Hello everyone~ The megathread is very eepy this week so I am being very quiet and not posting a whole essay as that might disturb their rest. The megathread does a lot of work for us after all, so they deserve to rest a little. Our regularly scheduled effortposts will continue next week.
Nonetheless, I hope that you (yes you!) are doing well, whenever it may be that you happen to be dropping in. I wish you all the best~
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why'd i come back
i don't really have anyone that i can really be myself around other than my partner. my irl friends are cis mostly and I don't talk at all about real stuff to them when I see them like once every few months. i tend to isolate myself when i'm stressed and i struggle to really open up to people in general and even if i do i tend to turtle after because i fear later rejection. in some ways its way easier to just post here and hope people respond or at least upbear because i don't ever have to worry if i'm being too imposing or clingy or otherwise burdensome on individual people. i spent a lot of my life being an outsider and being rejected without really understanding why and i think it fundamentally broke my brain chemistry and its possible that normal friendships are just beyond me now. so i'm reclaiming this space i guessEee! Excited to see you again! I've been meaning to send a message for a little while now actually but have been so busy that it kept slipping through the cracks.
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I hope posting again will be helpful in the way you want it to be. I do the same thing with regards to isolating when stressed, and it's such a shitty feeling; I'm sorry you go through it too. I, at the very least though, would not feel like you're imposing or any such thing since I always enjoy chatting with you, though I recognise just saying this likely won't be sufficient to make the feeling go away.Thank you very much for your kind words and I appreciate that you can relate/understand the feeling, it's nice to hear from you again too! I have to say I am not currently planning on actually getting back into that Matrix account at least for now since I'm trying to take things pretty slow, so for now I'll be around here haha
Hi welcome back! Good to see ya
ps. if you sent me a matrix message this year i couldn't read it they were all encrypted by the time i actually got my password back this weekend