Autism

I always thought this was my ADHD talking, but from some googling... It could be this as well, or instead of. I'm definitely very monotropic and I also recognize the symptoms of Pathological Demand Avoidance in myself.

Unfortunately, at work I manage three different tracks which each have their own roadmaps and deadlines, so constantly shifting attention is required. It's taken a decade of practice to get where I am -- forcing my body and my brain past perceived obstacles and discomfort. It's possible to train your brain out of certain desire paths with enough effort, but it's not easy, and I wouldn't say I'm cured to any measure. I'm just better at managing my symptoms and getting things done than I used to be.

I hate to say "it's a bootstrap thing" but frankly there's no magic cure, only increasingly difficult iterative steps that you achieve through a ton of practice. I do hope my neurodivergent compatriots here have been able to find jobs that work with their unique skills and brain structures, rather than against as I have found myself.

Hell to the yes.

I’m annoyed Earth’s day is only 24 hours because it’s so inefficient; it’s hard to pack stuff into the day without feeling like I’ve half assed literally everything. It’s like, I only just started this damn task and it took me hours of mental preparation (thanks AuDHD), and now I need to stop doing it and start doing something else?! ARGH! So finicky and annoying and… inefficient!

What's that?

Didn't know what it was before seeing this post, but after looking it up I'd have to say a big yes. Starting tasks has often been hard for me, even ones I want to do, while there are times I start something and end up doing more than I intended, even stuff I didn't want to really do. An example of that would be like finally getting around to cleaning one little thing, but then continuing on to the stuff or areas around it as well. I've tried using that in my favor by trying to convince myself to just do a little bit of something, hoping that I'll end up doing more, but it's been kind of hit and miss so far. Maybe it's a skill that I can get better at? 🤷‍♂️ In any case, I will definitely be doing more research on this to try and help with it, so thanks for bringing it up!

Every fucking morning i experience physically inertia and i am not sure if this is part of autistic inertia or even different. First to start working is my arms which i can use to sit straight. Then i grab my legs and lift them out my bed so i can sit. Then i use all the strength vested in me to push my body forward, somewhere just before i would fall and hit the wall my feet finally get grip and my leg mechanism springs in action. One of these days i fear it wont work and i am just going to fall face flat. The only exception here seems to be if for some event i wake up with pure adrenaline like my child screaming but than there are other side effects later that day.

I experience the standard autistic inertia pretty much whenever i do anything. Its such a miracle i get to be focused doing something the last thing i am going to do is breaking my flow by allowing even a single other thought before i am damn finished. I know i sound like i make a choice when i put it like that, but really its just a forced perspective to make it easier to live with my own disability.

Me and my AuDHD deciding it's time to code another metric on the excel spreadsheet and tweaking the colors instead of actually doing what I need to do.

I use to say that inertia equals mass, brain mass.

I do. any advice on how to deal with it?