It’s weird that I am whole-ass married when kissing still flusters me

went thrifting

got a cute lil narwhal snap bracelet plushy and stuff for decluttering

went to the gym yesterday and had a good workout all things considered given I hadn't been regularly in awhile recovering from my hand injuries and was feeling pretty good and saw some friendly regulars I hadn't seen in awhile

I had a dream where I had bangs, and it looked really nice.

Haha nice try brain, I will not be fooled.

Hello gamers, I got my blood work back and don't really know what to make of it

• T: ~90 ng/dL
• E: ~65 pg/mL

Is this normal for 2.5 months on HRT? I was on 4mg estradiol a day for the first month and a half and then bumped up to 6mg, plus 100mg Spiro a day (unchanged throughout). I definitely missed doses here and there, but maybe only a handful throughout.

Nother fruit mega makes my melting brain happy thank you fruit posters

Morning big beautiful posters please enjoy these Mcplants I saved from some box that read "Don't Estrogen Open Inside" not sure what that was about

Someone made a Create: Estrogen submod for Minecraft Create which adds E pills and patches which give you the power to dash jump. I always get a kick out of people trying to make the game more realistic.

I spent my lunch break reading yuri outside today. That helped my mood.

i would like to turn off the part of my brain responsible for stress, thank you

I feel like my 2020 self would be proud of the way my 2025 self has become self assured and secure in identity. 🥰

Going to bed before midnight for the first time in awhile and am comfortably worn out from the gym and freshly showered and took all my supplements and have comfy PJs, wish me luck on sleeping well because goddamn I've been bad at that lately

Rizz update:

I shared some of my music with her, and she was really impressed. I gave her a few of the full files because she said she wants to work out to them.

She's been so sweet and nice... very damn appreciative of everything I have to say. She's such a calm, gentle, and beautiful soul. I'm nervous because I really really really like her, but my rizz always has me covered...

Things will most likely continue to go well. Sharing my music with her helped us to get a bit more into personal hobbies and stuff like that because we mostly talked about things like Palestine, communism, and veganism besides that.

Listening to king gizz's Changes again and reminding myself why I FUCKING LOVE this band

Im craving to be wrapped up in the arms of a tall butch

I went to the park to read today and got a shit ton of side eye and weird looks. I guess the world isn't ready for my cuteness

Voice instructor said my nails are fierce, so that's my one good thing I can hold on to for today

having a random issue at work where every time our software tries to do an operation with Texas it breaks because All of Texas is returning an undefined value for some reason - it's a real pain in the ass but it's been pretty fun the last few days telling everyone at work I don't have time for them because I'm "busy dealing with Texas spontaneously ceasing to exist."

I wrote code so bad leetcode crashed to the point where the editor reset 🫠

I can't with this fucking weird-ass dream I had.

Okay, so basically, in this dream, I was in a college class or something like that, and I haven't been in college for a bit. Weird.

And what I specifically remember is that there was this classmate of mine... he was a chubbier Black guy, looked a bit nerdy, wore glasses, and had somewhat spiky hair, and his name was "Lenward." I specifically remember that people called him that because his first name is Leonard and his middle name is Edward.

So, here's what's weird(er than that): Lenward would, out of absolutely nowhere, during lectures, just start beatboxing really well, and then he'd lay down the most fire bars imaginable, and then his desk just started levitating, and he floated around the classroom while doing it, and everyone, including the professor, was just cheering him on like, "GO, LENWARD! GO!"

And, when I wake up, I'm like, "What the fuck was that?"

of the many, many problems of dating while trans, one of the least consequential but most frustrating ones is looking at your dating app profile and realizing you need to update all your pics because you look noticeably different now even though you just took those pics 3 months ago

got new shelving coming for my greenhouse. gonna need it with all these trays of seeds i have

filing my nails with a dremel; dunno if that's butch or if I'm just a mess.

(these are not mutually exclusive)

Born under Venus look for a

Oh shit I've actually lost weight 🤯

Okay idk why but something clicked in my brain and now all the essays I've been writing are gender and identity stuff. I've written so many in the past month after not writing any in my entire time at uni so far. Not complaining since they're fun and easy to write, it's just weird that it's happened suddenly.

wait a minute, peaches aren't citrus

hair so long it's on the back of my neck now and it feels really nice :)

Shaving in the shower sucks, I can't see any of the hair (have to take my glasses off/they fog) and then when I get out there's a ton of missed spots