Hello everyone~ The megathread is very eepy this week so I am being very quiet and not posting a whole essay as that might disturb their rest. The megathread does a lot of work for us after all, so they deserve to rest a little. Our regularly scheduled effortposts will continue next week.
Nonetheless, I hope that you (yes you!) are doing well, whenever it may be that you happen to be dropping in. I wish you all the best~
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You have nothing to apologise to me for. I can't speak for anyone else, but I suspect they'd say the same.
Whether you misread things or not, it doesn't change the fact that you were hurting and reading them in the way you could. It is not a moral failing on your part. It is okay to feel.
Like I said, relationships are mutual, you are not to blame for your difficulties making connections, you have not ruined the vibes of the community. You haven't wasted anyone's time; they gave it willingly, including my own. You did not do this to yourself. This space is first and foremost for support and you are frankly hurting a lot and need that support. It is okay to feel hurt, it is okay to feel like you need support, and it is okay to take up space in the community when you need it. My point is simply that the support of others is not enough on its own to heal you if you won't try to heal yourself a little too.
I'm sure you won't feel any better from this, however, so to make it clearer I will say that I forgive you, even though I do not think you did anything worthy of blame.
I am an asshole, and frankly that last post was certainly more harsh than it needed to be. I'm sure you're probably spiralling right now and for that I apologise myself. You didn't deserve to be hurt further while already hurting.
I hope this will be productive for you in the long run though, even if just a little.