garbage
Too afraid to do anything. Very sad day today. I don't know if its because I'm sick or what but I haven't cried like this in a while.
It feels like I'm just broken.
I don't even have a reason to be broken. My parents are kinda kooky and could have done better- both with having better opinions and with my autism. But that shouldn't be enough to ruin me like this. Obviously I'm dysphoric but again- is it really that bad to make me like this. Hopefulyl I can get E and cross that off. spoiler self harm Relapsed recently. Want to do it again. I don't even have a reason right now other then being sad. stupid fucking reason. always a stupid fucking reason though.
can it please just stop. it hurts so bad today.
how do i get unbroken
self hate/unhinged, genuinely unwell and venting I guess
People have come back from way worse. Do you know why? Because they aren't stupid, removed pieces of shit. They tried. They cared. APpparently I dont'. I dont know what's wrong with me. why am I not better.