I swear if you leave me alone for 5 minutes I will conjure up 3 new hobbies for myself. I feel like I should start taking bets. "Oh she's starting watercolours rn, I bet she'll do fountain pen calligraphy next, maybe shoemaking."
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Entering my punished Xia arc this weekend… (CW transphobia)
…by driving 6 hours from the cosmopolitan city to the regional town I grew up in, to smooth the egos of my parents in law in person, my phone has died today from being dropped a second time, so I’ll have to get a temp one tomorrow, I’m staying in a mediocre motel so they can have “space”, I’ve already been eye-balled by a youth en route who looked like he wanted to hate crime me.
what happened to the beyond pink and blue thread?
Do you think seeking arrangements has sections for sugar grandmas. Like, older women who don't wanna work and wanna be financially dependent or whatever on younger men.
New grifting idea: dreamt instead of having crypto wallets they started introducing crypto pants. This is brilliant actually because when these dorks get robbed they gotta go home in their underwear.
just got 82 pringles and i plan on sharing, comment and tell me how many you'll be taking please
now i have 60
This is just stealing valor at this point smh
I'll take two Pringles and make a duck beak with them before eating them
I've posted like 10 posts here this morning and I have no clue why. Guess I'm just in a talkative mood today.
bit idea: guy whose kink is going to orgies and being ignored by everyone
i got a little too excited this morning but in my defence I have 9 days off after today
Day 3 of trying to find my god damn nail polish remover, I got this real nice pink nail polish that I wanna use and the confidence to use it openly now but this bottle I put somewhere is just out of my reach. It is nice being gnc no one really cares or and most people are pretty supportive. I still sometimes feel the reflexive hid my hands thing but I'm over coming that and being more confident in my presentation.
vent, meds, mh
So exhausted. So overwhelmed. So empty. All from nothing. Still unemployed. Living situation deteriorated. I just... I cant anymore. And ive been here before. So i know that I will. But i just cant. The fear. The anxiety. The paranoia. Non of it rooted in reality. The hunger. The disgust at food. The horror of meds. Ive been on them and off them and on them and off them. Different every time. Never right. Always never enough or too much. Im not on them right now. The only thing that addresses my (mild?) impulsivity is crippling anxiety that keeps me from doing anything. No one will help with the impulsivity because its hidden behind the anxiety. So they do the anxiety stuff. But then cant control my actions. I spend. And spend and spend and spend. I went off my meds when i started looking at used cars (cannot afford car rn) and ordering takeaway/delivery every day. Id rather have the crippling anxiety and constant low grade depression with occasional crashes into deep depressive episodes than blow everything and end up on the street. But now im back in the nothingness. Theres just... Nothing.
spoiler cw si Cant i just be free? Cant i just leave? Cant i be done with this. I dont want to be here. Every day is painful. Or joyous. But then the joy leaves and the pain says hey you took a respite lets hit you extra hard now. :::
burnout, non-personhood, doomer
Through my life ive burned out a few times. First i tried to head-down-power-through it (that went well). Then i tried ignoring it and just scaling back a little (also went well). Then the last couple times ive just stopped earlier than i needed to in order to avoid the really bad-bad effects of burnout. But the one constant has been that every time ive dealt with burnout, ive never recovered my same level of functionality that i had before. Im effectively nonfunctional at this point. Im not even really a person. And i dont want to be. Im a NEET and have been for almost two years. Im immensely privilidged. And i see people who could do more with my resources. Who could actually live. Who would be able to get back on their feet. Im so thankful, but part of me just wants to send every drop of money in my bank acct to someone better than myself. Someone who could actually use it to live a life thats not constant pain. My body is trash. My brain is fucked. My heart is broken. I dont want to be here anymore. Im trying to start applying for jobs again, but who would hire someone who randomly gets laid up for weeks at a time with depressive episodes? How can I even begin moving forward? Ive failed my family, my friends, my roommates... There is no redemption that Im capable of doing.
cw si
My current plan is to just go as long as I can, and once the resources are all used up, take a walk to the bridge.
Is this what giving up looks like?
Uh, waiter, I was promised theres be thick subby femboys but all I see are muscle mommys
I love it, undertale and deltarune even unfinished are games that I hold close to my heart
Undertale was really special for me, my abusive parents were making me depressed and the game filled me with determination to continue until I could run away from home
My dumb ass took off my last patch but forgot to put on my new one last night and I only now realised at work 🙃