I managed to stumble across a person who happened to be an auDHDer like myself in a game just now out of blind luck. They had very similar academic interest to mine so we had a fabulous yap session/taking turns infodumping session.

It was pertinent to the discussion at the time so I mentioned the anarchist Ivan Illich's work to them and they were immediately very interested in his stuff. It was definitely in keeping with my "Chuck 'em leftwards and hope they land somewhere good" strategy.

Apparently I still got it in me.

Also Linux stay winning

Ughhhhhhhhh the waitress at the cafe im at is a super fucking cute trans girl. I look like dogshit right now and i dont know how to talk to people irl aghhhhh

fucking white queer libs i am so fucking done i was on this nice ace kink server, with my partner partner notices a sus profile, and i autotranslate the hebrew on it, and it's a clear zionist. i even asked my friend who speaks hebrew and he told me it was an israeli nationalist slogal. i alert the mods about this, and the mod i speak to says they'll talk to the other mods.

they tell me to suck it up and they won't do anything. it's not a political space after all (LIKE FUCKING HELL IT ISN'T). this was already too far but i didn't do anything, except privately explain to the mod that this was the wrong decision and why, and ask they convey that to the rest of the mod team.

next day a mod shuts down a conversation that drifted into politics.

so i just fucking posted a song in solidarity with palestine, announced i was leaving because the server is tolerating zionists, and left. wish i'd posted screenshots of the mod convo before i left but hindsight is 20/20 i guess. i was told afterwards by a member that this guy had been much more vocal about his zionism on another server and caused a whole drama.

just. how hard is it to not include reactionaries in queer spaces? this place would boot out anyone who came in with fascist profile shit. zionism is a form of fascism but somehow that doesn't count? like no fash but sure, you support an ethnostate actively committing genocide, why don't you come into our safe space? well great, now there is no safe space. i loved that place. it was the only social space i felt safe in a sexual sense.

does anyone have a recommendation of a queer kink discord server than does not include zionists?

My tits really hurt. I guess this is just something that happens when I get a cold now

Edit: god this really feels like a monkey’s paw curse. Jokes on them though cause I can take it

Edit 2: KITTY NO!! DONT STEP THERE!!!

Hello new trans mega

I went for two different walks today and my legs are feeling p o w e r f u l

Night walk had a pretty moon view ✨

We need more trans fox girls!

Feeling so much queer joy today 💖

I'm SO glad I made it passed the initial excitement phase. I was so worried that I was only doing this because it's exciting, and, once the excitement wore off, I wouldn't be interested anymore.

But the absolute normalcy of my gender is SO much better. When I can present fem in front of my friends and hear my pronouns just as a normal fact of life rather than something I have to build up courage for, it just HITS.

The more I come out of the closet, the more real it all feels, and doubts start melting away. I honestly can't wait to try E!

Might just eat cookies for dinner

transness will continue until morale improves

Continuing to struggle with the feeling like I don’t belong, neither as a trans person or even more broadly as a queer person. It feels like a joke—I’m just a straight cis dude in all but name.

a second uninstall has hit tiktok

imma try to work past my lifelong posting anxiety and lurk less, i have gay takes that must be heard

For some reason my tax refund got super delayed this year, but I finally got it! First time in forever I don't feel broke. Time to get some cute winter outfits

!CW Venting, social dysphoria:!<

!Feeling kind of shitty and just generally lost in my transition. There's a lot of stuff about it that feels daunting and that I don't know how to move forward with. Lately I've been wishing I had a cis girl friend who could help me out, and be a kind of 'big sister' I could go to for advice. But most of the women I'm friends with are very butch, and haven't felt super equipped to help me. And the one friend I have who has been able to help, moved multiple States away, and while she's been able to help me with some stuff, the distance has impacted our friendship, and I'm just feeling sad about the whole thing!<

Gonna and for a while, comrades. Got some things I need to do. Be back soon! Make sure to keep the cis down in my absence.

I play it cool here, but every week, in my head I'm like, "this is the week I'm going to tell them I'm actually a cis guy and that I can't post with them anymore 😭"

Lmao so deranged

Hear me out; what if we just gave everyone with treatment resistant depression and dissociation a taste of HRT and saw what happened?

The radical left has converted me from a puppygirl to a catgirl :3

Edit: my PFP was briefly slightly nsfw hope nobody saw that

I remember jumping into the trans coffin in dark souls 2 and never noticing the effect since I was always beef jerky in armor was in for a surpise when I used an effigy and changed armor

If I backtrack on this in a week, I'm blaming the carousel

If I were to ever look at myself in the mirror and see a pretty person, I'm not sure if I'd have the emotional bandwidth to be able to control what happened next.

trans linux mascot

TW: Discussion of health

I ship her with Firefox

did not know about the trans Linux fox girl, ty for making my day better

Good morning TO YOU

ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

Goodnight comrades, here's part of the code of conduct that i think about alot

Be aware of your own enjoyment of the site.

• If you find yourself no longer having fun, do something else. There are many different comms on Hexbear, and many different ways to shitpost and have fun.
• If the site as a whole is just not cutting it for you, take a break. We'll still be here when you get back. Nothing should compel you to stay.

https://hexbear.net/code_of_conduct

My friend just sent me a decade old photo of myself when I had a huge beard. Just wearing swim shorts. I'm having complicated feelings.

Like, idk... I'm handsome, but it's okay to think you're handsome and still want to transition. Sometimes feels like I'm fucking something up.

I mean, I look at recent photos of me in makeup/dresses, and I'm still handsome/pretty, but... Idk, it would've just been easier I guess.

Also I had super hairy legs. REALLY glad those are gone. I had actually forgotten what they looked like lol