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every time my ex posts an accomplishment I start to want to experience the second to last episode of each season of Bojack Horseman (complete and utter crashout, existential hallucinations, often a musical number, etc)she won the breakup. all my exes won by virtue of leaving i guess
idk everyone is prettier than me so it doesn't matter. I keep forgetting to eat lunch and dinner so it's laaaaaaate and I need to eat. Maybe I'll be prettier if I don't eat though. I won't feel less sick tho idk
anyway, the point of this is that my ex is prettier than me and it makes me feel like I don't exist or shouldn't or whatever. she's probably among the last people I had,like, a one on one conversation with outside of my family. This was 2023 maybe? even then I had stopped talking to people really around 2021
she's also probably the only person I've ever talked in person about sexuality with. not even since starting to come out, honestly. I don't know when or where people are talking about these things.
Sometimes I wish she wanted to talk to me. I feel like I could at least try to explain things right. At least explain things right. Then she can kick me to the curb like everyone else.
Idk, might not keep this one up. Then again, I delete all my crashout posts. If you get annoyed by that, try leaving a response. I tend to assume nobody reads. I no longer understand this website. That is all.
spoiler this became a tangent actually When i mean people talk about things i mean like, "oh I know that's her color" or "well she always does this so it must mean that" sorry but just the sphere of connectivity where you're always talking to someone who's always talking to someone and you know this and that about them and you all do this for that oerson because it'stheir favorite or you all know this insids joke, it fascinates me and, like, I want to be an equal participant. I want to be in a network where I consider and am considered.
Am I making the neurotypicals uncomfortable with this one? Like, I'm hyperaware of the frequency we talk and the depth of our conversations, it's a bit like a sound wave. It's possible that I don't perceive a conversation to be particularly negative or stressful because these topics weigh heavily on me and therefore are pretty commonplace, but idk. I'm often just grateful that anyone said anything at all. It's that bad. :::
ime it really depends on the person- I've had people talk to me about their sexuality at a lot of different levels of relationship. Coworkers, friends, close friends- some people I imagine only talk about it with their partners. You could post about it here if you were comfortable with that.