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hi so i forgot to message the person who was next (sorry HelltakerHomosexual) so i'm just gonna talk about a thing i like

Shadow the Hedgehog is a character that appears in the Sonic the Hedgehog series. Characterized by his sharp wit and strong sense of purpose, Shadow is a recurrent arch-rival of Sonic the Hedgehog, whom he resembles and shares many abilities. He is a major supporter of trans people, as evidenced by his catchphrase, "Trans people are cool!"

^ this is all from the wiki btw

I like Shadow a lot. His first appearance in the series is in a game where him and Sonic are both fighting the government and destroying these multi-million dollar gunships. Sonic is doing it because he loves communism but Shadow is doing it because he has a blood feud against G.U.N., who are like the global government death squads because they killed this girl, Maria, who he was best friends with.

Maria basically had an incurable illness that Eggman's grandpa was trying to cure by creating an immortal lifeform, which is actually how Shadow was born. Also, Shadow has a copy of Maria's soul I guess? Seriously, look it up. I'm reading all this shit for the first time right now and that sounds kinda trans to me.

Anyway, she gets shot by the troops and despite Maria telling Shadow to be normal and happy, Eggman's grandpa is pissed off about it so he starts psyopping Shadow into wanting to kill everyone on Earth. Eggman's grandpa successfully does the psyop and locks Shadow away until Eggman finds and releases him.

With his newfound power, Shadow starts being evil and helping Eggman find the Chaos Emeralds because he sees him piss on the moon or something. This goes on for a while until he gets back on the space station and remembers what Maria said, deciding to finally be normal and happy.

He switches up, goes Hyper Shadow and helps Sonic defeat the Biolizard which is basically what it sounds like: a giant lizard who wears the space station like a little jacket and shoots lasers from his mouth. Also, that thing was the prototype Ultimate Lifeform before they decided on the optimal form of existence: a little bipedal anthro hedgehog.

So they beat this lizard up, I guess it dies and then the space station is hurtling toward the Earth. Shadow takes a Chaos Emerald and, with the help of Sonic, does one last Chaos Control on the space station, returning it to a stable altitude. Sonic finds himself back on the space station as he flies into the atmosphere. After this, a big semi-translucent Shadow appears on top of the Earth and everyone can see it.

Why would I lie about that? Here it is.

Anyway, a bunch of shit happens after that but I don't care about it. If someone else wants to talk about Shadow the Hedgehog (2005) feel free. What I really wrote this out to justify talking about is the moon in Sonic games. Like I said before, the moon gets pissed on and destroyed with the help of Shadow,

and then in the next game it's just fine but evil now(???)

and after THAT it's not evil anymore but it's fully intact:

What the fuck? Why? How? I watched it get blown up. Who put the moon back together? Anyway, we're getting in the weeds here. Welcome to the mega.


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[–] Moss@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago

I never found any joy in my identity before I realized I'm agender. Now I know and being agender is something very cool and it makes me smile

hexbear-agender stalin-approval

[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago (4 children)

getting ads for PREP and then getting sad because i have no romantic or sexual partners ever cri

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[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago (10 children)

People are decrying the loss of nightclubs and bars. They're blaming it on $18 cocktails and $12 beers and young people not having the money for that - and that's right. But also the club and the bar always sucked? You were just in your early 20s and dealt with how bad it sucked because you were horny, plus think of how many of people going out also had to roll on molly or bring coke never mind the drinking (i guess we won the war on drugs too). No one would reinvent a nightclub if it was forgotten tech

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[–] JohnBrownsBussy2@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago

CW: Family, transphobiaWell, my (transphobe) sister got in a car accident today. She's okay. It was a low velocity collision and she was rear-ended. She was able to get home okay. I took her out for dinner after she was done talking to insurance.

It sucks, because she complemented my skin/face, and even offered to do a "curly girl" hairstyle for me. I'm not out to anyone in the family, and it kinda hurts as I think she would 180 on all that if I came out.

Since she's a bit rattled, she's going to be staying in town for Thanksgiving. I was also staying in town due to work. I wanted to be nice, so I offered to do Thanksgiving with her. At least we're doing it at her place this year, so I don't have to stash anything.

[–] Grace@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago

Job searching as someone who is about to graduate is one of the most depressing things on the planet. I have done like 200 applications over the last half year and the only responses I've gotten are from super predatory companies. Losing my mind

[–] Yor@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago (8 children)
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[–] buh@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago

Been waiting all day for a fitgirl repack to finish downloading, and it won’t install kitty-cri

[–] Kiagz@hexbear.net 16 points 7 months ago

Today has been a busy day, and I feel like I've made good progress with several important things. Had my first appointment with a speech therapist experienced in helping trans people, and now I'm back to voice training emilie->=3 Trying a different tactic, hopefully I'll actually be able to stick to it this time catgirl-sorry

[–] bolshevikLovelace@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago

painted nails, picked partner up from the airport, both got our brows done, 6th laser session done (brandon). feeling like a bad bitch ngl

[–] LocalOaf@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago (10 children)

crushposting, sad? IdkTalked to new crush yesterday, learned new crush's name (I know, I know, we'd only ran into each other three(?) times making small talk before)

Realistically given the circumstances I don't see how this goes anywhere and I feel fuckin' stupid and embarrassed to have developed as strong of an infatuation with someone new this quickly and I feel juvenile and foolish for it and idk why but I'm kinda being a bitch to myself mentally about it and it's bumming me out

I'm doing the loser thing of "cute person is nice to me a couple times! (Imagines life together)" and that's pathetic and weird and just makes me feel hypothetically bad for the person to figure out my sad bullshit unrequited feelings for them

I wracked my brain trying to think of what it was that's making me feel so weirdly strong towards them, and realized it's a combination of "they remind me of my first love" and "we met and see each other somewhere that's a refuge from the stressful bullshit everywhere else in my life"

Even if I know I haven't acted weird or done anything outside of just being friendly and socially acceptable when we've spoken, I'm like mortified that crush is on to me and it'd be weird

I feel embarrassed of who I am and where I am in life, and even if we might be compatible, it feels unfair to crush to have a weirdo loser like me be infatuated with them

Idk sorry

Just felt bad about it yesterday and ruminating on it just made me feel viscerally lonely and angry at myself for being in a shitty state in life

In another timeline this could be really sweet and cute and I feel like I could be a really loving and supportive partner but I just feel gross and ashamed for even abstractly bothering someone kind and gorgeous by developing feelings for them

Why am I like this aaaaaa

aubrey-pain

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[–] morte@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago) (2 children)

Arrrrrrgh i am so painfully socially awkward

I dont really do well in unfamiliar social situations where i dont know other ppl

Jus sit there with my phone n fidget spinner k-pain

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[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago (3 children)

sicko-yes the one voice therapist in my area that takes my insurance got back to me

sicko-speeeeen they can get me in for a first appointment tomorrow

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[–] buh@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago (5 children)

Made a libsky account and I guess all the twitter chuds are moving there too, and a lot of them are like β€œI’m just here to debate! Don’t you want engagement with dissenting opinions? It’s what prevents echo chambers after all πŸ€“β˜οΈβ€ we really are back in 2016 lol

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago) (2 children)

never attribute to peepee that which can be adequately explained by poopoo

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago (10 children)

shadow the hedgehog and sonic the hedgehog gay and kissing

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[–] Yukiko@hexbear.net 15 points 7 months ago

Been a bit lonely since I left my husband a while ago. It unfortunately had to happen. Hoping to find someone someday to fill that hole. Literally and figuratively.

[–] AcidSmiley@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (1 children)

Done with most of my legal name change now. It'll still be at least a month until all my documents are in order because the driver's license will take a while until it gets printed, but i've at least applied for everything that comes with some kind of ID card and my information has been updated in all government files. Will probably be able to exchange my temporary ID to the permanent one early next week, and a bunch of stuff came in the mail today. It's weird being in this liminal space where i still have to keep a copy of my name change certificate in my car in case i get pulled over, especially given that the old license has a pic of 20 year old me with a bushy denial beard, but i constantly keep running into situations where i notice i would've been called up as Mr. or gotten mail under my deadname and instead i see my full, real name on the envelope or people at some office or on the phone immediately gender me correctly.

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[–] anonochronomus@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (4 children)

I finally ordered some trans socks and bralettes! I'm a v excited girl. Thinking above getting a skirt for a cute schoolgirl type outfit but idk. I've been feeling much more fem latelyz especially when looking in the mirror. It's nice to feel good.

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[–] Thallo@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (25 children)

sexuality, anxiety, HRTSeeing a lot of people here saying that they weren't attracted to men before HRT, but now they are (some exclusively), and it really freaks me out.

If E made me not attracted to my wife anymore, I couldn't handle it--literally panicking just thinking about it. It makes me not even want to try it, tbh.

One of the only reasons I decided to try HRT was because @kristina@hexbear.net once said that sexual preference shifts are statistically unlikely.

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[–] Tommasi@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago

Gonna go online and complain about woke (being woke up early on a saturday)

[–] Yor@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago) (3 children)

dysphoriashortening this to say I have a profound and all encompassing hatred of having a vagina. every day is another layer of sanity peeled back. I'm so worn out

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[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (12 children)

exceedingly horny postwaking up at 4 am exceedingly thirsty for men and having that completely consume all my thoughts for the next 2 hours as I fantasize heavily about getting a BF as I feel the flag-lesbian-pride on my wall glaring down at me in shame

this has been a recurring thing for the last several weeks and I'm starting to think that the HRT is actually fucking with my sexuality here

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[–] Tomboymoder@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago

Watching a video where 19 year olds are discussing how much of dumb kids they were at 16 like it was ages ago is making me feel ancient

[–] Kiagz@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago

I should have started working years ago. Could have saved up quite a bit of money by now. Instead I spent the past 3 years studying, and all I have to show for it is a ton of student debt and knowledge about web development that I will never get any use out of because I have zero interest in that stuff. I have a job now, but the pay isn't very high so it's gonna take me a very long time to save up for all the surgeries I want madeline-sadeline

[–] Tommasi@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (5 children)

okay, I know I stalled for like a month, but I've asked her out catgirl-heart

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[–] PaX@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (4 children)

Just remembering when I first found this site and set my pronouns the way they are for """"opsec reasons"""" lmao

I have since...... transed my gender? Woke dogs (profile pic is...... related somehow but not the obvious way) don't have genders, except when they do ofc. [Laws of non-contradiction and the excluded middle] fans SEETHING

Down with cis sicko-hexbear-woke

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[–] JohnBrownsBussy2@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (1 children)

Well, got home. For some reason, I thought that starting HRT would be a bit tougher. Like almost everyone, there's still a nugget of self doubt, that what I'm feeling isn't dysphoria but something else. Funnily enough, had a big trans-affirming moment earlier this week. Was looking for socks in the Men's section in Target, and was struck by this utter malaise and despair. Could literally be nothing other than dysphoria. I don't want to have to feel like that anymore.

Anyways, got home, opened the door, unpacked my backpack, fed the cats. Took out the prescription, took out my pills. I thought that it would be appropo to hold them for a second, to meditate on the ramifications. But then I went fuck that. I popped those suckers down in a second. The world might end tomorrow, or the next day or the next, but if I'm going to die then I am going to die as a woman. And if not, then I am going to live as one.

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[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago)

Can we talk about The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog? How it, as far as I can tell, just fucking appeared one day as a silly little free game? How it was a several hour VN with decent art and writing? And especially how my partner and I fucking loved it to bits? Look at this guy: tails-pout

I don't even remember what happened in it but it was like unironically good. Thanks for reading.

[–] iridaniotter@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (3 children)

log into pharmacy web portal

about to schedule a vaccination

computer asks for my sex assigned at birth

ask it whether it really needs that or if it's social hegemony of meanings

it doesn't understand

explain the difference between real mechanisms and false associations

it pulls up a pop-up and says it's relevant

read the pop-up

it's societal hegemony of meanings imposing false associations even when mechanism is well known

picard

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[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (1 children)
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[–] Ambii@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago) (10 children)

Hey y'all what's the consensus about progesterone?

I reached out to my endo last night about starting prog and he got back to me today with a link to the 2022 wpath guideline update regarding progesterone where they state that the benefits are negligible and also introduces an increased thromboembolism risk.

He also said that it's "closer to testosterone than estrogen" which I think is oversimplifying things from what I've come across on my own but w/e he's the doctor ig.

I told him that, regardless, I do wanna move forward with trialing micronized progesterone. What do y'all think?

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[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (2 children)

Yes, I woke up at a stupid hour because the microchips are making me feel weird. Usually getting vaccinated is like a kinda shitty experience where i have to take a day and a half off of work and just lay in bed whining but this time I kinda spent the day with someone instead and it was really nice, and my anxiety fell asleep so I could talk more freely. So ... Thank you, vaccine brain?

spoilerits possible I am one of the luckiest people alive

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[–] imogen_underscore@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (5 children)
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[–] Thallo@hexbear.net 14 points 7 months ago (2 children)

I remember seeing pictures of shadow in magazines before Sonic Adventure 2 came out. I was super excited. I loved his design, and I was an edgelord, and I thought his rocket skates were so cool.

Then I played the game and was like, "oh this guy is pretty cringe" but I pretended to like him because my brother is a huge sonic fan, and so I had to say shadow was better.

Anyway, now I like Amy amy-bruh

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[–] Kuori@hexbear.net 13 points 7 months ago

officially two days behind on my injection, thank you anxiety

[–] LocalOaf@hexbear.net 13 points 7 months ago (2 children)

blog, sadposting, crush, dysphoria progress I guess?Didn't see crush today, kept thinking about them and made myself sad

Took a selfie in the gym changing room? I never take pictures of myself

Not really happy with it but I guess I'm less unhappy with my appearance than I usually am? I liked my outfit and I looked alright I guess? Idk

I feel like I'm making a lot of progress, but in a way that just makes me more acutely aware of the things about myself I hate and can't really do anything to change

I dunno, big bittersweet feels today

Beats being severely depressed but I've been pretty bummed out lately thinking about how elated I'd be to have just a pretty mundane neurotypical cishet person's unremarkable suburban life instead of (gestures at self) this

I wish I was as self aware and determined as I am now like 14 years ago

I've wasted so much of my life just being depressed and have so little to show for it

Now that I'm doing better, it just makes me angry at myself and shitty circumstances I had to deal with for leaving me with such a deep hole to try to climb out of

Idk I'm exhausted and really, really lonely and I feel like I've missed a ton of windows for lives I could have led that would've left me a lot happier with myself than where I am now

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[–] kristina@hexbear.net 13 points 7 months ago (3 children)
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[–] yewler@hexbear.net 13 points 7 months ago

dysphoriaI just want to feel like a girl. I bought a really cute hat and gloves and wore them with a sweater I got a few weeks ago and I felt adorable and I loved it. But it's almost like the more comfortable I get with doing more and more fem things the more impatient I get, and the sadder I get that this is such a long process. And when I take the stuff off I get hit with this "oh shit yeah that's right I have a guy body." I don't want to have a guy body.

The days where I feel so happy to be trans are usually followed by evenings where I wish I was cis. Like a sugar crash but for gender feelings.

In related news I've realized I could never turn my back on being trans. At the beginning of this journey one of the only things giving me the confidence to keep going was the realization that I could always just not be trans if I found it wasn't for me. Fuuuuck that at this point it's clear that if I ever try to be cis again it would destroy me.

[–] AshenWolf@hexbear.net 13 points 7 months ago

I finished my journal. I'm remembering all of the things that have happened these past 6 months, what I've done, what's changed, how long ago some of these things feel. Just 7 months ago, I thought I was for all intents and purposes cis. That's not that long, and yet it feels like it's just a memory, and a distant one at that. I'm going to start another journal, that much is certain, but it'll be strange to start from what will feel like the beginning. It felt strange reaching what felt like the end. It gave me end-of-an-era feelings, even though I've really only just begun.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. It was a missed opportunity not to add this to the end of my essay post earlier this week.

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