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Here's to a new year! Here's my first mega try (also first time posting in a while due to reasons) but heya! Admittedly struggled a fair bit with self doubt and anxiety on this one as put it off for a while/other things caught up with me but I figure I'll be glad I did it once I've done it. It's kinda being done last minute though, so admittedly there's that...

I'd been intending to make the mega about something else originally when I signed up, but that would require more time on my part (and I just binge read this recently, so it all works out). Anyways, my subject of the week is The Summer Hikaru Died; it's a queer (BL) horror manga which is currently also scheduled for anime release next year (2025).

Content warnings naturally follow and further details will be spoilered.

CONTENT WARNINGSGrief, body horror and (very debatably IMO) mild gore, supernatural horror (ghosts/"impurities", otherworldly entities), death I suppose though that one's a given

PremiseThe titular Hikaru went for a walk in the woods, died, and something came back wearing his body, something that doesn't quite know how to be human or mortal; "Hikaru" returned, to ensure that his best friend, Yoshiki, would not be lonely. Romantic tension (and tension of a less pleasant kind) ensues.

The plot/things I like about it thus far (light spoilers)Yoshiki and "Hikaru" have an absolutely great dynamic- their relationship may not be fully healthy, but their intentions seem to both be in the right place, as are their deep feelings (Yoshiki's for Hikaru and increasingly for "Hikaru," and Hikaru and "Hikaru's" own true feelings) and honesty in this regard, despite the latter "Hikaru" being effectively an imposter of sorts. (it's complicated, but these are increasingly distinguished separately and I really like that process as well)

"Hikaru" is, while not quite a blank slate, extremely new to the concept of even just "being" in the sense that mortal creatures and individual organisms(?) do. They've had to learn (and Yoshiki has had to confront them about) the value and significance of life and death; they've increasingly established boundaries, and they approach the world with a liveliness and curiousity that is really cute (the original Hikaru was also lively FWIW, but "Hikaru" is experiencing everything anew even if they retain the memories).

Yoshiki, on the other hand, is both grappling with his grief and loss of Hikaru, while finding comfort (and discomfort alike) in his imposter, and in guiding them through a new world or state of being. He's finding his resolve and moral/ethical backbone interacting with "Hikaru" (very blue-and-orange morality dynamics, though they're learning), he's experiencing what could be described as a rocky but determined romance and queer experimentation at the same time "Hikaru" is being introduced to notions of attraction and desire (beyond instinctual desire to consume).

Their pairing in so many ways should not work (or rather would be usually destined for a tragic end). From the start, there have been several points where by all means it should have met such an end. But their determination and willingness to meet the other where they're at and gradually be understanding with the other is both fascinating and something I'd feel optimistic for (and interested in seeing play out further).

Anyways, I should cut myself short at this (and make sure to have something properly written beforehand for next time). But anyways, thus far it's a strong recommend (if you feel alright with the content warnings) from me.


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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 11 points 1 month ago

i'm sure there's still an original concept to be found in the "mascot horror" genre. maybe another few thousand games and we'll get it

[–] AntifaSuperWombat@hexbear.net 11 points 1 month ago

Fucking great! I’m sick again for the second time this month. Another week of eating baby food, I guess? catgirl-flop

[–] Yukiko@hexbear.net 11 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Work sucks and no one should have so many meetings in one day. Especially over inane stuff that doesn't need handled in a Zoom call. Just let me do my job. aubrey-angry

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[–] Edie@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (2 children)

We haven't had Music Monday the last few mega threads have we?

God I love Thomas Bergersen. Currently listening to Red

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[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

gushingi am not sick anymore!!!!! and um i got to hang out with my gf again for the first time in a while and was so nice :3

[–] JohnBrownsBussy2@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (1 children)

One of my kitties gave me kisses (licks) for the first time. He's not much of a licker, so it was surprising. I wonder if he knows I am sick.

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[–] Josephine_Spiro@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (5 children)

MODS???? I SPILLED MY TRANGENDERIZING JUICE. ANYONE IN CONTACT WILL BE TURNED INTO AN ANTHROPOMORPHIC HUMAN. PLESSE VACATE THE AREA. I REPEAT VACATE THE AREA

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[–] Yukiko@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (5 children)

I'm thinking about getting a MacBook when tax time comes around. I've not used a Mac since high school and I'm curious to see how their UI and how comfortable their OS's user experience has become. If I don't like it, I can resell it pretty quickly and easily for a minor loss, so I'm not too terribly concerned about it. Also consumer therapy is a thing >w>

That said, my ThinkPad is just not performing as well as I need it to and I need to replace it. I never expected to be doing so much on it and I need more power from its GPU. Shouldn't expect so much from a 5 year old AMD APU. Also my fault for expecting so much from a $200 eBay laptop.

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[–] AshenWolf@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

happy new year mega!

2025...

That's one number higher than 2024

[–] ComradeMonotreme@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

Me: cool how theres 15 bandanas in the wardrobe in 2025 and none go with my outfit. Normal World

Also me: wow its almost like those are my BDSM bandanas and arent meant to go on outfits????????? but ok go off

[–] Yukiko@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

Weird balance of feeling from my top surgery from a month and a half ago. My left boob is numb and my right boob is overly sensitive, but only to pain. >:|

[–] Wendy_Pleakley@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

back at my apartment with my stuffed animals, if only for the weekend

[–] shallot@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Me, 3 hours ago: β€œIt’ll be simple, just gotta read some docs to set a few nvim settings”

Me, 5 minutes ago, having gone down a lazynvim rabbit hole: monke-beepboop

[–] shallot@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (8 children)
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[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (25 children)

Fallow Fallow Fallow Fallow Fallow Fallow Fallow Fallow Fallow (spoiler free though)

For a primer see here

I know it probably seems like I just talk about the same shit on repeat, but things stick in my brain. I did not become intimately familiar with Nevada's guts by not yapping about it...

I need to play it again still, but Fallow defeated me basically. I would probably say that Fallow is a top 10 game for me, but it feels sort of weird to say when I feel like my understanding is incomplete. Having a refusal of closure for an ending is pretty par for the course at least when it comes to Trans A Novels, but Fallow is built different. It probably has less than 10,000 words of dialogue total.

Fallow is a very vague, alluring "vibes" game. People talk about this stuff in any old mainstream game, and maybe I'm just so dumb that I needed a game to rip away my analytical ability to appreciate it, but I fucking GET IT now. Fallow is A VIBE. Or maybe average video games just don't hit hard enough thematically. I love the eerie, desolate mood though, I love the colour pallete, how everything is dried out and creaky feeling, how the music swings between "kinda chill" and "absolutely not fuckin chill, where do you think you are kiddo?"

You could just accept it as a vibes piece, and it manages to convey a lot about its core mood and themes just through like, context, and Isabelline's narration. The flashbacks, the dream sequences, you know. But someone writing about Fallow had the utter nerve to open her write-up saying "I wish I felt more confident about my understanding of Fallow, a new lo-fi adventure game by the artist and musician Ada Rook." Fuck you, that's my line.

The meaning of what happens after the days run out is more or less completely lost on me. I'll take notes when I go back in. I know art is whatever you take away from it, in a sense, but I wonder what the intent behind certain things was. I desire to understand a little bit about who/how/why this was made this specific way. It feels like I should, too; I'm stupid, but I pretty much studied for this. My life's goofyass obsession, and when the credits rolled on Fallow I was basically left staring at them, thinking "huh." Not a good feeling.

I guess it's kind of arrogant to assume you can just understand all of the things on some level, and I know this fixation on comprehension is a dumb overly-literal autism thing, but I persist. I wanna know what happens exactly to Isabelline and her sisters.

Also... are those like, sisters, or sisters-sisters? lea-think

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

hi and welcome to hopscotchmojo, today we're counting up

[–] CDommunist@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (4 children)

Trans guy who changes his name to Jeff Gordon

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[–] RION@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (5 children)

What's a good medium length "plausible deniability" haircut? My hair is resting at my shoulders now and I want to clean it up while keeping it decently lengthy. Can't be too girlish but I don't want it to be boyish either. I guess that's just androgynous but I feel like androgynous ends up being code for "unconventional" in a way that doesn't fit me stylistically

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago

charlie chaplin working in bureaucracy: stamp tramp

[–] GenderIsOpSec@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (5 children)

Read a 550k fanfic in 6 days. catgirl-flop

The start was rough but by the end it was excellent, written over the course of six years, so improvement was to be expected.

Unfortunately it was hetshit, but about a couple that lives rent-free in my incredibly queer head.

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[–] GhostOfHoxha@lemmy.ml 10 points 1 month ago (3 children)

I already did self discovery and came out to everybody and now I have to do it again? Fucking bullshit

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[–] Tomboymoder@hexbear.net 10 points 1 month ago (2 children)

My wife abandoned me to play Dark Souls doggirl-gloom

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