On the 10th of April 1912, The Titanic set sail from Southhampton in England for her maiden voyage across the Atlantic Ocean. Four days later, just before midnight on the 14th, Titanic struck an iceberg, which caused it to take severe damage and sink during the night, leading to the death of the majority of her passengers.
At the time, Titanic was one of the most advanced ships in the world. It was as a steam-powered ocean liner, a type of ship specifically built to repeatedly make the dangerous crossing between Europe and America. Because air travel was not available at the time, this service was vital, and Titanic was built at a time where different shipping lines were constantly trying to outcompete each other in building the fastest and most luxurious ships. The Titanic was equipped with restaurants, cafes and even a Turkish bath (a sort of spa / sauna hybrid), though due to the strict segregation of first, second, and third class passengers, only a minority were allowed access to these accomodations.
The White Star Line, who built and operated the Titanic, was convinced the ship wouldn't sink, and did not adequately prepare for it, only carrying enough lifeboats to carry a portion of the ship's passengers. While this claim seems absurd today โ modern ship are far, far safer than the Titanic, but no one would ever claim they couldn't sink โ it was a popular sentiment at the time. Because of the Titanic's novel and highly advanced watertight compartments, it was thought that even if she suffered catastrophic damage, she would bob around on the surface like a cork, rather than sink to the bottom, so there would be no hurry to evacuate the passengers
Later, the story of the titanic would go on to become something of a pop culture legend, the greatest example being the 1997 movie by James Cameron (it's really good actually). A bunch of conspiracy theories about the ship's fate has also popped up over the course of the last century, some gaining significant traction despite the lack of evidence.
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pregnancy/childcare yearnings and hormone journallings as well as a bit pre transition si, could be triggering to some?(long)
I really love being a transfem. The longer I spend in transition, the more worthwhile I think this journey is, and I wouldn't want that to be any other way. And god, do I find trans bodies to be so damn beautiful, never really understood the idea that testosterone mutilated my body, or anyone's. I'm just who I am, and used the resources available to me in this world to shape my body in such a way that reflects my mind.One thing I wish was possible in this time we live in was I wish so much that I could bear a child, or at least, raise one. I'm not alone in this feeling, I know. Infertility is something a lot of people deal with, my reason is only unique in that I wasn't born with a womb. It's funny, because I used to hate children so much pre transition, simply because I hated being alive so much. As I started being fortunate enough to be able to interact in the world as a feminized individual and being recognized as such, I began to love children, and relate to people and life that feels so much more whole.
I try not to be jealous of women who can choose to have a child with such relative ease, of a close family member who is raising a 2 year old, seeing how much love they practice with each other. Something I will make my peace with in time, I think.
I wasn't born in a time where I could bear a child in this body of mine, but maybe I will get to see the beginnings of that if I should live long enough?
I have such a strong maternal instinct, and often find myself drawn to be the mother of many in my friend groups, and I love this. I hope as I keep going through this life that I can find ways to mother and nurture folks as I can. Lot of different ways to be a mother, I suppose.
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Its because T shaped my body in a way that does not reflect my mind. Warped it, ruined it, destroyed it. Many things about it permanently. Things I care about more then anything. It shaped into the wrong way. A way not reflective of how my mind is. I don't understand how other people don't understand this or feel the same.
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I get the tension between thinking trans bodies are beautiful and understanding people who say that the darker stuff about wrong puberty - I love my trans body personally, I think Im pretty sexy and while Im getting bottom surgery and had a tracheal shave I still feel pretty aligned after years of HRT.I worked in pediatrics! I found it very rewarding. I didnt want kids before transition, same as you - I did figure out that was about not wanting to be a father, being a mother on the other hand sounded lovely! I couldn't afford freezing my sperm so I made my choice, and later when I get bottom surgery itll be foreclosed. Ive never felt bad about it, I was always open to adoption and fostering or surrogacy anyway. Probably best that my genetics ends with me and my siblings generation anyway... and its shaking out like that.
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yeah i love my trans body and also reckon with i got bottom surgery and ffs in it. feeling a lot more at home in my body than i ever have, and the world views me more in line with how i wish it to. i find it very funny that masculinity really did not work for me as a man, but now i am pretty masc leaning woman, and i feel a lot more at peace.I did not freeze my sperm either, as i knew that i wanted any of my genetics to end with me. but i very much feel like i could be a mother. i'm still quite young and might find the chance to do so. :)