Not to worry, I have no family to lose me.
this post was submitted on 29 May 2026
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A large part of my younger self wanted to be a paramedic. But I quickly realized I didn't have the emotional resilience to be one.
I remember watching Nic Cage in "Bringing out the Dead" (Excellent film by the way) and that movie putting the big ol' nope on that plan once and for all in the early 2000's.
Lost one of my boys a little over a year ago. Still get crippled with grief from time to time - maybe every other day now instead of multiple times a day. It gets easier, but never easy. In the process of getting a ring with some of his ashes built into them and I think that'll be pretty special to get to bring him everywhere I go.
Not looking for condolences, just wanted to put this perspective out there in a sea of folks who seemed to have bad relationships with their parents. To those: I'm sorry. I can't imagine.
Sending love your way <3
Thank you for sharing your experience. As someone who doesn't have kids to begin with I can't even begin to imagine
As an old and retired paramedic myself, there are definitely parts of me, as a human being, that will never grow back. And I worked in a rural area where you work on neighbors, family, and friends mostly. It was never easy to explain to the family that might be present that not me or god could fix what was wrong. I also did a few suicides over the years. Never easy and they leave a mark that won't grow back by morning.
The worst thing about any of it, was meeting a family member in a cafe or store in our small town. And they would invariably come up to me and give me a hug and tell me how grateful they were that I was there for them. Despite the fact I couldn't do shit for the dead person beyond calling dispatch and telling them to send law enforcement to come and do their paperwork and secure the scene until the funeral home got there to haul the body away.
I think often just being there makes a big difference, even if there's nothing that can be done.
I'm sorry, that sounds so hard. Handling logistics in a traumatic situation is such a hugely important task. Definitely don't sell yourself short. Even is you didn't do anything you're "holding space"
So do it after Dad dies is what I'm reading.
Dad, Mom, sibs, close friends, person who's nice to you at the bus stop, and of course the person you hate most in the world
Mom is already dead so that's one name off the list.
A similar experience I had was when I saw my mom cry and pay respects to my grandpa for the last time as he was sent to be cremated.
I respected my grandfather but as we lived half way across the world, I wasn't emotionally attached to him and didn't feel very sad. But seeing my mom, usually a very silly lady and a very strong, loving grandma herself, turn into a daughter saying goodbye to her dad in tears for that split second broke my heart.
My dad was a drunk and made sure I learned every racist term in the book before I was 12. I'm sure he'd be devastated if I managed to kill myself, without ever realizing how much he contributed to the desire in the first place.
My life has only gotten better since he died. Rest in piss old man, I'm glad you're dead.
I'd be willing to help you train to fight the T-Rex. You don't have to lose.
My parents are crazy too but they’re drug free, which has always confused me. The problem is their personality, not an addiction. But I have thought about how they’d react - my mom would play the victim and my dad would play pickleball/tennis. That’s just what they’ve always done. I look forward to the day they die. When all of my grandparents died my parents became slightly more tolerable. I imagine my baseline will also rise….
I saw my dad lose his best friend to suicide in my teens. I've struggled with suicidal ideation since before even that. I'm not close to my dad, I have lots of issues with the man, but I can never put him through that again, no matter what.
I've lost several people to suicide. The hardest was a good friend I'd known for years and who had been my roommate one summer.
That one was 25 years ago and it still hurts.
Does everyone in this comment section have a horrible relationship with their father??
What the hell, am I the only one here NOT hating my parents??
I like my parents well enough
I think it's survivorship bias. People with fubctional relationships with the parents (my self included) probably don't feel much need to weigh in.
People's families are complicated, and sometimes they need to vent. I (generally) don't see a problem with giving them space to do so.
This is the exact reason I'm choosing to just scroll past some of these comments that are missing the bigger picture.
My own relationship with my family is incredibly complicated. But it's not really about the family. It's about the fact that somebody will miss you. But when you're that deep into depression, it's really hard to see.
People rarely feel the need to talk about how good their relationship with their dad is. Well except for one friend of mine, but to be fair to her her dad sounds exceptionally good.
But yeah, my father and I haven't been on speaking terms in a decade.
Cherish that fact.
Mine was not horrible, just exasperating. I warned him about every single thing that caused him issues, but he refused to listen, and that killed him.
Sometimes I wonder how many suicides are invisible, people start to skip medicines, they dont care about health etc
that isn't suicide. suicide is the active act of killing yourself.
dying from neglect, or self-neglect isn't suicide.
though both, are 'deaths of despair'. in the sense they are entirely preventable and due to a lack of emotional/social connections.
My close person died in very young age. Cancer. That person knew that was something going on because of trumor, but tried to postpone doctors visits as long as possible. When was diagnosed, it was in last stage.
Not me. Had a great dad who disappeared after my conception
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Don't tempt me. I'd relish a chance to hurt him like that. Not worth to die for it though.
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