Hiya all!

I'm a 40 year old male currently in a mens shelter. I've known I was trans since I was about 12 or so, but until now have always had various excuses or reasons why I couldn't transition. Well, a bunch of stuff happened, and I have kind of a clean slate at the moment, no friends or family anywhere near me, no one that knows me, currently in a new city with the freedom to go to any other in a few months.

I plan on starting HRT when I can, if nothing else to see how I feel, but I'd like to start living as a woman, at least partly at least to get comfortable with it. The idea of just donning female clothing and trying to show up to a trans meeting is terrifying to me, and I don't think I can do it. I actually tried once going to the 'stories' support group meeting in NYC once presenting as male (because I thought it would be OK), but everyone else was presenting as female - I was so out of place and I'm pretty sure I made a lot of other people uncomfortable.

How can I make some friends and meet new people who might be willing to help me a bit with clothes, makeup, and just the confidence to eventually enter the outside world presenting as female? I don't feel safe, I don't feel confident, and the dysphoria is starting to be overbearing. I'm currently homeless and everything is going well for me to resolve that, likely by April or May, but I'd like to try and make some progress before then.

I'm in Seattle currently and would really appreciate any tips or resources, thank you!