Horrible and ready to be put out of my misery.

I'm doing Lemmy with Docker on a Debian host and Voyager as the frontend.

I managed to wrangle myself some downtime this week, and my favorite musical artist put out a new EP so pretty good.

Afraid of being asked this irl and dropping tmi. But since this is the Internet...

I'm 52 and going through what feels like a 2nd fucking puberty. I'm feeling creative again, but this time with panic attacks, and enough experience to own the Art of Procrastination to a level that matches Gojo's Limitless. I'm dodging that shit like it's effortless until the last possible moment and then crush it. So far.

I have so, so much to worry about, I've shorted out. My brain is simply in denial so I will probably have a sleep paralysis panic attack again soon.

At least there's some good stuff too and I'm clinging to that. And my hyperfocusing/fixation on stuff has come in handy, even when using to avoid other things.

Anxious but looking forward to moving out. Things just have been really rough on me mentally for the past few years where I currently am and I'm just really looking forward to at least put some of those memories behind me for a while

Someone got stabbed in the hallway outside my apartment last night. Being poor's just great!

Rough patch.

My wife is going through chemo for colon cancer. Prognosis looks good. But the treatment is hell. Halfway through next week.

Her aunt lives with us. She has Parkinsons. Starting to really slide. Needs bathroom help every 2 hours - 24x7x365. No one sleeps much here. She'll need to go into assisted living real soon now. Will she live longer than her money? Maybe.

My kid is 14. Good kid. Smart. Well-intentioned. But 14 is hard. And he's a total slacker.

My mom just had gallbladder surgery at 80. She's recovering well. But lives on her own and needs extra attention. We all worry she will need to go into assisted living, too. But she's mostly broke. Not good.

The place I work was bought out a few months ago. My job is likely safe through the end of the year. But after that... well, we all know how it usually goes. At least my wife's chemo will be covered until then.

I'm over 60 and overweight with HBP. No heart attack... yet. But that can't be too far off.

So... plenty of pressure all around. But I manage to keep to the Stoics' philosophy and accept the world as it is. Be patient and kind and let things happen as they happen. I keep trying to loose weight.

Either we get through this, or we don't. But I can easily accept that we all did our best.

Not great

Not great. Perpetually exhausted (~4 years, onset), GP just gaslights me into thinking I'm fine.

My friends have all but abandoned me since the pandemic.

I have no job and due to the aforementioned fatigue struggle to find a route back to employment.

On the plus side my cat loves me. Probably something to doo with tuna.

Overall I think I win.

Pretty awful if I'm being honest. I'm miserable at my job but having trouble finding anything better and worrying I'm not good enough. All my friends have had kids and settled down and I uninstalled all the dating apps a year ago because all I ever got was ghosted. I feel like I'm stuck here with no way out.

I'm fine. I hope you are too.

I have a paper for uni due end of this month that I'm procrastinating working on. Not fun because I have low motivation to do it, but otherwise I'm doing fine.

Balls right now. Just balls.

I have a lot of free time today so I'm having a blast improving my NixOS skills while listening to some relaxing music.

Spent about 3 hours unfucking my 2FA TOTP situation. Happily done with Authy. Should have dumped it ages ago. Saved screenshots of all my QR codes in a safe place so I can use new apps if needed (or if I lose my phone). Primarily using BitWarden for now.

Doin' my best. God, I'm so tired....

Busy but overall doing great! I'm drawing right now 😃

Pretty bad, but I'm getting better at acting like I'm great!

Considering walking across the highway till the breeze stops

fine.

I felt like I was on the up and I got spiked like a volleyball. I'm just tired of everything.

Meh.

Reasonably well for being in the middle of an American election year. Ignoring that as much as possible (good luck). At times, I hate life. But for the most part, I'm doing well. I wish everyone well.

Happy to contribute without having anything to contribute.

Can't complain. And you?

Not bad.

Oddly enough the TIL sub seems to have it's fair share of jerks, but I blocked them, so all's well.

Doing just fine thanks

Feeling spikes of being overwhelmed, anxious about the future, feeling bad about ideological clashes with a friend and trying to shake off the bad bedrot habit I've picked up. So just the normal.

Still, over the last few months I've pushed myself to do things I've not done before. So that's good.

... Also, my work has announced massive cuts, but not how it's going to affect us. I should probably worry about that. :D

I feel like I've drifted from all my online friends but things are going good with my IRL friends. Work is good too.

I've a lot of "have-to-dos" in my life right now and it won't seem to end for another couple months. I'm overly stressed. Worse, it's mostly paperwork stuff which my executive function is waging an immense war on

Existing

Lying sick in bed. But on the other hand I am now able to do a pretty accurate Rykard voice immitation.

I hit the bottom of my munchkins box already and I'm ready to cry. And I can't go back to the same DD today because they'll probably recognize me.

Minor gripes but overall good

I have this week off but I don't have much to do, and I'll just spend it working on my other job and so it'll feel like nothing. I hate that. But I can't really afford much.

My old dog is getting really restless and we think he maybe has tracheal stenosis, which wouldn't surprise me, but he seems kind of unhappy. He goes to the vet next weekend. He wakes up in the middle of the night and wanders around a lot during the day rather than his usual snoozing.

Going to finally get my nasty hair cut.

Work is stressful because of macro economics hurting conversion and being responsible for organic conversion. One of my cars is in the shop awaiting CPO to determine if it’s covered under warranty or not and my other car is dying.

Good news is that the car that is dying (2010 Santa Fe) is being traded in for a 2025 Subaru Forester today, so that is exciting!