hello kids and kittens

I'm not trans but I bet you guys already know about Liniker (Brazilian singer), right? RIGHT?

'Cause you totally should

bless ya!

ok which one of you wrote a funny cute soft trans gay fic and put disco elysium references and true facts about everywhere in it?

cause im not complaining it's great

Sandwich

Had the meeting today, it went pretty well. Only two other people there and both in very different situations then me. But hopefully there will be more people next week. Its nice to introduce myself as myself instead of coming out later.

Also I work literally all day tomorrow more money to keep saving though.. but fuck I didn't realize I was signing up for 14 hours

Sometimes, you got memories in your mind that are so fucked up you can only wonder if it is a hallucination. Obviously, I don't trust my memories, cause I don't trust anyone, not even myself. But like, why is that memory there?

I ate all my nice chocolate :(
Now I have to get more :(

we hate people

sighs

i am rubber you are glue is just a childish way to say this is projection and in this essay i will

I promise I will add some more music to the megathread today.

I just need to read "fundamentals of metal-oxide-semiconductor Field-effect Transistor" first.

Finally got a call back from my job search! It's a cancer research postdoc in a state/city that I actually want to live in. Super excited and a bit nervous of course.

I need to wrangle reference letters now (won't be hard depending on the timeline) and prepare a short research presentation (also shouldn't be hard, but it's definitely nerve-wracking).

Oh baby, it's not me, it's you. I'm type O negative, universally compatible, but you're a duck.

::: spoiler meds update

So, i think ln these meds im a bit better at actually making decisions! That doesnt mean im making good decisions, but i am making decisions! Im peeing when i need to pee instead of many hours later, im taking out the trash because im no longer forgetting about the trash in between noticing it and putting my shoes on. Im also now choosing to sit on my phone out of habit instead of choosing to do the other things i could be doing. This is kinda weird tbh. Feel abnormal and normal all at once.

people using agab language should consider not doing that

My friend is a genuis

Nothing gets me feeling like a child again than having such violent coughing fits that the professor sends me home. Also sneezing out blood.

Ah the good old days.

Every once in a while Ill catch myself in my peripheral vision in the mirror and always be a little shocked when the hot tall chick is me. Also my butt got big, the squats and deadlifts are paying off

Have the online meetup with my local support group tomorrow night. Have never participated in a group like this before so idk, probably a lot of listening and trying to figure things out.

I did some hardcore hiking for the past 3 days and my legs are so done. I had plans for more hiking today but spent the morning in bed, made it out around 1pm to get lunch, then went to a spot with a short touristy walk only to find most of the area was closed due to a bear sighting

Okay two transgenderisms

I cleaned my room last few days, it looks much better now :)

I can't wait to get my next shot, I was looking at the graphs and first shot barely gets you anywhere.. I just wanna feel estrogen already...

Love to grow confident in your self expression over the course of several weeks only to suddenly be disgusted by it all and want something completely different. Great. Really great!

I played a show recently and the opening group was a riot grrl punk band all 14, the drummer had a shirt with the trans flag with an AK saying "trans rights by any means necessary". Their parents were there to support them, it was heartwarming. Some of the youth is alright, it does make me really sad though with the world they have been forced into.

::: spoiler meds

I got some meds! Hopefully life gets better for me! Stimulants for executive function, prep for all the sex im not having, and antibiotics for after all the sex im not having lol.

I'm starting a personal project of doing illustration and book design for small public domain horror stories. First one I'm doing is The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe. I just wanna post it on the internet, but, honestly, maybe I'll set up ko-fi and let people tip me if they want, but I'll make them all free

I remember a couple nights ago I was pretty shook, woke up to an endless void and was pretty scared. Think is I'm pretty sure I just forgot how to open my eyes is all, scary void stuff hasn't happened anymore

Just got my first piercing the other day it looks so good!!!