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I'm so hot now actually :3 estrogen is so magic
Playing Mount and Blade : War Sails, as a Nord and finding out first hand how cool it is to be a Varangian.
staying in the frigid North Sea to kill my cousins who know how to fight at sea for coppers
going to the warm Mediterranean type sea to kill other people's cousin's who don't know how to fight at sea for gold.
Seriously a Drakker (Biggest longship) full of Housecarls is punching your chess opponent in the face. No fancy ballistae or ramming. We're boarding you five minutes ago.
So much fun. I'm an enormously tall lady who keeps paying bards to spread rumours of my tragic destiny foretold by witches. I tricked the Battanians into giving me the Falx Reaper and I brought the Western Emperor Garyos to the Aesari in chains.
Once I get bored/powerful enough I might join the Vlandians who are steadily steamrolling all the other factions.
Crying tonight because I'm lonely and have no real friends and no one cares about me
why the fuck can other people make connections and friends and everything and i somehow can't.
why am i so fucking broken and so many people just, aren't? like have formed friendships. but not me. I can't.
probably comes down to being fucking miserible and autistic and shit, why the fuck does it effect me like this. but other people not.
Making friends is a legitimate skill, sometimes it comes naturally to people but it was something I had to learn and practice. Like back in the mid 00s I read books about it lol (like How to Make Friends and Win People Over) and I had a... I dunno a mentor? For schmoozing when I was like 16 to 18. It was a weird time in my life and a weirder teacher student relationship - we were also very distant cousins lol.
A lot of people your age and life stage are also lonely, its not just you. I cant speak for certain but I bet a lot of the pain and agony you feel around it all is that you are closeted in so much of your life - but thats just on top of how isolating modern life is anyway.
Did you take your HRT? I forgot, I gotta go do that
I struggle with it everywhere, not just where I'm closeted. and unfortunately, because of how I look, I really dont feel like being out in the rest of my life would make me any less isolated or lonely. If I actually look like a woman that will help. Being out to everyone while looking like a man sounds horrible and humiliating. Yea modern life really is soul sucking for the best of us.
No I didn't. Meant to earlier. I'll go get it out now, thank you for the reminder.
I was out well before I passed and before I took HRT, I socially transitioned before even trying voice training, but I had supportive people and I had a take no shit attitude. You know your situation better, all I can say is my fears and anxieties about it were much much worse than my reality of socially transitioning.
I just feel like people won't look at me right, everyone has some dogshit opinion. Even friends have refused to name me correctly. I don't want to put up with it or be viewed like that. Maybe after our move. Still worries me a lot about how much harder getting a job is for trans women vs weird guy.
why the fuck do i have the flavor of transness that makes my life awful, the kind of autism that makes me withdraw and how tf am i supposed to be happy and have people
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want someone to respond but what can they even say
spoiler self harm want to relapse. take things back into my control. I hate feeling like shit.
I hate this shitty life. What is there thats even redeemable here. Fuck my parents. Fuck humanity. Fuck whatever shitty ass genetics did this to me. :::
I think for my next mega I'm gonna find the limit of just how much I can post because I got some feelings on something so goddamn trivial that I need to get of my chest 
maybe then I can finally think less obsessively about this
I swear I've had tedtalks about this when I'm in the shower, I think about it when I'm going to sleep, it's wanting to burst out my skull like athena and none of you will give a fuck about it and yet I must write it out in mega form
The manifesting channels are getting better with what they pumping out now, I'm still no closer to getting a job or a gf but the water sounds are calming to put in the background as I sleep 
Too many manifest vids and the algorithm is trying decide which gender I am, I'm 
truly staying one step ahead of these goddamn learned machines 
Valerate got me on the verge of tears watching a Minecraft speedrun (her coach is so sweet and has the utmost confidence in her and she wins the finals and now they're good friends ๐ญ)
Watching Columbo and I think I'll start Columbomaxxing now, gonna start wandering, asking questions, talking about my wife and fucking over rich people 
He also has a cousin or a nephew or whatever that always seems to have experience in just this sorta thing
Holy shit. I have been calling people for a work thing, and I've been doing voice training for 6 weeks and the person, said matter as fact "oh so when will the other lady call me?", because I'm the first lady calling them. Wow.
dysphoria, negative
Dysphoric, dissociating, and drunk in the local Mexican restaurant. Food ruled, everything else less so. Hoping to come out in the new year. The more I think about it, the more it feels like self-preservation to come out.
The more I think about it, the more it feels like self-preservation to come out.
I feel like that's the only way I'll come out. If it feels more like self preservation than risk of being hurt.
Question about stim toys that may vaigley relate to kink.
Are there specific chew toys to buy that are safe to bite on? I have had some sort of oral fixation for a while, and I am wanting something vaigley dog toy related. Dog toy like is probablely related to some sort of furry identity, and this is spoilered imcase this is somehow related to kinks.
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there are! if you search stim chew toys a bunch will come up, they're usually pretty affordable and some come in packs that have like different stiffness and stuff even. I got gifted one from a place called Komuso that I really like, it's about as thick as a pen and maybe half the length, and has different textures on it and a whistle-like passage through it that I also find useful for like anxiety-breathing-exercises, but yeah if you search it there are a couple of places that seem to specialize in stim chew toys and also maybe some on etsy it looks like!
I could use some encouragement and validation. (Maybe discussion on pros and cons too.) I'm afraid people won't see me as pretty anymore because I'm fatter than I've ever been and I'm thinking about really masculinizing my look.
Letting go of pretty girl privileges is hard when you've already had a lot of people disrespect you in general. I have issues with being passive, so people who hate themselves love to self project on me. People who pick apart women might pick me apart for showing off my manly side. And for being fat while at it.
Being a pretty boy is the vibe I like to have when manlier, I think I like the safety of checking off some "pretty people" boxes that go with societal expectations advertised in magazines. When in reality feeling good about how you look is more about the attitude of feeling cute than how close you look to what you see in magazines. I think I mostly dread not feeling cute because I'm afraid of how others might perceive me and put me down. Trying to seek social "safety" by looking as much like a magazine image as possible was how I felt the most insecure, and I'm doing it right now. Not at the level I used to, but I still am doing it.
For others seeking safety can mean passing on their own shame about their looks, and seeing a gender bender who's fat could either be freeing or lead to them choosing to double down and pass on their feelings of shame.
CW: violence
I've suffered violence over how I look before, and I don't want to get hurt again over daring myself to check off a box that would lead a past violent bully to criticize me. This person hurt me for years, but it's also been years since I last saw them. Checking off "pretty people" boxes feels like armor against violent shit, and I'm not sure how much faith I have that no violence will happen if I drop the armor.
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Are violent assholes just gonna do violence regardless of how you look? Because that's how my past bully was, they claimed I deserved it when, looking back, I didn't. They just get off on controlling and hurting people.
Should I just stop watching how much pretty privilege armour I put on and be just as I am because violent people will always find an excuse to do with they want, regardless of reason? At the same time, transphobes and homophobes would notice me more... IDK, I guess I need help weighing pros and cons of being masc-ish.
HVAC training dipping into water boilers because, back when I did my irl training we covered electric and gas so I'm not to stumped by the names of the components but actually getting to see how a electric one is wired was pretty cool. Knowing the sequence that the current goes and all the safety controls in place neat, a lot of the operations still apply so while I was confused at first I'm glad it was put in for the courses I'm doing
Prob because I'm not used to social media but on xhs it be like "your friend" posted this and I'm like who is this again? There's only like a handful of people I seriously talked to on that site but still if I get a follow I follow back and forget
dysphoria
Crying in bed this morning because I just hope I get to look right and don't have to accept not
dysphoria
That feeling when you see a pretty guy but get dysphoric because you know you don't pass well enough for him to date you
Even if someone only digs fems, they can like more than one kind of fem people. There's cis people, trans people, twinks, etc... Many fans of fems like fems in general. It's possibly not true of this guy, but who knows? Do you know they only like cis-looking women, or did you assume that?
I started job searching and immediately had to stop and call my doctor to order a prescription of anti-depressants
Sweaters 
Agh going to the medic fucking sucks
Well, they were pretty nice to me, I can't complain too much. Despite them being apparently confused about pronouns, I couldn't bring myself to correct them, I imagine if I asked they would have been ok with it
I was wrong and I was lying to myself and everyone else. I'm sorry for wanting to be a part of your community and not fitting in. I think I need to try to accept myself as a person who deserves to exist before I can decide more about how I want that existence to look.
self harm
Tried to end my life unsuccessfully and spent over a week in the hospital. I might be okay being a guy, especially if I can just have the boundaries and restrictions to that lowered. I hate that being a man makes me a worse person. I know it's gross or wrong or whatever but I do find tgirls really attractive, even if I'm not one.
Before you do anything rash or put labels on things, why dont you try the nice femme up stuff like a skirt and nail polish.
Learning to accept yourself and love/forgive yourself is definitely important.
Well it doesn't really sound like you're ok with being a guy, but that's your call. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. If in the future you change your mind, you can be one of us - if you want.
I don't know any of the words in this comic, nor do I know what it's from, but I vibe with it.
Being able to take a peaceful nap in a rocking chair outside in the midst of the autumn trees. Being awoken by the passionate kisses of my lover (?). If I can achieve this in life, I'm happy.
I should be punished for my counter revolutionary thoughts. 
This is clearly a feudal society. How could I personally own a massive bungalow thingy with trees and a courtyard after the revolution.
i'm really worried right now... i think i might be the angriest gamer you've ever heard
angrier than this guy? 
i'm the only person who would rather have a buffalo
I think you are too (supportive)
thank you di... i would rather have a buffalo though
My social media likes are ๐ฅบ this person is so pretty, ๐ฅบ these animals are so cute, and ๐ค I'll like this to read this later. The first two are understandable but the last one makes me feel like a boomer