I'm hiking, which is nice, but my asthma is kindly reminding me of what happened yesterday. The Earth, kindly enough, is answering my prayers for air and sending giant gusts of wind in my direction. I've rolled my ankle multiple times, but it's really nice out so it's still a good time 😊

I just discovered that the hippie skirts I've been buying can also be used as a dress. They even have a little neck strap thing that I can tie into a cute bow. This is life changing information.

Watched the People's Joker on tankietube. Glad it was uploaded there, since I couldn't find a torrent elsewhere.

Gave it 3/5 stars on Letterbox. I enjoyed it overall. Vera Drew herself is transition goals.

Real sleeping in a capsule hotel and the fucker next to me is too zonked out to hear his alarm hours. On the bright side, after staying up for like 30 hours yesterday and being forced awake at 5am I might have a somewhat normal sleep schedule for the rest of the trip?

Anyone have shopping recs in Osaka for someone that is still very boymode but wants to look for cute things? I'm also like a foot taller than most Japanese women and there's no way there will be any shoes that fit my giant feet. A yukata would be nice, tho...

(sees a fat squirrel blissfully eating a big ass triple peanut while standing on his hind legs and pissing at the same time without a care in the world)

^Hell^ ^yeah^ ^dude,^ ^respect^

yep, the E did exactly what I thought it would do and turned my already very thick, muscular logs I called thighs and now they're thicker than some girls' torso, good lord

Me earlier today while I was jumping and singing along to music while taking a shower:

Me after browsing social media for 2 minutes:

british comedy fans are always like "i louve humour and coumaedy"

Ya girl also started stimulants last week and today I doubled my dosage from 5mg to 10mg and I feel so so so emotionally energized.

2024 Pt.2 is looking up for me.

Happy US national coming out day.

meant to post about this last week but I'm delighted with my dye job. I'm naturally a dirty blonde/light brunette depending on the season, with some slight red undertones (stealing valor there tbh, sadly didn't fully inherit that from my mother). I went for like a super deep cherry red, and I'm absolutely loving the result. my hair is easily my favourite physical feature so I'm preening over it even more than usual. washed and conditioned tonight and my curls look great. I was also pleased that I got it done right in time for [personal special occasion] last week where I got to hang out with some of my buds and felt I looked great, even put a full face on which ive also been getting more confident with! I've been pretty freaking depressed lately but I thought I'd push myself to make a positive post hehe. love all my trans comrades!

i knew Diddy was really fucked when they started calling him Sean Combs again

Thinking I should just get a hair transplant done as soon as I can afford it. I know that it's best to get it together with FFS, but that's several years away and I don't want to go that long with this awful hairline.

walked around and existed in public, used words with strangers, and got boba at the end. pretty good friday night

More people have begun trying to gender me correctly at work, and it's very nice. There's one coworker in particular that's been absolutely wonderful about using the name I requested and using fem coded language. It felt so unbelievably nice when she gave me a copy of something I had asked for in the group chat and right at the top of the page was my name hand written. Idk it's such a small thing but it felt so nice.

Also, I made a key for my midterm review in the cute handwriting I've been working on and I had a student compliment my handwriting and uhhghghghghghghgh no one's complimented my handwriting before!!! People have made neutral remarks about my old handwriting, like how it's very tall and skinny and consistent, but no one has ever just told me they liked it until now. It was neat being on the other end of that, since I've told soooooo many women I loved their handwriting lol.

Also also, I'm not so sure about the idea of calling my birth name my deadname. I think I still like it and might end up wanting it as my middle name, even if it's kind of aggressively masc. I say that, but it might be my extreme sentimentality talking. I mean, I literally still tell people my favorite color is green even when it isn't, because I considered it my favorite color for so long and it feels weird to just sort of ditch it. So it's very likely that the same kind of thing is happening with my birth name, where I don't actually like it that much, but the sentimentality makes me feel like I'm losing something by giving it up. I will say that my chosen name has all of the components that I like about my birth name, but has the additional benefit of my liking the name itself. I wish I could share my name with you all, because it's sooooooooo cute.

As soon as I consider the thought of making my birth name my middle name, I'm immediately smacked with the realization that I could instead pick something cute as my middle name and that already sounds much more appealing to me. This whole time I've been simping over the overwhelming cuteness of the first name I've selected, but neglecting the reality of a whole ass other name I can consider.

This post is a bit of an amalgamation of various random ramblings haha. Perhaps I could have made each of them their own post to boost our post count...

Wish Winter would come already i want to wear leggings and thigh highs but its still fucking summer Temperature in fall

T levels are still looking so low i think i'm just going to quit taking spiro, even after lowering by E dose by 25%

some homeless guy on the street in my dream gendered me correctly :)))

My sister decided to tell her therapist about me, saying I looked happier after I transitioned. She told me that it's probably the happiest she's even seen me, and I'm pretty glad that others can see how I'm feeling. Still have stuff going on, but it says a lot about just how bad I was pre-transition.

Also, her therapist told her that I need to get therapy and find other trans people IRL (friendships or support groups). Trust me, I know, her therapist really read my mind from idk how many miles away

thinking about any time i've ever successfully cleared the bottom allegations and honestly it's not coming to me

getting my updated hormone levels back in about two weeks to talk about. if they look good i might be able to stop spiro and maybe then i'll be able to sleep again

I was looking in the mirror (accidentally as one does coming down a hallway) and uh ooh boy I have like the beginnings of the classic hour glass thingy. Where the sides of my waist pinch in like ) . (

When the hell did that happen 😳

wtf brain

took a quick five hour nap while partner was gone & woke up absolutely miserable for no discernable reason

I had a dream about getting to the top of the list of bottom surgery and going to the clini to get it on!! I was mostly excited - although they did keep asking me to do weirder tasks also

The tasks were like, nursing skill/knowledge quizzes but at some point the testing people left without a word and apparently I "passed" the final test by finding them

if i die by wasting away in a dorm room bed from my untreated chronic illness, i just want you all to know that it was a good run, comrades

ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

Using :3 unironically a bunch has been great.

going to the annual anarchist bookfair tomorrow. got some decent books there over the years, and they sell some really nice artwork by artists