ADHD

I often think about how my inability to consistently take my medication, to fill my prescriptions in a timely manner, and to keep up with med check appointments with my doctor are all undeniable proof that I have ADHD. I wish there was a way to use that to relax the restrictions for getting my medication. Like, if I procrastinate filling ten prescriptions for so long they expire, can I get my meds delivered to my house instead? lol.

It’s addictive to non-ADHD people.

To people with ADHD, it simply helps them function more “normally”.

Source: am neurospicy

I had a screw up at the pharmacy a few months ago and they didn't refill my Adderall. I think it just got missed when some other scrips were filled. A month later I happened to be by the pharmacy so I swung in to try and finally get my Adderall refill. They pointed out that the prescription was from a month ago and asked why I hadn't asked about the refill sooner. To which I replied "Because I've been out of my ADHD meds."

Isn't it the case that one of the better signs of ADHD is ADHD medication is not addictive for you? That is what I recall hearing back in the 1990s when ADHD was first becoming a thing we treated.

I didn't forget, I just havent gotten around to it yet... because it's in a draw 5 feet from where I'm sitting

this keeps happening

I really should be medicated. I was diagnosed back in the 90s but they prescribed me Cylert instead of Ritalin (I don't think Ritalin XR was a thing yet and I didn't want to be that one weirdo that got excused to the nurses office every day during class).

Cylert was so great that it could cause your liver to shut down, so I had to go to a clinic and get my blood tested every month.

When I turned 18 I lost my father's insurance and stopped going to doctors. Had the best night of sleep ever the first time I skipped Cylert. Pretty much forgot about it.

Ffw to a decade later: visiting moms house, find an ancient bottle of a months supply of Cylert in her cabinet. Man. It felt so good to take it recreationally.

When it ran out shit sucked for a week/forever.

I kinda wish I didn't know what awesome feels like, because I doubt I'll ever be lifted to those levels without chemical aid ever again.

The ceiling of happiness hovers millimeters above my head, and I'm punished whenever I attempt to breach it.

And meanwhile, people with the extra executive dysfunction care package: I will absolutely remember to pick them up again tomorrow

I'm so grateful that I forgot to take mine like 3 days a week, because whenever the refill is due (weird timing on this post, I'm in line at the pharmacy now) they say they're on back order and mt doctor has to call in a different strength pill. My refill dates gets pushed further into the month each month until it loops back around, and my system can't ever figure out when to take the meds because some months I have extended release, some months instant release, some months a mix of the two. Sometimes it's 20mg tablets, sometimes 10s, sometimes 30s, sometimes 5s. It's very confusing for someone who can barely remember to take their meds when they're on meds.

But yeah, accidently skipping like 3 days a week means I have some to get through the week+ of "it's in back order, call your PCP and ask them to write it for 1 billion 5mg extended release tablets, please"

Well... yeah?

For people with ADHD, you're just effectively bringing certain brain chemical levels (or your brain's response to existing chemicals) to a more typically normal baseline.

For people without ADHD, your levels are already typically normal, so now you're just getting high as fuck.

They seriously keep trying to put me on Qelbree and Strattera that my insurance doesn't cover for shit instead of Adderall which I already know works, I just can't say that because of the "drug-seeking" checkbox. It's such a weird dance. I just want to be able to focus.

I don't have my meds at the moment, which sucks. But it's not the first time I've come off them. It's not really a huge deal. It sucks, but only because I don't have the medicine I need, but it's not like I'm shivering and sweating, unable to function. It's just more like, "Well, shit." At least for me. I miss my Vyvanse.

I mean, isn't adderal some kind of amphetamine? They give us speed because our brain wiring makes it chill out instead of tweak out.

I have alarms on my phone for reminding me every single day and I still very often forget to take it.