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Do stuff. See new things. Nature. I work 50-60 hours a week at the moment, but on my day off I always go to a museum or a big park. Does wonders for soul.

And although I get burnt out sometimes, the more you do, the more you do. Back when I was a student I did as little as possible. Worked subsistence wage for a basic quality of life. Now that I've got much more money coming in, fuck it, on the weekend if I turn up somewhere and some historic house is 20 quid to get in, I can easily drop 20 quid on it no worries. Work feels shit when you're spending the money to survive. It feels great when you're spending it to do things you previously couldn't.

I don't know if it's just in my genes, but I remember seeing the tickers on my dad and my grandma. I was in awe. They're always totally nonstop. Grans 89 and broke her ankle the other week by flipping her three wheeled bike from riding it too fast round a bend. Now I'm starting to get it. My motors running and it's almost more comfortable to keep it running than to switch it on and off all day.

It'll do wonders for your sleep quality too.

Mood. I have felt this way myself many times. I don't know if it helps at all, but it didn't last forever for me, so I hope maybe it won't last forever for you.

Depression makes everything so damn hard. Have you asked a doctor about medication? Sometimes anti-depressants and therapy can give you enough motivation to try something new and get out of that rut. If you get that energy back you should try something new that involves people if you have time, like joining a community garden or joining an org. Something that gives you a goal that matters to you. Because you matter.

Relatable.

Same, but vaguely employed with a short-term tutoring grift. But hey, I'm 46 episodes away from being current on Death is Just Around the Corner & while everything the host MSJ is saying seems to ring true, it's definitely making things worse (:

How weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable Seem to me all the uses of this world! Fie on’t! O fie! ’tis an unweeded garden, That grows to seed; things rank and gross in nature Possess it merely. That it should come to this!

This quote stuck in my mind the first time I read it, written at the beginning of capitalism it still strikes a chord with all the grist for the mill. When I am inevitably drafted into the reserve army of labor I only hope to frag my commanding officer.

Burnout maybe? When's the last time you took a break?

How about making plans for something to look forward to. Like a hike or a camping trip. Or pick up some active hobby, like swimming or disc golf or archery. Could make some buddies with mutual interests if you find something you like to do regularly.

Hit the gym, get swole, and then either you’re ready for whatever comes next or you can engage in hedonism while hot

Big mood

I'm kinda in the same boat. I'm trying to get out of it through self-improvement with other comrades (community improvement), you can join us if you want.

Which podcasts are you into?

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Does your job insurance cover any kind of mental health services? Maybe you are vitamin deficient. One way or another this probably isn't your fault but you are in the unfortunate position of having to deal with it anyway.

Something that often – but not always! – helps me in this state is to find someone else to help instead. Seeing that I can make a difference for someone else can help renew my faith in the possibility of change and my ability to help enact it.

Is there something you can do that is focused on others? You mentioned a steady paycheck - if you can afford it, would it feel good to go be a mutual aid fairy and sprinkle some financial magic on your comrades? That could be a fun thing to look forward to every couple of weeks – throw a little payday party and bring out your inner Oprah: "You get a meal! And YOU get a meal! AND YOU get a meal!!!"

Sometimes just finding posts here or on reddit made by people going through similar things and commenting to tell them I don't have a solution but they're not alone helps me, too; if they're not alone, then neither am I.

but have you heard Uebok?

Everyone is taking this post like it means you're not feeling well. But honestly...

So you actually look forward to the money every 2 weeks and your podcasts? Honestly that sounds... Enough to me? I could spend all my time working and listening to podcasts if that's what I enjoy. I myself only play video games and work (well and have sex with my partner all the time) and I'm happy.

You say "can't bring myself to care". Why exactly do you think you need to care about you or your life? Like, I'm perfectly happy right now and even I don't care about me or my life :D

What I'm trying to say is... You haven't actually said what you're missing. Do you have a desire for something that's not being fulfilled? Like do you need sex, romantic connection? friends? A sense of community? Connection to nature? Larger resource(money) acquisition?

Or of course, do you think something is missing, but you don't know what?