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I made an account on ig to post thirst traps at my hot friends. Hoping to catch a few
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Okay idk if I'm actually demisexual. Or maybe I am? Why is this so confusing? Why is all introspection so difficult for me? Oh right cause I never feel like I can tell all that well which decisions or desires are actually mine, and which ones are me wanting to fit in and be accepted and loved.
sex
The hottest sex I've ever had was with somebody I knew for years before we ever did anything like that. And it wasn't even close to the second best, not even a little bit. It felt completely different, and I felt completely different. I thought because it was my first time having sex as myself with somebody I was out of the closet to. I didn't feel like I was performing, I was ravenous for real. Usually I'd have to worry about performing while topping, but I was still going strong as the sun came up the next morning. I thought this is just what sex is supposed to be like, but it hasn't been like that since. Not even with gorgeous people who I find incredibly attractive, who I get along with well and am friends with and trust and feel safe with. Hell I've even been on romantic dates with all of them, but no.
But then what if the reason it was so good with that one person was just because there are few people who cause that special sort of attraction in me? This is the only time I've experienced that, so it could be for any number of reasons, right?
Oh but I just remembered, whenever I invent sexual fantasies with my own original fictional characters, we're already very close friends in those fantasies. That does sound pretty demisexual from what I understand of it.
Ah fuck it, for now I think I'm gonna just stick to cuddling for physical contact anyway. I have time to try to figure this stuff out. Just put me down as questioning ig.
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Re-reading the spoilered section above I think my wording was a little confusing. It's also just confusing because this is confusing to me. But at least the wording is easier to fix. I meant to say that the friends who I've been intimate with where I wasn't feeling what I was expecting to feel were more recent friendships. Like months, not years.
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Fucked my gf while her other gf and my other gf watched. Trans polyamory is so cool
If I get a decent paying job in the future I think I'm gonna get a tattoo. Every time I catch a glimpse of my nails I become happy seeing color on them. The same happened with my hair when I had it dyed. I think the same will be true with color on my skin.
I'm still thinking about my first tattoo and I think I do want color
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hate being trans
I hate all the things I have to do, I hate being stuck in this body, I have voice training, I hate being misunderstood and hated for no reason, I hate going through life and remembering how many people truly think its right for me to suffer like this. I hate transitioning. I hate how inescapable it feels- even if I "make it" physically/voice wise there's always social stuff. This is not a fun or good experience. Fuck. I hate it.
Mostly my voice. Fuck.
Still can't believe this happened to me, and this is my life now
horrifying personal care mold
My douche had mold πππππππ ew ew ew ew ew
Thats really annoying because I followed all care instructions with it, it doesnt stay somewhere humid or moist except for the brief moments its in use in the bathroom, and it gets air dried out after use. Now I gotta wonder wtf how long has that been happening. I know some gynes say dont even bother douching but the surgical team said to continue to douche indefinitely, so Ive been following them for the past 4 months.
Anyway, everything is healed and safe and other than the sheer grossness... nothing seems irritated or bad or unhealthy so. I guess no harm no foul but omg mold why ew. I guess Ill write a message to the team and ask whats up and see if I need a new one
horrifying
look inside
yep, it's horrifying

You were warned


not a nurse but
that seems bad, not good possibly
I'm starting to think I really like birds
they're just cool and pretty and stuff
Trying to use riivolution patches on android and this is the most frustrating shit ever. JUST LET ME PICK THE FUCKING XML FILE JESUS CHRIST WHY IS THIS SO DAMN HARD
The xml is in the fucking folder, like the fucking readme says, but when I try to "start with riivolution patches" there's no fucking patch to select, what the fucking fuck do I have to do to just use GOD DAMN NORMAL CONTROLS with mario galaxy
Feeling both proud and lucky that I've been able to make emotionally supportive friends I can go to when I'm struggling. Never really had that before.
Been feeling better the last couple of days, lunch with my lesbian friend was super nice, never had plantains before and holy shit they were good. Kinda expensive but good. Then we went and picked up a mattress lol.
I've still got a few more things I want to pack up, we aren't doing it all at once or anything but I'd like to get as much moved as possible.
Kinda expensive but good
And they're super easy to make since you just roast them or fry them and they're good both savory and sweet
The last thing i did at work that got a plantain nerd all got and bothered was just a lil bit of salt, a little lil bit of allspice, nutmeg and cloves, a bunch of cumin, brown sugar, a little bit of cinnamon and some pureed ginger, tossed all that together with some frozen apple slices and roasted hot until they brown and the insides start to kinda bubble out (maybe roasting less would be good though because theres so much caramelization at that point that bits can kinda stick to your teeth). I've also done them with a coconut milk syrup glaze and that's been pretty good and that'd go good with that too
I WANTED to do the thing with the apples but also make like a pie crust with pulverized ginger crackers but everybody I suggested it to was like "that'd be weird" and then the sous chef told me "no don't do that"
Also if you like plantains you might like tostones too which are under ripe plantains that get fried and then flattened and then fried again and served with sauces and stuff
I think my dad hasn't really processed my being trans because I'm a lesbian, like he'd be mad if I dated men but because I'm interested in women I'm normal in his head.
Excited to see how he responds if and when I date another trans woman.
Has he said anything to suggest he's the type who somehow thinks gender and romantic/sexual orientation are intimately connected? Somehow one of my lesbian moms is confused about the difference between the two.
one of my lesbian moms

Its sad so many children miss out on having at least one openly queer parent. Child abuse really.
Yes. He's of a generation that sees being a trans woman as a type of upgraded gay man. I think he just thinks me being trans like crossdressing or drag (and that he's now very accepting of that)
We were talking about my dating again soon and he said something about how he imagined it would be hard to find a straight woman in my situation.
And was surprised when I explained I was going to date lesbians and other queer women. He's also historically very homophobic to me who are gay.
Finally got the riivolution patch to work, apparently you need to put it not in the Riivolution folder, but in the riivolution folder. Which you have to create inside the Riivolution folder. WHAT THE FUCK
Two more issues though, you can't make a patch default when you launch a game. There might be an ini edit to try. Also the tutorial doesn't work with the patch. So I think I have to configure the nunchuck + wiimote controls, clear the forced tutorial, then I can finally play the game with half decent controls. But I DID make progress on it.
Photosynthesis mega let's gooooo 
How do we not have more plant emojis?
I can't come out to my bi fujo cousin who doesn't know I'm queer because she has no discretion and I won't come out to my straight fujo cousin who suspects I'm queer because she keeps saying increasingly funnier things to hint she's cool with it and I want to see how far she'll go
Normally I'd say you should come out to people who will be supportive, but that does sound like a laugh 
She would be supportive but I suspect she wouldn't be regular about it. She told me she hopes her 1yo son is gay

Both of these cousins have told me to watch Heated Rivalry

iwtv (movie for me, and then the show) really did a lot of work on me.
Injection done, no leaking today, no pain, all perfect. This week will be good.
I need fantasy books that go all out on magic technology.
Like why are mfs fighting with swords and staffs? Where's my drone swarms? Magic artillery/ICMBs? Assassinations by telephoning poison into your enemy's wine? Automated magic artifact production factories?
Why is a world with magic got miners using pickaxes? Where's my magic smart tablets inscribed with speed casting runes? What about huge alchemical processing facilities that pump gigatonnes of philosopher's stone fluid into the wizard economy?
I know there's probably some books like that (I've even read one but won't recomend the series cause it got wierd in that horny middle aged Japanese writer way if you know what I mean).
i'm still waiting to reach the level of veganism where i can subsist solely off of photosynthesis. currently im still in the rock and stone munching level 

Ngl while my breasts are really small they do have a nice shape.
I'm having a little trouble with this. Like, I can feel the volume, I can see them poking through my shirt, but when I take it off I can't see much different, it's a little weird. I'm close to 5 months only though, so they should grow still.
Trying to deal with self-perception and stated perception of others is weird.
Sometimes I'm surprised people don't notice them when I feel like it should be obvious. Other times I feel like they're pretty discrete when looking in a mirror. People who know I'm trans indicate they're obvious now and I was told such first around the 6-months mark IIRC although they were quite small then. OTOH, no one has said anything at work still (except the chaser delivery person 9 months ago, back when I thought I could reasonably boymode without a hoodie), which sometimes makes me feel like they're not noticeable despite all the evidence against such.
Funny I feel like the exact opposite with mineβthey're decently big but still kinda coney. Today is actually two months on prog and I do feel like it has helped some, but I hope they'll continue to fill out properly
Just throwing on a short skirt on top of whatever shit we were wearing still gives up a surprisingly good mood boost, esp w how low effort that is to do 
Highly recommend wearing a skirt anytime u can
