tldr:
still complaining about work sorry
my first office day sucked ass so i called in sick today. i got there, forgot what floor we were on so kept visiting different floors until i found it. opened up my laptop, wifi wouldn't connect so missed my morning meeting. IT guy helped me find a wired desk. service desk guy misgendered me (i feel like intentionally? he was kinda rude from the jump and i was in a very femme outfit using a not-perfect girl voice). and i spent the rest of the day overstimulated, cold, uncomfortable, and super fucking anxious. i mean the office was bad pre-transition but now i'm just so on-edge i can barely even do any work
i've just had my penultimate psych session where i got him to explain my diagnosis in a letter. if that doesn't work i'm going to quit, the main reason i'm staying is because i really like my team, there's some (measly) trans benefits offered to 1+ year perms, and i'm dreading having to find another job
every single time i talk to someone about wfh they talk about how much they missed the social connectiveness of the office and how lonely they felt but i just don't get that. i know there's people that are more affected by RTO than myself and i know i probably sound privileged asf but i just can't do this shit 3 times a week. i don't even think i'm leaving the house that often outside of work...