might go to a karaoke night next week. should i sing Baka Mitai or is that too dorky?

vote for "he'll yeah EstraDoll, that's a great song you should do it"

vote for "no EstraDoll that's weeb shit from a video game sing Who Can It Be Now instead"

I think it was a physics class where we started to learn the rate of cooling for liquids and I kick myself for not paying better attention to that for how long I gotta wait for my soup to cool down

One of my irl adopted little sisters and I did a little picnic lunch today where we each made eachother desserts and she made me a whole cake and I can't I do not deserve this especially when I only made her mediocre raspberry and lemon crepes

been able to get back into cooking a little bit this past week. I used to cook a lot and really loved it, loved expressing myself and being creative through food, but then [THE HORRORS] and for so long I just didn't have the energy or the focus.

maybe it's silly, but it feels just... really really nice. almost empowering. like I'm reclaiming a part of my life that I used to love and is actually good for me.

Introducing the new doggirl walkie talkie idea, so you know how like regular walkie talkies use like magic/radiowaves to transit sounds we'll use a network of to pass messages along doggirl to doggirl. I'm more the idea haver so someone else will need to set this up and remember to give me credit alright

Current gender is smelling like apricots with a bit of engine oil since I did some car work this morning 🚗

If you think about it, transition is a form of cultivation. We ingest/inject pills and herbs and substances to convert our yang essence into ying essence. Not only does this allow us to comprehend the dao to a higher degree, it also makes dual cultivation techniques more effective.

Oh, why yes. I did recently stumble upon niche Internet forums discussing Chinese YA fantasy novels. How could you tell?

I'm feeling bitter today and am going to take it out on my fuckass parents ....

IS THAT A MAO MAO COSPLAYER IRL?!?!

I kneel _ /---o_

and i can go rot in the corner to make space for the pretty girls

Every injury/medical happening has me convinced that it's the end of the world until I get a second opinion. Spent all weekend freaking myself out over something that I've actually been managing properly. Lol

I saw Superman and Fantastic Four. I liked Superman more, but I thought both were like, good.

::: spoiler gamedev rambling The fun thing about working with Rust (or maybe Bevy?) is that every silly little thing feels like such a huge accomplishment. It's like studying the arcane arts, I'm deep into Bevy source code or sparse documentation and when 0.17 comes out some of my code will probably need to change (for the better, of course), and occasionally if you cancel compilation at the wrong time it corrupts your build directory.

Anyway, I present to you, loading .ron files from a folder to populate item stats! This is probably a one-liner in Unity, lol, but that just ain't me.

The file structure:

InventoryItem(
  id: "sword_test",
  friendly_name: "Test Sword",
  scene_path: "sword_test.glb",
  item_type: Weapon(
    slot: PrimaryHand,
    two_handed: false,
    damage: ({
      Slash: 2
    })
  )
)

And partial code to actually deal with async loading:

#[derive(Resource, Default)]
pub struct ItemRegistry(Handle<LoadedFolder>, HashMap<String, InventoryItem>);

fn load_items(asset_server: Res<AssetServer>, mut item_registry: ResMut<ItemRegistry>) {
    // Preload everything in the folder.
    item_registry.0 = asset_server.load_folder("items");
}

fn folder_loaded(
    mut er_loaded_folder: EventReader<AssetEvent<LoadedFolder>>,
    folders: Res<Assets<LoadedFolder>>,
    items: Res<Assets<InventoryItem>>,
    mut item_registry: ResMut<ItemRegistry>,
) {
    for event in er_loaded_folder.read() {
        let AssetEvent::LoadedWithDependencies { id } = *event else {
            continue;
        };

        if id != item_registry.0.id() {
            continue;
        }

        let folder = folders.get(&item_registry.0).unwrap();

        for file in &folder.handles {
            let item = items.get(&file.clone().typed()).unwrap().clone();
            info!("discovered item {}", &item.id);

            item_registry.1.insert(item.id.clone(), item);
        }
    }
}

I am not sure at this point whether I'll keep the "stripping the InventoryItem out of the Handle," it doesn't seem necessary but it might be handy to not have the items cloned into player inventories - to ensure all instances of an item are the same, but if I want to do item XP or anything like that that kind of precludes it.

Of course, all this is to say nothing of the actual design of the game which uh looks like this.

And once again, I am very proud of the view model, which is apparently a somewhat standard term for the view of the player's hands and weapons in first-person (although I just resized the window and its no longer visible, so that's a problem lol oh no). Several confused rounds in Blender as the co-ordinate systems are weird and I basically had to set up the camera view to roughly match the game by eyesight in Blender. Oh, and I guess the 5-hour donut tutorial paid off because look at that HIGH-DEF ART.

Up with eep

You know I was joking about transitioning being a form of cultivation. But there is apparently an actual cultivation novel with that premise. Haven't read it yet, but here you go

https://www.scribblehub.com/series/111627/the-yin-physique/

Unfortunately it seems abandoned... 😕

age, dysphoria

Preemptively bumming myself out because I'm gonna be way older than everyone else at school. I'm not a freshman girl. I'm gonna turn 30. I'll never have those formative experiences of being feminine.

It would have been cool to learn feminine things from a feminine person. As it stands I feel like I'm teaching myself rune magic, or alchemy or some shit.

spoiler doom Part of me is like, what if we just wild out? It's not like anybody is going to say anything either way. I think I've given people a lot of time and space to step up, notice, hold space in the ways that make sense to me. I think I've been very quiet so others can speak comfortably. I think I've waited for people to turn to me and say "you're acting different. what's up?" or "is everything okay?" and they didn't.

All of this was me being accommodating. Presenting myself in a way that people could help but I wasn't forcing them to by weaponizing my mental illness or something shitty like that. I wanted people to want to help.

But maybe everyone had their chance to ask, you know? Maybe any behavior that makes you wonder is just not up for discussion in the way it once was. Maybe there was a time that my habits were more malleable, but oh, you just missed it. Maybe. :::

I have got to buzz my hair off , I tie my hair too low and when I do my hair gets kind of ruined.

Seperate: Does anyone know the website that shows albums in a grid?

will I watch:

anime I'm 9/70 episodes into ❌

new season of king of the hill, which is actually pretty good ❌

all of hazbin hotel S1 for probably the 8th time ✅

Saw an acquaintance on hinge and sent them a message. They messaged me back and I don't really know what to do. We already have each other on signal and see each other around every now and then so it's not like I'll lose all contact if I don't get back to them. I think they're very interesting, intelligent, and attractive and would love to go out with them but no idea how to approach that. The message I sent was a comment on one of their pictures. Basically, "Hey, this picture is kind of scary lol" and they responded with "Haha, yeah I think so too". No idea how to proceed from here with my brain.

Hey, can anyone doing diy help me out? I'm unsure about it, and don't know what to choose from where and if I should do it

I remember a friend saying I've become less anxious since they first knew me and I feel that's a win. I think a lot of it just having to do with realizing I"m not really responsible for other people or their moods, I'm still gonna be a good friend and confidant when I can but like I'm not gonna burn myself out if someone doesn't want the help. Guess that's the thing I can't really solve someone else's problems and I just gotta focus on my own first.

Samura seiichi from kagurabachi is the first fictional crush I've had in years and it's for a married man with children and war trauma.

Well, his wife is dead so I have a chance ...

I just spent two hours filling out therapy intake paperwork. My therapist is going to have to read a goddamn novella before they meet me.

Mfw when I said I would take a shower after painting my nails and report the results, but haven't been able to yet 😩 i think I can now though. what color(s) should I do?