about a week on prog now and oohhh, i think i'm feeling it now, Mr. Krabs

I can't fall asleep for anything tonight, so I'm just laying here trying not to worry about transition stuff. Dysphoria is hitting really hard too. Two hours waiting so far. Also fun to remember how bad I feel when I don't sleep enough.

Guitarheads of the trans mega, what is the best way to go about getting an electric guitar when I don't have a lot of money to spend? Also what's the best amp for a beginner?

(I'm interested in electric bass too so if anyone has tips on that, also appreciated.)

@Luna@hexbear.net my gender carousel is going brrrrrrrrrrr again

I'm very close to getting HRT thanks to appointments being made but I still feel the most dysphoric I've felt in a long time. I think it's because I'm so close that I have a stronger need for HRT which causes more frustration and more dysphoria

Sent a text expressing my feelings to the girl I like and now I have to wait for a response, which is the worst thing about expressing your love...

God dammit the anxiety. At least it's not as bad as before I transitioned when I sought relationships primarily for validation.

fuck canker sores

Got myself a wireless keyboard to go along with my wireless mouse, I connected my computer to my tv so here I am typing like a big shot from bed no more typing with the on screen keyboard

I really wish I lived in a world where the rizzler was on jimmy fallon. Idk why this is on the mind.

Got my epilator. The pain is significantly less than manual tweezing, so not bad at all. It's a cheaper one, so it needs to be plugged in and is a bit tough to clean, but I have been able to clear up my arms and hands at least.

EDIT: Also, when I use my cats come over and just watch me with concern. It's very cute.

i just started playing Fallout London and I hit "female" body type in the character creator and it gave me a male body? wtf this game just clocked me and I got the TERF island treatment

I hate how little I can cry

Just hyperfocused together a flawless CPC hat and red book :3 The stitching is beautiful and the fabric just happened to be perfectly cut. I hope I’m not too sleepy for Halloween.

Why does it hurt so much seeing him leave with someone else?

He didn’t even give me a hug goodbye

Thinking about buying some fairy lights for my room, is aliexpress alright? I don't have experience buying electronics from there so I'm not sure of good strategy to make sure its electrically safe

I keep crushing on girls I see once in class and don't talk to this is fucked

Does Disco Elysium have therapeutic properties? Does conducting internal monologue to myself in the way Volition talks really help or am I imagining it?

big article about transfemininity & plurality comes out

it's from a structural dissociation pov

My dreams the last two nights have been really dark. Not scary/nightmares, just very upsetting subjects. Really hope this doesn't become a pattern.

ANTI CISGENDER AKTION

I want to be a homemaker. Cooking and cleaning are so fun because I’m in control (of my sense environment, energy expenditure, ideals, interests, etc), making progress of sorts, and alone.