As I was leaving the library a little kid pointed at me and said “she looks like a boy”

At least my efforts aren’t going unnoticed 🫠

One of the things Im most looking forward to after bottom surgery is not having to tuck anymore. I tuck all day for these cretins and NOT ONCE has ANYONE ever said "wow I can barely tell you have a penis Terminal, great job" 🙄

The mirror is wrong. I'm prettier than that.

ah fuck

ah fuck

yeah that's a little tinge of romantic attraction towards someone I've known for a while now, isn't it?

ah fuck yeah i know that emotion too well and that's it

fuck...

Between transphobic in-laws, my broken phone screen, the Iran-Israel War, and general chumpfuckery, this has been a cromulent fuckcrustable of a day. Xia needs drinky.

i still get dysphoric a lot

but come to think of it, it used to be way, way worse before transitioning

so that problem has gotten better for me, actually. this is weird to think about for me for some reason

lmfao lady at the drive through just called me ma’am LET’S FUCKING GO

So many basic femme things I'm behind on. Not only have I been slacking on voice training, but I've also never learned how to do that thing where you flip in the air and land on an enemy's shoulders and snap their necks with your thighs. What have I been doing all this time

gay son or thot daughter? I'm both

T4T SUMMER...

T4T SUMMER IS REAL!!

I wish I could hire someone to train my voice. Not lead me in training exercises or whatever but like literally take my voice a la Ursula and give it back after it's been fully trained. That's probably the only way I'm getting the voice I want since I simply don't have the discipline to do it myself

Wearing a mask is the difference between getting “sir”’d or “darling”’d by the takeaway guy. (At least on days where I haven’t shaved)

I went to pride with my girlfriend this weekend and we had a great time! We met some folks from a trans org, and we're hoping to get involved in their like social/community aid nights :3

I can't feel anything. I finished the last assignment of my degree 10 minutes ago (that fucking paper who deadline got delayed to tomorrow midnight). There's no emotions going in my head besides a general sense of dread and unease. I hate the fact that work/studying is the main thing going on in my life. I hate the fact that I actually like this field because that means I easily threw away all my hobbies to focus on this one thing for my final year.

My only strategy for dealing with feelings like these is to laugh it off or make jokes about them, or even berate myself for disrespecting myself. Usually works ... but not at midnight. Midnight sodium_nitride is a major doomer. A real b**ch.

I had a very sad dream about my old cat. She was in a puddle, mewing pathetically, sick maybe? Its just a dream but still, I cried

celebrating my tranniversary by buying some winter clothes after work because holy shit i'm so cold. can't believe estrogen is making me re-evaluate my favourite season smh

gonna be hanging out in here for a bit to stay away from the news mega. i need some positivity and not anxiety right now

therapy

oversharing on hexbear

One of the silver linings of boymoding is the amusement from making guys confused about whether they’re in the correct bathroom (it has happened twice this week)

Accidentally started thinking this morning, how about we don't do that

Today has been much, much better then the last few days/week has been. Nothing too special happened, just feeling more normal I guess. Did get to see a friend for a few minutes at work which was nice. I know I'm not supposed to apologize but sorry if I worried anyone. Thank you for all the supportive messages.

My tits are actually pretty big now, I'm just so tall and my ribcage is so big and stuff that I feel like they still look pretty small

I want to wear autumn clothes again. Go away hot weather.

Started prog recently, shit has fucked me up ;-; . Been spending a bunch of time jsut feeling like shit and depressed, crying in bed for hours. It sucks. When do I get used to this shit so it isn't so mentally turbulent

When I started estrogen, I was crying a lot because it was like a mental barrier was lifted and repressed emotions could just flow out. It made me able to cry at like, anything, at romance movies, at sad moments in video games, at silly cat pictures. It was cathartic.

This is just like someone put my emotions into a jar and shook it before smashing it on the ground uaaaagggggghhhh ;-;

Just woke up and my devious plan worked

Death to Israel

They have “preemptively” attacked Iran. Join the news mega for updates

padded sports bra my beloved dysphoria destroyer

I NEED MORRRE VAMPIRE YURI!!

🏳️‍🌈🧛‍♀️❤️🧛‍♀️🏳️‍🌈

I haven't played deltarune since chapter 1, but I sure like Susie.

One of my favorite emojis, too

Is it weird to put in my dating profile that I want someone who'll bully me a little

YAKUZA: KIWAMI

Im gonna miss working with children. They're so adorable, babies, toddlers, little kids, big kids, teens. Maybe Ill go back or focus on the peds population one day.

Friday (the 13th) Rice

i wrote more lyrics

Told myself I wouldn't post sad shit today but whatever.

It's been a bit over a year since I accepted this. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others but I really wish I had gotten better. I don't know why things break me but make other people stronger.

My therapist has said a few times that it's weird this isn't pushing me to do more. (my words now) It's broken me instead. I don't know why. Why am I more broken then I was a year ago. Why am I not better. I've tried my hardest. My hardest isn't good enough.

This past week has been so bad.

bloom: in a t4t relationship. i feel amazing , she makes me so happy

doom TW dysphoria

I just opened a pringles can and want to share. Please comment how many you took and I'll update the count

Pringles left: ~~100~~ 0.5 (no can)

My pink areas on da boobs (idk wtf you call them) have been, swelling and shrinking dramatically depending on the temperature and I'm scared.

Also, I'm wearing a black trench coat that my dad used to wear, have ear length (black) hair and black shoes (no laces or velcro, those slip on types). It's kinda crazy how going on HRT has made me care way more about dressing nicely and grooming myself. And as a result, I now look like a stylised military officer. I just need boots to ~~stamp on the human face for an eternity~~ complete the look.

Transes, I'm eepy and stuck at work

Looked at some pictures of myself from last summer, wearing almost the same outfit I'm wearing today, and it's pretty hard to pinpoint what exactly the difference is, but I looked way more androgynous back then HRT truly is magic