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current events, transphobia

I feel like I'm going fucking crazy. So the 4th circuit just put out a really scary ruling saying out right care bans for adults are a-okay. Even further then what republicans wanted. The NHS in the UK is doing a report into if adult care is going to stay or not (after their report taking care away from kids). What the fuck is happening??!!!

spoiler meta If you didn't see that news, it's because no one here cared. Both threads sitting at 20~ votes. One comment each. Even people here don't give a fuck, is this not huge news?? I feel like I'm going crazy, I'm not over reacting am I?? Like these are both big, scary, crazy steps towards just banning us completely??? :::

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The audacity of my mom to say

1. "You can tell me anything" (has been only 2-3 weeks since she fucked me over for coming out the closet)
2. "I dreamt that you were crying, I'd there anything you want to tell me?" (Go fuck yourself mom. You feeling vaguely guilty doesn't undo the damage you did)

I can't even trust that this all isn't a manipulation tactic

~~Partner~~Fiance asked if I want to get married.

But some of our friends also recently announce their engagement like last week and it's a really big deal to them so we're keeping this down low for a bit so they can have their time in the spotlight.

So instead I'm just posting about it on a website for trans communists. I get to be a little excited at least.

I talked last mega about how the dam of my emotional repression was cracking, and was going to break under the rising waters of estrogen.

Instead I went out deep in the forest and picked up a clump of moss. It slowly crept along my skin. Now there’s a thick layer over my whole body. My memories from before I was a moss creature feel stranger and stranger.

Got to talk with one of the supportive peeps at work today

It was weird/funny to me that my being trans is more normal to her than it is to me. Its more foreign and weird feeling and everything to the trans person then the ally 💔 god I love her. Wish I saw her more.

do I go for a sports bra or a bralette first? the homies have gotten to the point where it can hurt a bit when taking stairs too quickly but I don't really feel the need for "support" throughout the day other than that. I'd like it to have a bit of a minimizing effect as well since I'm still boymoding for a bit. 42C/43D if it matters, though that's mostly on account of my ribcage

I captured a gardevoir and she's a trans girl. I only have girls in my team, if the pokémon follow me they're girls, I don't care what the game says, even the "male" alolan raichu is a girl

Nother day with nothing accomplished! Instead of doing my tasks I spent my time yearning for what could have been had I been born in a world with magic (instantaneous perfect sex change) or magic (loving and accepting society)

My two standards of when I'll feel like I'm actually a girl are:

• getting a modicum of attention from sapphic women
• getting harassed by men on the street

Probably not the healthiest things to judge my worth on but it do be like that sometimes

Finally ordered a bra. Had to get my own Amazon account and free trial of prime so it comes tomorrow since I've been sharing one with my mom hitherto (and paying for it, which feels silly. I guess I do make more money than her. More parentification perhaps?). I hope it fits well enough

Only the coolest megathread gets to see this picture of one of the cats I just took

bad lifestyle choices

My current lifestyle consists of me constantly switching between caffeine, alcohol, dopamine/internet content and work from about 6 am to midnight and then it takes me an hour of tossing and turning and weeping till I fall asleep.

As you can imagine, it is very healthy.

(please turn the thoughts off I want them gone gone gone gone gone gone)

I took a shower in a locker room at a gym after working out!!! This has been a significant milestone!

It's finally happened. I'm switching to injections.

this isn't about robots in disguise

while I'm being shitty about cis ppls body issues (dysphoria)

My boss was telling me the other day about how self conscious she is about her top lip being too small, and how expensive filler is for her to be happy with it. Like 500 bucks I guess, one or two injections.

Can you fucking imagine? Like, that's the thing you really hate about your body and how it's fixed? How the fuck do people say my body issues are the same as a cis woman's with a straight face? I've spent that much making sure my body has the right hormone! A fucking lip is too small?? My voice is fucking RUINED by T and you're going to sit here complaining your top lip isn't big enough???

In what world are my issues remotely comparable with this??? God it just pisses me off. Why the fuck do I hate to deal with my fucking ruined voice and my fucking disgusting genitals instead of "my lip is normal sized instead of big"

I was looking for a job. I found a job, and wouldn't you know it, I'm miserable now

Does anyone have the meme thats like

'when you know a trans person long enough you learn they have a second, secret set of pronouns'

slightly horny

i was trying to infodump about ww2 to my partner and they were too busy w my hrtitties to pay attention, so these must be the consequences of transitioning I was warned about

This is the longest time I've been this depressed. Really struggling right now

i hate how easily i get jealous when my friends are closer with other ppl than they are with me, and also how upset i get if i dont get enough attention

started testing out "galthing" moniker for my it/it's friend

it seems to like it

Sadness and sorrow

I've been super emotional this week. Crying, or wanting to cry almost non-stop. Is this normal, or is there something wrong with me? Is this just my depression acting up + estrogen making me cry like a baby?

There's no specific reason, I'm just sad in general. Also probably because I got no money left if feels really bad.

dysphoria mention)

I found this personal attack aimed at me on the hell site

I saw a targeted Ad for me that said "struggling to remember the 156 tarot meanings?"

And I thought: No? It's only 78 plus reversals. I can remember all of those, even when I use Thoth deck with it's different meanings. Doesn't everyone just remember the nature of the minor arcana suits and what the separate numbers mean then imagine them as an x-y graph?

Starting to realise not everyone is an Autistic Trans Lesbian...

Used to have a crush on the librarian because she was friendly but got over it now going to a different library and noticing how much of a cadence these librarians have that are similar glad nothing came of that crush now or else they would have got me the library cabal

The needle on my sewing machine broke and now I have to get new ones before sewing on more patches and bondage straps onto my skirt.

I may be in love in a way I hadn’t felt in a long time. Actually in a way I’ve never felt because it’s more than that. It’s more intense yet more matured and realistic. It’s more reciprocated, more all encompassing , like I’ve had connections in one area or another but this brings it all together. And the feeling doesn’t make me want to cling on too tightly , I’m not afraid and even if it was just a moment of this feeling I would be better off having had that moment. Fuck I’m so gay

The first threepack of sports bras I bought fit perfectly in the store then in like 2 washes stretched way out. So for the 2nd threepack (a different brand) I bought some that were a bit too tight when tried on in the store and its been a while since and they havent stretched at all nooooo. maybe third time will be the charm.

Painting on metal canvas

i'm never puppy stressed when i do my puppy best!

Depression is hitting hard today.

I had to go in for bloodwork today and the lab tech at the clinic was the sweetest old lady. She was so casually kind and good humoured, very good at relieving tension in what's normally a pretty stressful situation for me. After a little joking around she told me that I brightened her day... I really didn't expect going to the clinic for bloodwork to pull me out of the anxious funk I'd been in all morning.

Got that thrifted sewing machine working! Tbh, it was already in great condition. Just needed to figure out the needle threading since I've never done it before. Definitely excited as this expands the type of diy projects I can complete,

Holy shit life is fucking depressing.

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It's everything honestly. Mostly being trans and having gone through and suffered all the effects of T puberty. Also how disgusting most people act about it. Also hate work. Hate that I'm probably going to work for the same small company my dad does because I don't have any options. How fucking shit is that. Dad's a chud and so is the company. But I don't have any fucking options because I'm fucking depressed because of being fucking trans. Fuck being trans.

Complained a tiny bit in group before everyone started talking over me. Was trying to talk with the transfem NB at the group. Hate complaining with them there because they have it way worse as far as trans stuff goes. Not that it isn't pretty dogshit for me too. Also idk why people put there flag on "some people are good though!" like that's what matters and not the like 80% who aren't. Like they can't make life horrible enough. Also thinking transition is just a matter of time :agony-shivering: whatever out of time to whine, breaks over.

The age of the dominant bottom has begun

familial dynamics criticism discussion

really sincere conversations happening now (elsewhere) talking about being critical of the nuclear family unit, and the dissolution of that idea.

More interestingly to me is the critique of the "found family" trope. Specifically, trying to re-create the nuclear family dynamics within the found family. Such as : seeking a parental relationship / assigning somebody to be your parent. I think this also extends to sibling dynamics as well. (It should also be pointed out that I don't have a problem with people who give a shit about each other, coming together to help each other as a "found family" in terms that don't have a power dynamic.)

I can say that this was also brought up to me by an older non-binary person, who said that they felt it was ageist for people to automatically assign them as their parental figure and demand emotional labor from them.

I'm going out again