life when I make a mistake, especially one this bad, and while I don't think it's ever appropriate for me to reach out to my brother again and apologize, I can at least learn to live with myself. Unfortunately, I couldn't see myself doing that without making this follow-up.

So, to clarify, the way I responded to him wasn't the best way, and I can acknowledge that. I also want to clarify that my intention of my response wasn't that I wanted to neglect his request. Regardless of how I interpreted the response at face value, I wouldn't have minded taking his request into consideration, but it's understandable how the way I responded would've suggested otherwise. I admit that I was immediately kind of thrown off when he brought it up because, like I said, it was a first time complaint, and my immediate thought simply was that there are numerous ways a person could navigate this situation on their own end.

However, that doesn't justify the way I handled this situation, and I didn't mean to go about it so poorly. I don't know if that's a neurodivergent thing, but something that's always triggered my feelings of inferiority is the fact that I sometimes do or say bad things with a whole lack of awareness because of neurodivergence. I've been getting better, but because of me processing this criticism, such a wave of insecurity is hitting me as harsh as it's done in the past.

I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can do anything to make up for the wrong words I told my older brother.

But if there is nothing, then there is nothing. Like I said, though, one thing I can do is try to live comfortably with this mistake because being totally silent about it wasn't helping me.

I'd be focusing on one task and then jump into an immediate depressive episode because this incident suddenly pops back up in my mind. I talked to my therapist about it, but I can't take his input at face value.

I always felt like I come off as an insufferable person to most people, and my guesses don't tend to be wrong.

I don't know what else to do or say. I don't know how to stop making mistakes like this.

Tldr; recovery from an opioid relapse, quit cold turkey, still having some PAWS (heh...but no, post acute withdrawl syndromes)

Been thinking whether or not to share here, but hell, i know yall wouldn't think any less of me. So, here we go.

There isn't really a whole lot to tell. Basically, if you're familiar with kratom, the leaf contains a chemical called 7OH. It's being sold as a "stronger kratom." Nuh uh, no way.

I was hooked on tianeptine about 5 or 6 years ago, to the point where i had to shovel grams of white powder down my throat every 2 hours to keep from withdrawing. Couldn't make it through a full night. Eventually quit cold turkey because i was getting married soon (didn't work out, while different story), and symptoms lasted me i think 2 or 3 weeks, it was pure hell.

Well, not too long ago 7OH was presented to me as a kratom thing, so I bought some. As soon as I tried it, I knew what it was doing to my brain. Went online and yep, some people say it's morphine times ten.

Tapered down, and then jumped off completely last week on Wednesday night. Compared to tianeptine, quitting was a walk in the park. Still totally miserable, dont get me wrong, but i was barely shaking. Now, the worst of it is just some lingering background anxiety, and the insomnia. I'm hoping only 1 or 2 more days to level out. I was able fall asleep for a quick nap today in about 25 minutes, so thats a big w.

Ive still been browsing when I need to take my mind off stuff, and have left a few low effort comments, but yeah. Just wanted to tell yall what's been up with me and where I've been.

If anyone needs to vent about substances or talk about recovery, I'm always happy to. In fact, my band is putting out a new record this summer and part of the promo will probably be me doing an interview with a website called Clean And Sober Stoner.

So yeah. Thanks for reading this far, thank you for letting me feel safe for sharing without being judged, and love to all my hexbears

I’m sure they’ll come up with other reasons, but the kind of fundamental economic change he is trying to bring about takes a lot longer than 4 years. I think this will be one of their major selling points for Trump 2028.

If he lives that long, that is.

I think it would be fun to have a dream interpretation section.