Today has been a busy day, and I feel like I've made good progress with several important things. Had my first appointment with a speech therapist experienced in helping trans people, and now I'm back to voice training 
Trying a different tactic, hopefully I'll actually be able to stick to it this time 
Kiagz
joined 4 years ago
Every monday I have an appointment with my therapist, but this time I show up only to find out that he's on vacation. Cool, not like they could have told me that ahead of time 
feeling sad and lonely :(
The loneliness and executive dysfunction are most noticable for me in the weekend. I have all this free time, two whole days where I can do whatever. But I have no friends to hang out with, and no motivation to do anything other than scroll through social media and think about how bad my life is 
having a very bad day
Feeling awful. The gender dysphoria, executive dysfunction and loneliness is just too much. I've just been laying in bed all day. Don't care about eating or drinking. Don't care that I should have taken my HRT 5 hours ago. What's the point? My life just keeps getting worse no matter how hard I try to fix it.
I'm not cut out for this shit. Why couldn't I just have been born a neurotypical cis girl?
Brain is empty today 
sad :(
My brain is so mean to me Just a constant stream of negativity towards myself. Nothing is ever good enough
I'm so impatient, I really wish it would go faster. But at the same time it's easier for me to keep boymoding when there's no big, sudden changes. It is what it is, I guess...
According to my mom my face looks softer and more feminine 
She also said my nose has gotten thinner 
Seems HRT is still doing it's thing, I'm just really bad at noticing it.
It's so great. You can't even buy a new washing machine now without AI being crammed into it. I'm sure the next kettle I buy will also have AI, somehow
Yeah, I think this was for the best. Hopefully I can find something less back-breaking. I'm also not sure if my ADHD ass could have handled working in such a loud environment 
I'm in desperate need of at least three different types of therapy at this point. General therapy for my abysmal self-image, gender therapy for all my trans related problems, and cognitive behavioral therapy for my ADHD. Feels like I'm so far away from living anything close to a normal, happy life 
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Hell yeah!