Today has been a busy day, and I feel like I've made good progress with several important things. Had my first appointment with a speech therapist experienced in helping trans people, and now I'm back to voice training 
Trying a different tactic, hopefully I'll actually be able to stick to it this time 
Every monday I have an appointment with my therapist, but this time I show up only to find out that he's on vacation. Cool, not like they could have told me that ahead of time 
feeling sad and lonely :(
The loneliness and executive dysfunction are most noticable for me in the weekend. I have all this free time, two whole days where I can do whatever. But I have no friends to hang out with, and no motivation to do anything other than scroll through social media and think about how bad my life is 
having a very bad day
Feeling awful. The gender dysphoria, executive dysfunction and loneliness is just too much. I've just been laying in bed all day. Don't care about eating or drinking. Don't care that I should have taken my HRT 5 hours ago. What's the point? My life just keeps getting worse no matter how hard I try to fix it.
I'm not cut out for this shit. Why couldn't I just have been born a neurotypical cis girl?
Brain is empty today 
transphobia, weaponization of detransitioners
The disproportionate amount of media attention detransitioners get is so frustrating, and I hate how often my parents insist on bringing it up such articles. I hate how my parents always try to defend and justify the gatekeeping healthcare system. They always have to play devil's advocate and try to "see things from their perspective". I've told them before that detransitioners are a small minority, yet they keep bringing it up.
I would love it if they could just shut the fuck up and never talk to me about anything that has to do with being trans or transitioning ever again. I'm so done with cis people, can't trust them for shit.
I've reached an important milestone! 
CW: Self harm
It's been over 2 weeks since I last cut myself. The large, gaping wound I got from last time scared me so much that I've pretty much completely lost the urge. It opened my eyes and made me realize I was going down the wrong path. It feels so nice to no longer be dealing with this, it really just made everything worse for me.
Like Scott Cawthon. Yet so many young trans people passionately defend him. Same logic as those who say that voting for 
is not an endorsement of genocide.
Going to a queer meetup only to find out that most people there are around 10 years younger than me sucks so much. Where are all the transfems in their mid 20s? Are they all just hanging out in online communities, not touching grass? 
I'm in desperate need of at least three different types of therapy at this point. General therapy for my abysmal self-image, gender therapy for all my trans related problems, and cognitive behavioral therapy for my ADHD. Feels like I'm so far away from living anything close to a normal, happy life 
Yeah, and western mainstream media only ever acknowledge that these groups exist in Arab countries when they can use them to pinkwash imperialist actions such as sanctions, coups and invasions
Liberals alway seem to conveniently forget that trans Palestinians exist, and that the biggest danger to trans people living in Gaza currently is not Hamas, but the fascist, genocidal settler state that "lesser evil" Biden is doing everything possible to support
Hell yeah!