The end results can be really impressive, but when i did voice training (with an actual speech therapist, it's fortunately covered by healthcare in my country), i came to a point where i just had a major breakdown because i realized that the voice that was most achievable and most cis-passing for me was one that did not fit the kind of woman i am at all, that the trick for me was to just take all the pressure out of my voice and lower the volume and become totally hushed and meek and docile and i just broke down right there in my therapist's office because ... that's not me. I've spent so much time thinking about where my place in this world is, i've found so much comfort in being this strong, butch, maternal woman that always stands up for her sisters and dares to make a fuss. Really took effort to arrive there when it's so much harder for a trans girl to pull this off because so many of these traits lead to people calling my femininity into doubt. And that contradiction just was too much for me.

I do have fairly decent results, i absolutely sound different than before, but when my friends and me play some VN or RPG together in voice chat and voice act different characters together, i'm the one who can still switch back into a stereotypically male register without hurting her voice whereas several of my friends just can't do that anymore without being in pain after a few minutes. I'm not a fan of doing the sudden voice drop party trick among cis people, but with my trans friends i'm really comfortable with playing around with that kind of androgyny. It's part of the whole butch thing for me.