According to my mom my face looks softer and more feminine 
She also said my nose has gotten thinner 
Seems HRT is still doing it's thing, I'm just really bad at noticing it.
I really want to move to a bigger city and start everything from scratch. Leave all the people and places associated with my my old life behind. But I'm probably just gonna be stuck here forever instead 
Thinking I should just get a hair transplant done as soon as I can afford it. I know that it's best to get it together with FFS, but that's several years away and I don't want to go that long with this awful hairline.
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Not only that, but my mom also said that detransitioners don't get enough attention in the media 
I've been very patient with them since they're my parents, but this has gone on for too long now. If they don't stop bringing this up I'm just gonna stop talking with them.
doomer stuff
Feeling hopeless about social transitioning. I'll never be able to come out of the closet at this rate. 
I was so full of optimism and hope back when I accepted that I was trans, but that's all gone now. I can't reverse the damage the first puberty did to my body, and I cannot live my life as a non-passing trans woman. I'll probably just be stuck boymoding forever. What a miserable existence.
Fucking cis people never have to deal with any of this shit. Why couldn't I just have been born a cis girl? 
Thanks! 
So I'll have to force myself to use discord if I ever want to make any friends? Great...
Yeah, I used to be really into the g*mergate/anti-sjw side of youtube back when I was a teenager. Now I'm a queer neurodivergent communist 
I'm 9 months into HRT, and it's definitely made me feel a lot better about my body. Though I will say that the mental changes from HRT has made me feel much worse about the other aspects of my life, whereas before I was too dissociated from my emotions for it to really bother me. It's mostly the social aspects of transitioning that are causing me a lot of distress rn. I'm still boymoding, and it's getting very tiring having to constantly to hide so much about myself from everyone else.
ADHD makes it difficult for me to read books, but I think it would do me good to go through some of Leslie Feinberg's works. It'd be easier if I had the audiobook versions, but I'm not sure where to find those.
Thanks, I'll try my best! :)
Yeah, and western mainstream media only ever acknowledge that these groups exist in Arab countries when they can use them to pinkwash imperialist actions such as sanctions, coups and invasions
Kiagz
joined 4 years ago
sad :(
My brain is so mean to me