Soooooo yeah I was super wrong, she feels similarly to me, and has been exploring in that direction for a while, and I'm a bit over the moon. I spent the night at hers again and it was lovely, curling up into her. She kissed me before I left today, and it felt so wonderful. The parallel play with her is really nice, unpressured and cozy. She's communicative and understanding. She's been hurt a few times by diving into relationships and wants to move slowly, not diving into a relationship yet but exploring in that direction, which may explain a little of my failure to pick up on things. She's been quite cautious. God it feels good to feel attraction like this again, I have had issues with being attracted to people who are toxic or emotionally cut off or just plain mean to me, and she's none of these things (I've known her for a while. I dont know all her flaws etc., but she's not toxic, not emotionally cut off, and isn't mean to people).

::: spoiler trans mega apology form [jokey tone]

To: all the folks who told me I was wrong

From: Lilypad

Date: yesterday evening

Reason for behavior:

[x] the media convinced me attraction looked a certain way

[x] I didn't know the sapphic stereotypes were true

[x] I missed people who are unhealthy and mean to me

[x] I dont know how to interpret social cues

[x] I was jealous of people with stable hormone levels

[ ] mercury was in retrograde

I will hereby respect the trans mega posters and not talk down on the people who tell me someone might be attracted to/interested in me.