Today I have selected a little thing I did a while back to share with everyone, Cats of Ulthar a horror story by H. P. Lovecraft. It might look a little weird because I adapted it from an accordion book format, but I think I did a decent job of adapting it.
And also, remember my last mega? Well, I did manage to finish the book, so I'm putting it here for you to download. I made a version for reading digitally, but the main purpose would be for printing, that's why I stuck with A4 size. I can try to make instructions on how to make the printed pages into a neat book in the future if anyone wants it.
Well, if anyone has any suggestions on other short stories, specially horror stories, I'd love to make them into illustrated books, I love doing this and it's super fun for me, so I'd like to keep going.
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Cats of Ulthar
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voice dysphoria
Voice dysphoria and the hopelessness that surrounds it has been pretty bad for me all day so I decided to search through old posts and see what people have said to me about it over the last two years. Surprised I couldn't find more results tbh. Anyway like a year and a half ago someone saidand unfortunately I haven't changed my voice even a tiny bit. Think I'm more bitter then I was back then. I feel like back then I had more hope of training "eventually" as well.
Honestly the longer this goes on for the less hope I have in ever being able to train. Its so dysphoric. Not improving. I don't think I realistically can force myself through it. :/
before you suggest it, no I won't be happy with an untrained voice either.
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Sorry in advance if you've heard this before.Does that happen with your singing voice as well? I'm not a good or even okay singer, but somehow singing along to music does not trigger my vocal dysphoria (unless the song goes for some low notes that I know I can only hit with a masc voice). I think it helps me particularly because I am not hearing my own voice very clearly, but I still get to voice train in a way.
The "time passing anyway" works for some people but I've never been a fan of it. It makes me feel useless for not making more progress. Two years ago I gave up trying to transition because the anxiety was too overwhelming, and now here I am, back where I started ๐ฅฒ Not to make it about me, I just want you to know I see and feel that frustration too. Sorry you're going through this ๐ซ๐
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No that's okay, I appreciate it.Unfortunately yes, just as bad or worse then speaking tbh.
This was early in the process, I think it was pretty good to say then. I just didn't end up making the progress and wish I had/had been able to.
Voice dysphoria has also been bothering me lately and I'm trying to figure out what to do about it. I've followed youtube videos and the TA voice lessons in the past but that's definitely not enough. I'm wondering what else I can do about it and looking at online course or whatever other strategies I can find. I might need to just find a coach and try to get over some of the hurdles I have that way, but it seems scary.
If anyone reading has good advice on this I'd love to hear it.
EDIT: A long time ago I pickup up Monster Prom on Steam and told myself I was gonna use it as a fun way to practice voice by reading the dialog out loud. Maybe I should actually try doing that this weekend.
I honestly don't think its fixable or bearable