Incredibly stressed but happy. Got married recently while also being in another country and having my family here as well. We leave for our honeymoon in a few days and it's all very overwhelming. Yet I'm happy doing all of this with her. Taking on a lot of stress is somehow manageable for me when someone I care about is in my corner.
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FUCK YEAH CONGRATS!
The company I got a job with announced theyre being bought out by another company halfway through my first week. The boss assured us they want our tech and that my teams jobs were all but secured.
Had to reinterview for a whole new job twice and was just notified they are not going to hire me to the new company. Turns out they just wanted our real estate and the old white European billionaire that owns the conglomerate that used to own my company sent a video saying how sorry he is that the real estate market forced them to sell off the company. Also the new company put out a video saying "were looking forward to integrating your company team with ours" however 98% of the company got fired and 2% got 3-6 month contracting roles.
I'm convinced the CTO that hired me knew this was coming and just wanted to inflate the company value. Real big kick in my impostor syndrome. Worst part is I can't get unemployment because I haven't been there for four months yet.
Dont ever believe what c-levels say. If theyre moving their lips they are lying. Double strike if they use words like 'synergizing'.
If therapy taught me anything, it's that you shouldn't take shit like this personally. If professional experience taught me anything, it's that the c-suite doesn't know up from down. You might expect them to have a solemn duty to profit above all else, but even that doesn't encompass the dumbass calls that they make.
Very topsy-turvy but proud of my emotional honesty. Had a really good conversation with my boyfriend about how we can't really be life partners and found a lot of closure and comfort with the relationship we do have. Then the next day he told me that I shown him what genuine respect, kindness, and care actually look like and that its not really there in the rest of his life. His validation and honesty were important to me, but it was also challenging to here these things and reconcile it with the path we are on. It's also impossible to know if the positive parts of our dynamic would grow or collapse in a more intense/enmeshed relationship.
Had a similar experience with my ex. They moved out at the beginning of this month, but our time together showed me what a healthy relationship looks like, and we're still close friends despite our newfound geographical distance. hope things work out well for the both of you!
Thanks!
Still no girlfriend. Although my problems are very tame compared to everybody else's. How are you doing?
Doing ok! Got a date tomorrow if neither of us cancels. Theyre busy with work, and ive been on a streak of canceling plans lately. Doesn't bother me, I've got a primary partner I see a few days a week anyways.
Turns out I love living alone! Still no job and it's getting frustrating as fuck, but im hanging in there. Probably have until March or so before unemployment expires. Doing little things around the apartment to keep myself busy. Getting into anime, turns out I like space westerns, and things on the more silly side.
Band stuff is back in action, getting back to writing music. Have time at our practice space booked for Saturday so ill be cranking my wall of amps.
Beyond that, family is well, holidays were ok, and the corgi is well taken care of. I COULD complain, but it'd just be about being unemployed.
Thanks for asking!
I miss my friend.
Not so good, have a tooth abcess with a fun spreading infection and only one dentist near me is taking new patients, usually I just drive to the dental school 300mi away but I haven't gotten enough time off work to repair my car to survive the trip, and my job is so low waged that if the car breaks down its cheaper to ditch it (both the car and the job). I'm hoping I can fix it so I can continue to save for better transportation and save something on dental as well. At least the urgent care didn't hardcore gate antibiotics like I'm used to, but I'm fucking swollen AF. I'm also generally sore and recovering from a fall a few months ago from never really learning how to walk right being born 12345 months premature with all sorts of things misaligned, go me, makes work hurt and everyone hears 'fall' and thinks 'tee hee hit the bottle too hard tamagotchicowboy?'.
Holidays are always a nightmare, associate them with all sorts of tragic family events. I'm also worried I got clocked by some hateful gossipy old woman while at work who may cause trouble with the local gossip mill, whenever trans status comes up it always gets me fired without a fucking fail, makes it snowball in hell getting a job too.
Hope things look up for you soon. Sending love
I have drunk a lot of alcohol this week. Feeling a bit lonely. Have gotten some painting and house maintenance done. I miss the cats. Have some garage projects that are coming together, and am looking forward to setting up some planters and garden beds for my friends.
idk, if there is a week to drink a bunch, it is this week.
Good: Got a job interview. Made some observations about music that I'm happy about. Im going to play a new video game tonight.
Bad: The job seems very unstable and unlikely to happen, partner is out of town for awhile I miss them, i think twitch streaming is the devil and to my surprise thats a bad opinion here.
What game are you gonna play? Hope the job ends up being positive!
Gnosia it looks interesting i like the art direction.
Job situation looks bad.
Sike im going to a jam session tonight the game can wait
Have fun jamming!
Thank you 🥰
I'm unhireable and it sucks. Fuck the job market.
Employers are so picky, and why?
Decided to fly down to amerikkka from klanada for a change of scenery. Spending a week in KY with a dear friend. Definitely going to sample some moonshine. Happy to be somewhere different from home.