and i can go rot in the corner to make space for the pretty girls

I remember a friend saying I've become less anxious since they first knew me and I feel that's a win. I think a lot of it just having to do with realizing I"m not really responsible for other people or their moods, I'm still gonna be a good friend and confidant when I can but like I'm not gonna burn myself out if someone doesn't want the help. Guess that's the thing I can't really solve someone else's problems and I just gotta focus on my own first.

I am a god of creativity. Raw creativity (I made peanut butter chocolate cups while high)

me when I'm playing any soulsbourne game

I have got to buzz my hair off , I tie my hair too low and when I do my hair gets kind of ruined.

Seperate: Does anyone know the website that shows albums in a grid?

I made a really huge decision a little bit ago and made it official last night. It has the potential to REALLY fuck up the rest of my life, but it was kinda necessary :(

I very rarely wish I was cis but these are the kinds of things that put me in that mentality sometimes

if this is too much tell me and I'll delete it, or mods just delete it. Know it doesn't bode well that I'm venting here instead of getting help IRL, and yet here I am.

Pet frog

Being rocks, being and single still rocks I like being

I remember playing tamogachi life and making and shipping my irl friends together. Pretty much all my friends are lgbtq+ so I did have some trouble with a few this still being a nintendo game, the solution was to trans a couple of them to make it work. I haven't talked to some of them in years though so I'm wondering how close I got nowadays with mods or romhacks no longer an issue.

My mom was like "the white streaks in your hair look so pretty" finally getting ethereal and mystic looking

I kinda miss the old crank websites like time cube, there was one called something like truth.org I remember too. There was a youtube channel that styled itself more or less lole extra credits but Thoth (the egyptian god guy) would occasionally tell you about how the moon rings like a bell and Lemuria invented the christ consciousness grid in the same tone as extra credits guys talking about the pump in London that caused everyone to have enough diarrhea they died. My fav section of the bookstore is "controversial knowledge." As a kid I liked it the same way I liked D&D sourcebooks and Vampire the Masquerade or Delta Green, I liked different cosmologies and radically different views on the world

As an adult, I found out a lot of that David Icke derived stuff was just old school antisemetism. And, of course, for a significant number of people this isnt a fun game or something for voyeuristic freaks like me to peer over - these are their sincere beliefs in how the world works and as time went on more and more of the people and blogs I lurked just turned out to be in the throws of intense psychosis and it stopped feeling as fun. Although I did find a guy online who claimed infinity isnt real and addition is wrong (1+1 should = 11, which is a joke in grade school but I guess it pinged somewhere off him to be the root of how math should work)