I told my coworker I was a communist because fuck it and we talked shit about cars.
That sounds like a fun time, any specific shitty cars?
Mostly the bazingamobiles and how they aren't better for the environment when you consider the resources necessary to manufacture and charge them.
Coworker thinks the solution is making better cars that minimize the extra luxuries and are easily repaired.
I said trains and they were cool with public transportation, but thought they would be unfeasible in suburban areas. I went in on the suburbs and how they were designed around making it unwalkable on purpose.
They didn't treat me like I was irrational, so that was good. They are a fascinating person and they want to convince me to their side in good faith.
I wanted to talk more openly about politics and so I lucked out. I'll be careful in the future about what I say, but I'm glad I advocated for the creation of trains and the destruction of suburbs.
I'm watching a thunderstorm from my apartment windows, nearby buildings are being silhouetted against the background lightning, it's beautiful and haunting.
oh I love watching lightning storms 
so comfy!
I rediscovered my love of lightning storms a couple years ago because of an episode of Joe Pera Talks To You. They're so amazing to watch. It's crazy how they almost freeze time around themselves
300 million volts of love 
Long day of work then I went to a live music bar and made out with a chubby enbie
Thank you for living the dream for all of us
also very depressed rn. i transferred universities and this is my first week at a much bigger school than my last one. pretty intimidated cus i dont really know people here, and i'm in the sophomore dorms where it seems like everyone already knows each other and has their established groups :/
i went to a transfer meetup thing yesterday and got a couple instagrams and talked with someone for a little while, so that's promising, but now idk what to do. kinda wanna hang out again but i don't wanna come across as desperate dm'ing him at least for a couple days. he mentioned a rock climbing thing which i think i would be into.
club fair starts on wednesnday so hoping to meet people there but so far i'm feeling extremely lonely this weekend and a constant fomo. nervous i'm not going to make connections this year because i'm either too awkward when i'm anxious or too chatty when i'm comfortable
went on a starting dose of ADHD meds a couple weeks ago and they've been helping my social anxiety a good bit and maybe calmed my brain 20%, defo helping more than any anti-depressant meds ever have, but i'm still overthinking how things will go here at almost every moment and probably will be doing that all weekend. kinda just wish i could have a normal brain for once
also a couple frat boys tried to recruit me which surprised me because i dress somewhat alternative and they all look like clones. one gave me his insta and he had a group photo of like 25+ people where every single one of them was white despite our school being 50% poc, like wtf?
I hope you find some people to hang with, I'm glad the meds seem to be working for you too.
thanks, and yeah it's kinda like my brain is running 80mph instead of 100. ngl, i'm a little underwhelmed because i saw all these posts "first time i took adderall my inner monologue was quiet for the first time and i cried," "i was able to do a chore without repeating it in my head 40 times," "i finally felt present and out of my head when talking with someone," etc
not expecting a miracle pill and i know i have to apply myself too, but everything is very subtle and i only feel slightly less scatterbrained. my psych said i seem to have severe ADHD but she wanted to see how it affected my anxiety and insomnia first (all of which it's minorly helped), so now i have to wait another 2 weeks to talk about raising the dose. wish i'd started this earlier but oh well
Better late than never, does sound like it has been helping. Hopefully the anxiety becomes more manageable and hoping you get sleep sorted too. I know it is usually baby steps with some meds but it does sound promising so far.
2 weeks shouldn't take too long to go in so hoping things go smoothly for you and maybe get the dosage upped a bit more c: good luck!
Hi friend. I know it seems hard right now but try to put yourself out there as much as you can, you'll thank yourself for it later. Do whatever you can to push through the anxiety and muster up the strength to talk to people and be social, in whatever way is available. You aren't annoying, you aren't desperate, you're just new and how you're feeling is completely understandable. The decent people know and understand that and there are loads of them. You can do it, good luck.
University can feel really intimidating and lonely. Only advice I can give is be a little patient, there will be opportunities to meet people.
You'll crush -- just show up to shit
just saying hi im super sick not covid at least going to sleep (leyla)luv u! 
Love you too Des, I hope you get over the sickness soon. Take some extra cough syrup for me <3
I hope you feel better soon 
im making a mix rn, half sludge metal half jungle
went out for a nice stroll
That sounds nice. I love a good walk. I think I might end up going for one tonight, but then again drivers around here are fucking insane and I don't want to get ran over
Walking around at night listening to ambient music is my fav 
I'm eating come tasty snacks
Ooh, what snacks?
Praaangles
what flavor praaangles?
Salt and vinegar babyyyyy Yim yum 
Salt and vinegar are my fave, yum yum! 
Stomach has been bothering me all day, but now that I'm home its harder to overlook
Otherwise pretty meh night. Just relaxing at home.
Ah that's unfortunate, you staying hydrated? My stomach usually starts bothering me when I'm not eating or drinking water.
Hmm, now that you mention it
I hope your tummy sorts with some relaxation
Right there with you. Depression can be tough for people to understand, especially for those who don’t suffer from it chronically. I’ve been running from my daemons for over 30 years and I’m getting tired of the roller coaster. Sometimes I just want the ride to stop. Hang in there.
40 years for me. Things can get better but never have the expectation that things will be better sitting back and changing nothing. Some times we get to complacent and stop discovering new adventures.
Home alone since my parents are down the shore (I'm in my late 20s and still haven't left home). I would probably be drinking some beer right now if I hadn't been pushed to going to rehab by a mental health evaluator 2 months ago.
I'll probably do something with my friends this weekend to take advantage of burgerland's fake Labor Day (the real one, of course, being May 1^st^).
fake Labor Day
My friends get upset when i point this out. Still cant figure out why
I hope you can have a good weekend with your friends
I ATE NOOCH POPCORN 
also Dunkey and Warlockracy had nice lil videos to enjoy 
love me a good warlockracy video 
I've never tried nooch popcorn, but I definitely want to try it!
And a new dunkey video is always exciting
Id love to
Ive been thinking more about making things. I have no space to do so, so its just fantasy for now, but i want to be productive in ways that are fun and/or genuinely help people. One thing ive been thinking about is making midi pads. I priced everything out and its not terribly expensive, and i could put custom midi pads/controllers in everyones hands who wants them. The real spendy stuff comes when you want velocity sensitive pads/buttons.
Ive also been doing a lot of programming recently, and its been pretty great! Been working on some metaobject stuff thats confusing, but in a fun way lol.
I had some serious anxiety this morning, and a really uh interesting night where the deluded thoughts just kept going and it was hard to keep them in check and managed. But things are better now; im just up, and like, up in a way that i feel is manageable. 
Is this what mentally healthy people feel like?
Making midi pads sounds like a fun project for sure! If you ever start doing it, let me know because I'd love one. I wanted an MPC really bad as a teen but never got one because they're so damn expensive.
I'm glad the code is keeping you entertained! I've been thinking about getting back into it because I had a lot of fun with it before depression really took over. Too bad I only ever really learned Java and JavaScript.
Mental stability is a great feeling. It comes and goes in waves, but those calms are really great
I'm sorry you're feelimg a little blue, I hope it lifts some for you. 
We're havimg a quiet night, listening to some music with candlelight and some incense burning
I talked to my oldest son earlier about what I used to do to feel better. For some reason when I'm down (not actually depressed, that took CBT and medication) something about The Black Parade just makes me feel better. I can't make it through that album and be in a bad mood.
My wife and I watch crappy reality TV after the kids go to bed. As long as it isn't poverty exploitation it's generally a fun diversion. If it weren't for that, I'd probably smoke a lot of weed.
To start:
Whenever I'm sipping coffee, I seem to fall in a depressive mood, instead of getting that high... Huh...
Sorry you're depressed. Someone I've gotten to know really deeply online who lives faraway overseas has disappeared from the internet and I'm concerned for their safety, so I'm a little depressed too. I actually haven't been on hexbear much lately because I've been talking with this person so much.
I was at an open-air screening of a pretty short documentary about this cities punk scene yesterday. It was organized by a group occupying a nearby cinema that has set abandoned since around 2020, which they currently can't do screenings at because of fire safety. The screening was pretty well attended but as always with these types of events it's equal parts fun and depressing, since it really doesn't feel like any of these people's efforts can really do much against the ever-progressing cultural decline and ever-rising rents in this (and every other) city.
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