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[–] roux@hexbear.net 5 points 3 days ago (1 children)

Took my mental health day on Friday as prescribed by my therapist and gingerbrat. It was actually pretty nice. I did light laundry chores and made it to about halfway through the 4th(chronological) movie in the Mad Max franchise. I did work on a bit of code stuff but it was correcting typos in my business sites. Nothing too brainy. I also gave Satisfactory another attempt and I think I still hate it.

Then Saturday came and I got hit with a huge wave of depression all over again... I can't really afford to take a day off a week to try and be happy, just to turn around and be more depressed than I was before. I think a lot of it is still tied to my shitty job, my education going to waste, and me just wanting to get out of this daily work grind bullshit. I need to stop setting my worth at what my income is and I don't know how. I don't want to be like generational wealth rich or whatever but I'd just like this dumb business to take off but no one wants or needs a websites and no one wants to pay the real price for one.

I wrote another mobile app in 2 days again. It was inspired by those dumb digital business cards that use NFC to send your info to someone else's phone. This one doesn't have NFC because Android sucks and we can't have nice things. But it does have a QR code generator in it that creates one for each url you add. Think of it sort of as an Android app QR code equivalent to Linktree. But that was how I realized I was back in burnout. So, there is that.

Next stage of burnout is me getting fired.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 2 points 4 days ago

Since I started being active again, I generally go to protests with a face covering. As soon as I see camras, I cover up.

I do have a very distinct hat so covering my face is a kind of silly so oebs my need to work on that. I'm thinking about getting a less conspicuous hat.

For clothing, plain, all black clothing that covers up any identifiable things like tattoos is a good way to go. If you are at a protest that is being out on by 50501, they are targeting people in all black and suggesting that they are agitators. So maybe just wear casual clothing ng without like graphics on them if you are worried about being lumped in with other leftists lol.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 12 points 6 days ago

The Dems trying to stop the party from imploding:

[–] roux@hexbear.net 5 points 6 days ago (1 children)
[–] roux@hexbear.net 7 points 1 week ago (3 children)

My therapist says I have to take a mental health day on Friday. The nerve of that woman...

But yeah I'm on the verge of mental collapse so it's probably for the better. Thinking about just marathoning Mad Max or something.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 2 points 1 week ago

Yeah, there was an era around the time I met him that I thought "Hell, if he gets a win he might push the Dems left a bit." but now he's just that annoying uncle trying to be hip.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 4 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I winced when he said that during his pressy debates.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 10 points 1 week ago

Back to your rebuttal though, this is why when I was doing the smart home thing, all the stuff I got was easily installed and can be easily uninstalled.

But honestly, the only useful thing I have is my door bell. It's nice to be able to check in on my house when I'm at work and stuff. Being able to dim my lights because shit's too bright is nice too. And a voice activated kitchen timer(Google Display - literally the only thing I use it for). But yeah, bricking shit that isn't even subscription-based is fucking whack.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 5 points 1 week ago (5 children)

Last one of these I went to, he back-stepped that all the way to gentle police reform. He's at least self aware enough to not tell the chuds he's taking their guns anymore. shrug-outta-hecks

[–] roux@hexbear.net 8 points 1 week ago

Switch statements is the next lesson in this bootcamp.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 5 points 1 week ago (2 children)

Can I get an extra hug? Work is still shit and I have a dentist appointment tomorrow to get a cavity filled. Also my app I'm writing doesn't work and idk why. Probably my fault for vibe coding it instead of actually writing it.

[–] roux@hexbear.net 2 points 1 week ago

I make websites. Depending on what you are after I might be able to help too.

 

Basically the title. I'm involved in a local leftist group that is organizing but the subject on misogyny was brought up because we've had some issues of men in the group talking over the women in the group or dismissing them. A comrade and I are trying to come up withe some texts for education to address this issue but we've both realized this is a blind spot in our theory knowledge. I suggested Caliban and the Witch and The Second Sex but after that I'm kind of drawing a blank.

Any and all suggestions are appreciated as always. Marxist and anarchist texts are both welcome.

Thanks!

 

Is No Man's Sky a good game after all the updates and fixing and adding all the stuff they promised?

I love space stuff but am not the biggest fan of Minecraft style crafting/mining. I don't mind it in Stardew and factory games are a favorite genre of mine, for reference. Basically I like the mechanics but it matters how they are implemented.

I've been trying to find a game that I can just turn my brain off and chill after a long day and right now Stardew is starting to get a bit stale(or I'm just dreading winter since there isn't much to do).

The game looks beautiful and I did spend maybe 100 hours on Starbound, which is like 2D NMS I think, but even on sale, it's at the upper limit I'd like to spend.

The other game is Hyperlight Drifter and it's $6 right now so I'm probably gonna get that one regardless.

Edit: I went ahead and grabbed it. I think my kid will also enjoy watching me play it.

 

Hello disabled comrades! Sorry about the last mega going a bit long. It looks like we are all busy catgirl-sorry. I hope everyone is doing well! Anywho, here's the new one.

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Mask up, love one another, and stay alive for one more week.

 

I'm honestly a little bit hesitant to ask this because don't wanna seem like I'm stepping on toes.

So I've been doing some thinking stuff over the last few weeks/months and am starting to question shit.

I've always been cis male presenting and for the most part it's all I've really known, but I'm not in the least bit masculine. Back in the early 00s, the term metro-sexual was a thing and I sort of identified with that but like, meh? Idk. Now that just feels chauvinistic for some reason.

Recently I've been thinking about my own gender identity and although I present as a male, I honestly don't really care. I also have that autism(or is it just ND?) thing where I feel like a being or entity in a human suit basically. Like my inner self is controlling the body that people see me as, which is, of course male presenting.

I've been looking a bit into agender and demigender and hit some of the checkboxes but not really all, but I also don't really know another term for essentially "male body but don't care". A reddit search brought up "gender apathy" and that's a kind of maybe I guess.

The only other conclusion is that I am just cis, but fully aware of it maybe? Like I have a way wider understanding of gender and even sexuality than I did a decade ago so maybe I'm just cis and just not toxic about it? I'm just "woke" maybe?

I guess call this a journal-post but def open for discussion. I'm just going through some heavy mental exploration. I'm not sure if there is even a question here. Just me being confused.

I guess a question could be: how do you know? How do you know where you land on the gender spectrum? Or am I just making a mountain out of a molehill?

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submitted 7 months ago* (last edited 7 months ago) by roux@hexbear.net to c/askchapo@hexbear.net
 

Long story short but I finally caved and made a TikTok account.

I'm looking for commie and anarchist content creators. Theory bro stuff too.

Oh and any neurodivrgent creators is also a plus. Autism, ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety, etc. related content would be great.

Any creators you think are just all around chill are also welcome.

TIA.

E: For some reason I wasn't able to follow anyone but logged out and back in yesterday and was able to follow 14 more people before it shit the bed again. Is this a common thing?

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submitted 8 months ago* (last edited 8 months ago) by roux@hexbear.net to c/memes@hexbear.net
 
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Intifada - Bambu (www.youtube.com)
 

I'm sort of on a kick lol.

 

I blame comrade JoeByeThen on my newfound obsession over leftist hip-hop.

 

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/3855446

So I have an interview coming up sometime in the next 2 weeks and I have to do a few coding and SQL problems as part of it. I wanna start practicing now because I've gotten a bit rusty on algs and such. Does anyone have any suggestions on like array sorts and such to work on or like code golf sites to use? I have Leetcode pulled up and will be working a bit through that today but I just wanna get in as much practice as I can leading up to the interview. I donno when the interview will be but I just heard through the grapevine that there will be one.

I've been working on my own webdev stuff but the most I've had to touch JavaScript for is basically conditionals and loops, so I feel like I've fallen down on the other stuff a bit.

TIA

 

So I have an interview coming up sometime in the next 2 weeks and I have to do a few coding and SQL problems as part of it. I wanna start practicing now because I've gotten a bit rusty on algs and such. Does anyone have any suggestions on like array sorts and such to work on or like code golf sites to use? I have Leetcode pulled up and will be working a bit through that today but I just wanna get in as much practice as I can leading up to the interview. I donno when the interview will be but I just heard through the grapevine that there will be one.

I've been working on my own webdev stuff but the most I've had to touch JavaScript for is basically conditionals and loops, so I feel like I've fallen down on the other stuff a bit.

TIA

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submitted 8 months ago* (last edited 8 months ago) by roux@hexbear.net to c/vegan@hexbear.net
 

I already bitched about this in the vegan theory club cooking discord bub I'm still bent the fuck out of shape over it.

Ok, so my kid's birthday party was yesterday and the last 2 times I wasn't able to eat the cake because it was made with extra helping of animals. I just sat their on my phone and took a few pictures or whatever. I helped with set up and tear down.

We are also going broke because I'm too fucking stupid to hold down a job and after over a year and a half of trying to find a job, we are at the point where I am considering getting rid of the rest of our streaming services and pull our youngest out of daycare. We are barely surviving on a teacher's salary right now.

In the past, my partner has gone all out on our kids' parties but I was working so it was fine. This time, I wanted to try to save money where we could. In the past, my partner would get a cake from a local bakery that costs like $80 and only 1/4 would get eaten and I'd throw the rest away 2 months later because it got forgotten in the back of our garage fridge.

So this year I wanted to kill 2 vegan birds with one stone and make my kid's birthday cake. I could make it for way cheaper and also sub in vegan ingredients.

I buy all the ingredients and plan on making it Saturday. My mother-in-law decides to offer to make a cake for my kid after finding out we aren't spending $80 on a cake. I already bought the ingredients so I politely say no thanks. Because I am saving money, not wasting it. And because I wanted to enjoy cake at my kid's birthday party.

I got up early yesterday, put my earbuds in and threw on some baking metal. To be fair it was a box cake mix and the frosting was also pre-made. I was gonna do this as a test run before autistic hyper-focus takes over and I proceed to deep dive into making the perfect vegan cake. So I mix it up and bake it and do the toothpick test and it comes out clean. I wait for it to cool and frost it and it's good. Life is good. We good.

Well, It was on the softer side of done. My mother-in-law goes to cut the cake and it crumbles. She then proceeds, in front of like 15 people, to tell me that my cake sucks and I should have just let her make it because it wouldn't suck. In front of me, my partner, our kids, our friends, etc. So that's great.

I spiral, because I do that. and I'm still processing it. She seemed like she wanted to go out of her way to make a deal about it because she knows I'm vegan and likes to call it weird or whatever when she can.

I know this is all over a stupid cake but she really could have just laughed it off when it was falling apart instead of slopping it on to everyone's plate like she was a lunchlady in the 6th circle of hell or something.

That's it. That's my rant. I'm mostly just hoping that I could get it off my chest and move on.

I am always looking for recipes so if anyone has a good cake recipe that can adapt to flavors like vanilla or chocolate and such, I'm definitely interested. A tiny caveat is that the cake mix and frosting used palm oil and I'm really trying to avoid that because of how palm farming wrecked the environment.

 

Last week I saw an odd thing on Indeed where I was apparently "already qualified for an interview" for a job posting at a local hospital that I've been trying to get in to for years for IT. I didn't have to apply but just set up an interview time. Well turns out it's actually a "hiring event" which I was informed after a recruiter called and was like "Are you sure you wanted to apply for this? You aren't even A+ certified anymore." You know because you forget how computers work if you let your cert expire even though you've been working with computers for the last 20+ goddamn years and at an IT level for the last 6 but sure.

She asked me if I was willing to re-cert and I said yes but whatever. My Google IT cert which is the same thing isn't worth shit I guess so that's a scam. Thanks Googs...

In any case, if you had half a day to crash study for a stupid fucking IT interview that was the equivalent of a 10 min speed date, what would you brush up on?

I ask because like you literally just google what you don't know. Everyone in the industry knows this, but you can't fucking say that at an interview. Just like when they say "can you tell me about you employment gaps?" you can't say "well you see I was fired from jobs because I am autistic." I already and prepped to lie and say I've been doing freelance IT and web dev in my spare time and that also covers those gaps.

Edit: done with interview. They closed the position on Monday because a guy that quit asked for his job back. I'm going to go kill myself now.

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