Afraid of being asked this irl and dropping tmi. But since this is the Internet...

I'm 52 and going through what feels like a 2nd fucking puberty. I'm feeling creative again, but this time with panic attacks, and enough experience to own the Art of Procrastination to a level that matches Gojo's Limitless. I'm dodging that shit like it's effortless until the last possible moment and then crush it. So far.

I have so, so much to worry about, I've shorted out. My brain is simply in denial so I will probably have a sleep paralysis panic attack again soon.

At least there's some good stuff too and I'm clinging to that. And my hyperfocusing/fixation on stuff has come in handy, even when using to avoid other things.