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Strap up your safety goggles my siblings, it's time to lase big-cool

What even is a laser

The word itself stands for "light amplified by stimulated emission" ... which explains nothing about what lasers actually are, what they produce and how they work. So let's start from the beginning. What's the difference between laser light and "normal" light?

Laser light is coherent and collimated while normal light is incoherent and uncollimated. It's actually not that hard to understand. Coherence is when a band marches in beat. Incoherence is when you have a crowd of people loudly talking in the background. Collimation is when you walk in a straight line in the same direction as everyone else. Uncollimated people like to follow their own path.

Why does this matter? It matters because laser light sticks together while normal light scatters about. Laser light is a tightly coordinated military parade in tiannamen square while normal light is a bunch of drunk guys after a soccer match.

If I want to send a signal from A to B in 10 seconds, laser light will take it from A to B in 10 seconds. Normal light will take it from A to B and C and D. Some pieces will arrive in 10 seconds, others at 11 seconds, some even at 12.

Cool ass lasers

Double hetero-junction diode lasers:

This image is an electron microscope photo taken on the cross-section of a double hetero-junction diode laser. Despite the name sounding really complex, the concept really just consists of sandwiching one material in between another material. It's a cheese toast in essence. The "cheese" is InGaAsP (Indium Gallium Arsenide Phosphide) and the "bread" is InP (Indium Phosphide). How does it work? The bread and cheese are designed such that light and electricity get squeezed into the cheese and don't leak out of it. The laser light travels horizontally through the cheese layer. So you just put electrical energy into this thing and it squeezes out light like a toothpaste bottle wherever you give it an opening.

And yes, you're seeing this right. The part of the laser that produces light (active layer) is 1.3 microns, or 50 times thinner than human hair. Humanity taught a thing sheet of rust on metal how to think and used that power to make gooner slop. It brings a tear to my eyes.

Dye lasers:

You see that tube with the red liquid on the left side? It's carrying rhodamine 6G, a fluorescent dye. Ya shine light onto it and it glows yellow. You can see the yellow glow in the center window thing, the upper right corner and in the lower left. You can also see the remnant fluorescent glow as the rhodamine is pumped out through the right tube.

Do I have anything interesting to say about dye lasers? Uh, they can cool themselves. Cause the thing producing light (aka the dye solution) is pumped out. So that's neat. You can also just read the wiki cause I know little about these types of lasers.

Pulsed lasers with nonsensically high power outputs:

Some lab in Romania genuinely made a laser with 10 petawatts of power. These days you also have lasers which create femtosecond pulses (1 femtosecond is 1 billionth of a nanosecond). In fact, the other day, I did a lab that used femtosecond lasers. My group mate was waving his hand through the laser and we were collecting data on how transparent his hand was (spoiler, his hand wasn't transparent). Uh ... that goes against the laser safety lesson that comes right after .... forget I said anything!

Anyway, you wonder how they make these ridiculous lasers? They do it by forcing all the power of the laser into short pulses and releasing it at once.

It's like basically pressure cooking the laser medium and releasing all the energy in a whistle. This technique is called "Q-switching" (think of "Q" as the energy retention factor. You make it go up to store energy then release). This Q factor technique however only gets you so far. To make real femtosecond lasers you need to do this thing called "mode-locking" which I'm not going to explain.

Just read more at

https://www.rp-photonics.com/q_switching.html

https://www.rp-photonics.com/mode_locked_lasers.html

Laser safety explanation

It's just a miliwatt laser, what's the big deal? I have a 60 watt light bulb in my house and I don't need any special light bulb safety training. Well remember how laser light goes "from A to B" while normal light goes from "A to B and C and D"? Laser light is amazing when "point B" is a communication device. You're getting the maximum power of the light focused onto the device for it to pick up. That's not what you want when "point B" is a spot in your retina. You don't want maximum power focused onto a spot. You want it spread out.

Not to mention, lasers are beams, so the whole power of the laser goes into your eye or onto your skin instead of like, 1% (cause the rest spread out to other parts of the room)

Lasers come in 4 classes (with some subclasses)

Class 1: Harmless under normal use

Class 2: Your reflexes will protect you if it gets into your eye

Class 3R: Harmful if it gets into your eyes

Class 3B: Even reflections and exposure to skin is harmful

Class 4: Can even set fire to things

Classes 1 and 2 also have a special "1M" and "2M" subclass, which means "it's harmful if you focus the beam into your eyes through some lens".

The general advice for handling lasers is

  1. Don't bring reflective or flammable materials into the room
  2. Use specialized laser safety goggles
  3. Don't enter a room with a turned on laser without authorization (rooms with lasers should have a clear "LASER ON/OFF" sign)
  4. Don't lean over to get a better look at the laser. The laser should remain below your eye level so it doesn't accidentally get into your eyes
  5. Keep the emergency number on speed dial

These rules can be relaxed for low class lasers and if the laser is contained inside a fiber, box or other such system.

A source on the medical effects of laser exposure

Medical photos of laser damage to eyes

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Medical injuries

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Retinal burns:

Hemorrhaging:

Blood pool 1 week after injury:

Corneal burns to rabbit (poor rabbit, what asshole got a fucking rabbit involved with lasers?):

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[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 3 points 1 day ago (2 children)

I wish I wasn't so optimistic and just stopped searching. I am clearly not going to find what I need.

I've been thinking about this a lot. All my suffering, all the times I reached out, all the problems and issues. There isn't anything anyone else can do they haven't already done. There are some more things I can/need to do, but it will still suck.

I am deeply unhappy with the fact I wound up being a trans woman. There's nothing to be done on that front. It is simply awful and will probably remain that way until I die. I whine, and cry, and vent my frustrations in some vain hope.

I'm stupid. I'm stupid for continually posting about it, for messaging people about it, for bothering anyone about it ever again. I am stupid because I will continue to do so even knowing how futile it is. I have thought about everything a million which ways and definitely, 100% have found dozens of things that are objectively, truthfully shit about life and my situation. Many of which I can't fix.

I still don't do basics. I "try". hrt is nice but hasn't fixed the fundamental problems. Me. Plenty of trans women have survived worse. Have done better. And all I do is sit here and complain about how shit everything is. And it is shit. But I am shit too. There's only one way out. But I know what I have to do.

Another horrible day ended with crying about how useless I am and how objectively shit my life is. When the fuck will it stop

[–] inTheShadowOf@hexbear.net 11 points 1 day ago (1 children)

You're undervaluing what you currently do. It took me a while of reading your posts to realize you're quite the unreliable narrator of your own life.

  • You're living closeted in a place that you don't feel safe at, but you've started HRT anyway.
  • Beyond starting HRT, you're so knowledgeable about DIY options that you're the first person to respond whenever it's brought up. Always offering to DM to help out too.
  • You hold a job. Say whatever you want about it, but you still show up and you're good enough to be relied on there.
  • Deapite your misery, you seem to stay social and even came out to friends.

That sounds like someone who's actually doing quite a bit already. There's more to do, of course, but when is there not? It's also important to consider that thinking about ending things is all consuming. It never starts that way, but it'll take all the space you offer. So much of the energy that could put into other transition things is being funneled into those thoughts.

I have thought about everything a million which ways and definitely, 100% have found dozens of things that are objectively, truthfully shit about life and my situation. Many of which I can't fix.

Maybe the answer is to think less, at least for a bit. There are so many ways to describe the frustrations of transitioning, but too much can impede progress. Treating things as inevitabilities was something I found helpful. Plan in advance, know everything I need to do for the task, and follow the plan at the scheduled time - think about how much I hate it later. It's the only way I got through voice training.

Consider it?

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 4 points 1 day ago (1 children)

I honestly don't quite get what you mean, I feel like I give people here quite the accurate picture of my life. I do fail to do basics a lot. Hygiene, still don't drive. Those were really the basics I was upset about. I don't usually talk about them because it's quite embarrassing.

That is all true, thank you. I do need to remember how good it is I have a job again.

I can't- idk how to explain it. I can't shut my thoughts off like that. It's really frustrating. I would love to think less about transitioning and all the stressors it brings.

Thank you, I will. I like that as a plan. I'll try and actually follow it. Thank you again, I really appreciate you.

[–] SickSemper@hexbear.net 7 points 1 day ago

My partner doesn’t drive and they’re older than I am. Driving fucking sucks and is only useful as a tool of your own liberation rather than a marker of how “developed” you are as a person. If you want to be able to go places on your own, then sure driving can be good and useful, but as a fundamental necessity, I hate it so much and think it should never be used to measure one’s own growth. Can you tell cars stress me out and I’ve been in an accident recently?

Also pretty sure 99% of trans gals are up the creek without a paddle when it comes to hygiene in the beginning; I can’t tell if estrogen softened my skin or it’s that I finally started moisturizing. Please feel free to dm about hygiene questions if you don’t want to talk publicly, I’ve had a bit of a crash course in hair/skincare recently so I’m happy to help if I can.

sh etcEchoing what inTheShadowOf said, the spiral can be all-consuming. I had a shitty day yesterday and was really quickly tempted by the void again, unconsciously falling back into old patterns of self destructive behavior and thought. It’s so easy and quick to get back in the cycle of hating myself and the world and extremely difficult to pull yourself away from it. Shutting it off can be hard-impossible, I feel you, we’re in this together

I’m also taking the planning advice, treating it like a work assignment. It sucks but I’m still not missing the deadline, you know? The YT channel TransVoiceLessons has a good beginner video, and even though I’m too embarrassed to practice within earshot of my partner, it was a good way to take the first step in a process I don’t love

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 3 points 1 day ago

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I have thought about everything a million which ways and definitely, 100% have found dozens of things that are objectively, truthfully shit about life and my situation. Many of which I can't fix.

Real, and I wouldn't try to convince you otherwise. Injustices and loosing the genetic lottery are not things that can simply be erased by a change of perspective.

Plenty of trans women have survived worse. Have done better.

Comparing yourself doesn't help, however, many of these trans women also have a strong community that helps them be resilient and derive inner strength. It is not easy for atomised proles to simply become fix their lives through sheer force of will.