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I was going to illustrate the whole poem by Edgar Allan Poe, but since I wasn't able to do it, have the one drawing, and the poem itself. Keep in mind it is horror literature and has themes of grief and a haunting encounter with a raven.

The Raven CW: Grief, Horror

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore, While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. “ ’Tis some visiter,” I muttered, “tapping at my chamber door — Only this, and nothing more.”

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow; — vainly I had tried to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow — sorrow for the lost Lenore —

For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore — Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me — filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating “ ’Tis some visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door — Some late visiter entreating entrance at my chamber door; — This it is, and nothing more.”

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, “Sir,” said I, “or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, That I scarce was sure I heard you” — here I opened wide the door; — Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before; But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token, And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, “Lenore!” This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, “Lenore!” Merely this, and nothing more.

Then into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, Soon I heard again a tapping somewhat louder than before. “Surely,” said I, “surely that is something at my window lattice; Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore — Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;— ’Tis the wind, and nothing more!”

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore; Not the least obeisance made he; not an instant stopped or stayed he; But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door — Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door — Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore, “Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven, Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore — Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly, Though its answer little meaning — little relevancy bore; For we cannot help agreeing that no sublunary being Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door — Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door, With such name as “Nevermore.”

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. Nothing farther then he uttered — not a feather then he fluttered — Till I scarcely more than muttered, “Other friends have flown before — On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

Wondering at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, “Doubtless,” said I, “what it utters is its only stock and store, Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster Followed fast and followed faster — so, when Hope he would adjure, Stern Despair returned, instead of the sweet Hope he dared adjure — That sad answer, “Nevermore!”

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling, Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust, and door; Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore — What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore Meant in croaking “Nevermore.”

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core; This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining On the cushion’s velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o’er, But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o’er, She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer Swung by angels whose faint foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor. “Wretch,” I cried, “thy God hath lent thee — by these angels he hath sent thee Respite — respite and Nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore! Let me quaff this kind Nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil! — prophet still, if bird or devil! — Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, Desolate, yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted — On this home by Horror haunted — tell me truly, I implore — Is there — is there balm in Gilead? — tell me — tell me, I implore!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil! — prophet still, if bird or devil! By that Heaven that bends above us — by that God we both adore — Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore — Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore.” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!” I shrieked, upstarting — “Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore! Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! Leave my loneliness unbroken! — quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!” Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon that is dreaming, And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor Shall be lifted — nevermore!


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[–] gaystyleJoker@hexbear.net 4 points 4 days ago* (last edited 4 days ago) (1 children)

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[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 5 points 5 hours ago (2 children)

Sometimes I hate reading books that aren't popular. Cause then who I talk to about them? But I can still post about them on the mega ...

Anyway, I think the best way to read reverend insanity is to consider it as a fable or myth of sorts.

It does have that kind of vibe, especially in the first volume, where the protagonist will do some heinous shit and then literally sit down to impart wisdom to the audience or compose a poem on the spot.

For example, in one chapter the protagonist feeds a child to a bear, then he starts talking about how the Buddha considered all lifeforms to be equal, therefore it makes no difference if a bear eats a human to survive or if a human kills a bear to protect themselves.

Of course, the Buddha would feed his own limbs to the bear to satiate its hunger. But the protagonist of RI is the anti-buddha. He believes in the same things and has the same personal strength of character, but is extremely selfish instead of selfless.

[–] Wmill@hexbear.net 4 points 3 hours ago (1 children)

Kinda reminds me of the show Xavier renegade angel, the show is very trippy but it's revealed he's an out of touch white dude with a savior complex that ruins everything around him in an attempt to reach enlightenment.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 4 points 2 hours ago

he's an out of touch white dude with a savior complex that ruins everything around him in an attempt to reach enlightenment.

What? No way, I need to watch the full thing.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 4 points 5 hours ago

Unfortunately, after the first volume, the story does sorta transform into doing capitalism but with magic.

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 8 points 10 hours ago (2 children)

Going to do my injection now but I can't find my needle 🙃 I could have sworn I packed one, and I absolutely can't leave a fucking needle in this house for my family to find. So now I'm low key extremely stressed tf out.

[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 7 points 9 hours ago* (last edited 9 hours ago) (1 children)

I did injection today too!

I have to requisition more supplies from work

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 7 points 9 hours ago (1 children)

Honestly they're cheap enough it's not worth the stress of stealing for me. I was shocked at how cheap it is.

[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 7 points 5 hours ago

I on the other hand have no compunctions taking supplies from work 😌✨️

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 7 points 10 hours ago

Okay 10 minutes of panic that I cannot describe and I found it. Thank fucking god. Can you imagine how fucking bad that'd have been? For my dad to find a fucking needle in my room?

[–] Alisu@hexbear.net 10 points 11 hours ago

cw: dysphoriaI got a wedding tomorrow and I don't want to go. Been avoiding all social events with lots of people. But I said I'd go, so I have to. Yeah, I'm avoiding social events because if I can't present as a girl, I'm being perceived as a guy, so I'd rather stay home and be treated as a girl by my friends on the internet.

I have to wear a suit. And, while that's stylish in a way, my body is still very masculine (because no hrt), so I'm going to be feeling bad. Wish I could wear a suit in a fem presenting way, but that's different I guess.

It's going to be like this for a while still. Just got to hold on, it's going to work out eventually

[–] RION@hexbear.net 14 points 14 hours ago

Went to a transfem group last night which was interesting. Got some advice on hormones, joined a discord.

Then last night I had a dream where a girl I work with told me to get my tits out which was, um, huh

[–] Moss@hexbear.net 12 points 14 hours ago

Being non binary sucks when you have a public facing job

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 5 points 13 hours ago (1 children)

Clash update, event is almost over. Got about 4 months of progress done in two weeks (will be a touch more because I'm placing some big upgrades down last minute, hopefully a month and a half of time saved). About 45 hero levels, each roughly a week long. 2.5 billion loot into walls. Took my walls from like Th14 level to th16. Going to spend a total of 4 weeks at th16, second highest in the game atm. New Town hall is coming like Monday and I'm desperately hoping th17 gets some time reductions because that's where I'm heading right now. So much catching up this event. Plus I grinded 3 other accounts heros pretty much the whole event but didn't record their progress unfortunately. Mostly just unrushing them which I'm very happy with their progress too.

Love the game and finally feel like I'm a high level account now. Because I usually play on and off I've usually been a roughly mid level player the whole time lol. But now I'll be like second highest town hall in the game and even without time reductions I'll be th18 in like 6ish months.

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 5 points 13 hours ago

Oh and my heros are finally maxed for my th, they've been behind forever because they're the upgrades that suck the most. Dark elixir is still kinda hard to get and they're super important to have up for attacks so they've been behind for genuinely years

[–] KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml 10 points 16 hours ago

relationships, lonelinessIf I don't have a lot of friends, is there any hope for me that I will get a partner? I feel like people don't want to be with someone who's lonely.

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 9 points 16 hours ago

The broke period cycle syncing vs the woke injection day syncing

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 18 points 20 hours ago

[horny] [peak shit]

I think I had my first girlgasms today catgirl-heart

Multiple even!

[–] inTheShadowOf@hexbear.net 16 points 21 hours ago

There's something so insidious about trans people who's goal is to convert you to their particular brand of misery. I try to just do my own thing and ignore people like that, but occasionally I'm reminded of how depressing it can be.

Why would anyone spend all of their time trying to narrow down transition to the most trad definition possible? If it's really just what someone personally wants, fine, but it never really stops there. It's always weaponized against the community.

Anyway silly-liberator

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 11 points 22 hours ago (1 children)

Boobs are amazing.

Now can anyone tell me why the fuck they itch so much?

Also, I gotta say, I hate wearing bras.

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 5 points 6 hours ago

Itch means growing! Or at least has been associated with it for me

[–] Wmill@hexbear.net 10 points 22 hours ago (1 children)

Next level my library app not only lets me order books but I can scan the bar code on the back to see if the library has it. Gonna hit up the thrift shops and look for gold then just borrow them from my library for free

[–] meler@hexbear.net 8 points 20 hours ago (1 children)

Wmill book posting goes hard

[–] Wmill@hexbear.net 7 points 18 hours ago

This the real hustle culture, making reading the number 1 hobby in my life

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 6 points 21 hours ago (2 children)

Do 10/20mg doses of E orally exist? I was talking with someone who said she was super depressed on E and she said that's what she took with 20mg Spiro. Is it possible she was taking 1/2mg instead? That seems like it'd make more sense as to why she'd be depressed if her dose sucks

[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 7 points 17 hours ago (1 children)

Sounds like a small Spiro dose in addition to a ridiculous very large E dose.

I have had many patients who have no idea what meds they take, how much, and for what. I always thought it was weird but they just do what the doctors say and take whatever they get at the pharmacist. I would suspect she was confused when she was telling you or really doesnt know (even though its on the side of the bottle)

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 7 points 17 hours ago

I wondered if it was, usually I hear people telling others their Spiro dose is way too high.

It's bizarre to me, especially when it's something so important and how relatively rare this is in the first place. I'm guessing she was too or misremembering something because that didn't really make sense. She has an appointment soon so hopefully she can get her actual dose figured out. She also never did any labs so 🤷

It's also weird because I definitely remember taking meds and knowing how much of what med and what they all were.

[–] SuperZutsuki@hexbear.net 10 points 21 hours ago (1 children)

Never heard of anything higher than 2mg pills and 20mg would be an absurd dose

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 8 points 21 hours ago

Thanks, I thought so. I'd heard of like 6mg doses but never 20.

[–] KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml 13 points 1 day ago (1 children)

hrt problemsFuck the EU, seems like a lot of HRT providers inside the EU were taken offline. It's harder for me to buy meds. Luckily I bought a couple of months worth of E last month, but my bica runs out next month and I want to start prog. I found a provider based in Hong Kong, but I'm almost sure it will be seized by the border guards, since they check everything from Asia.

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 4 points 6 hours ago

Have u tried teahrt? Iirc they ship internationally, out of the US, and maybe if its coming from there its less likely to get searched? The prog is little fishie suppositories so maybe even if they scan it theyll think its just candy or smth vivian-shrug

[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 19 points 1 day ago (1 children)

horny talkI was fucking feral horny the last couple days. Haven't felt like that since before androgen blockers, that was some weird shit.

[–] SuperZutsuki@hexbear.net 10 points 21 hours ago

spoilerNext time hit me up janet-wink

[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 23 points 1 day ago

hey there trans mega

sorry i haven't been posting much here recently

i fucking love you guys so much. every single one of you

anyway, the reason i haven't been posting much is because i've been a raging mess and i think i destroyed a marriage (for the better)

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 8 points 1 day ago (1 children)

I'm no longer on hyprland! I finally completed my migration to i3. It's all configured now. Best part is ... a lot of things actually work on i3, which means I can ditch windows even for uni purposes. Another amrikan klossed ssource korporate software defeated (I'm going to actually remove windows like ... tommorow. I need to buy backup drives so I can recover things).

[–] lilypad@hexbear.net 5 points 6 hours ago (1 children)

Yayy! Hyperland is super fashy iirc, glad youve migrated!

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 5 points 6 hours ago

Hyprland was also forcing me to use windows, since some of the things I needed to do for uni work can be done on an X11 system but not wayland. So it was kind of a buy one get one free for fascism.

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 10 points 1 day ago

I don't like pretending things are okay when they are so far from it. Unfortunately this is like the only space I don't.

late night feelings, rambly and idk how much sense I made hereI wish that was different. I feel like people like me more when I do pretend, when I put on the whole mask. I wonder if I'd have "clicked" better in the matrix and made friends. It's too exhausting being fake everywhere else and not having here to talk about my feelings. They feel infinitely more important to me then any stupid thing happening irl anyway. Like what, at work I talk about my job. But who even gives a shit? None of that matters that much to me. It's filler.

I don't know. I feel like I do not fit. I didn't fit in the matrix server. I think it's because of how much I've been suffering.

I wonder if maybe, the amount of suffering is why I'm so alone and can't feel connected. How can I really be connected to people when I feel like this.

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