Lost my wife of 15 (together 20) years a year ago tomorrow.
Dont hide from the grief. Grieving is a natural process. Cry for an hour or two every few days. Be sad about it. Remember the good parts and bad parts.
The human mind is fucked up. None of your memories are real. Traumatic memories that stay repressed stay traumatic. It is only through remembering those memories from a safe place that you start to quantify them and feel safe around them. Your worst memory is actually just a memory of the last time you remembered it. So remembering it in the safety of your own home while eating your favorite food and listening to your favorite song will over time slowly dull the pain of that memory.
Same for grief. You want to grieve. You need to grieve. But do it from safety and security and over time the pain will lessen.
This is why talking to a therapist is useful because they create a safe place to remember in. But also remember that everyone is different and not everything works the same for everyone. You have to find your own path, be it personal, therapy or counseling or group meeting etc.
Personally I could not do counseling or group counseling. It made me irrationally angry to hear someone try to talk me through it and it made me sad and upset to listen to other people's grief. So I did my own thing.
Good luck! The great healer is time but only if you let it.
Yep. You can get various supliments but im pretty sure they are not vegan either...