well last time i stopped around page 36, thinking that there would be so many more intense, crazy, uncomfortable topics to go. but the remainder is mostly focused on the more emotional aspects? the section on Touch hit me pretty hard, i think that's something i might be missing? i really like my new (ty estrogen) squishy bits and maybe i need to ask for them to be touched more

however, my favourite part from the latter half was this:

I want to share some nice things I’ve written down about various lovers. Anonymously, of course.

Hey girl: I like your strong, smooth hands. You're a great kisser. Your smoky voice makes my removed twitch. Your rosy cheeks are simply the cutest. I daydream about running my hands down your spine and playing with your asshole. Your thighs feel so good against my ass, strong and soft. Your eyes are so pretty that I want to grab you and kiss you every time that I see you. You are the smartest bitch I know, including myself. You have a way with words that makes talking to you on the street an exercise in restraint. You are sneaky in the best way. No one has ever made me feel as sexy as you did when you fucked me last night, and I really mean it. No one. Your energy is contagious.

Being with her makes me feel like I’m 16 again; small, and naive, and horny, and like everything is possible

There aren't words. I've never met someone so gorgeous before in my whole life.

You are very gentle at all the right times. Thank you for fucking me in the lounge with the door unlocked, the view of campus was really spectacular, You are so sweet, and so funny. You have really cute hair, I want to cum on your tits because they are so gorgeous, You're pretty. With your words and your body you make me feel like I'm the sexiest, smartest woman in the room no matter what. I want to lie around and listen to music with you all day. You are an amazing dancer.

omg Mira

that is all, thanks for reading ✧˖°

I was scheduled for an appointment and walked in and got turned away. I almost flipped out. But I never saw my doctor again, and that's frustrating, it's like, you were my doctor, did you care? I liked this person and they didn't address the abrupt nature with which things ended. They still see my mom! but probably forgot about me

Like, to me, in the bigger picture, there is no moving on without addressing how things end. I do not like not understanding. I feel betrayed when things change and I am kept out of the loop. How am I supposed to trust a doctor to talk about more serious stuff if they can just deny me and then my medical history and everything is sitting in the office of someone that I don't wanna call because they don't wanna see me anymore.