I've never joved with any fallout game. Tried em multiple times. Always board within an hour. Just so bored. I rpgs with immersive world's and places to explore. I like the fallout setting. I should like it but somehow it's always a trudge through mud for me to play those.

Basically ya. If you truly understand what you did was evil you wouldn't ever demand someone forgive you. You do good things as much as possible and if someone decides to forgive you you thank them and keep doing good.

And yes redemption is likely lonely especially at first but I don't know probably shouldn't have signed up for the murder machine if you wanted people to think you were a good person and want to be around you. Of course I support outreach to people trying to redeem themselves. Organizing good things for them to do is of course a solid plan.

Weighing how much fun I'll have at frat parties later vs how sad that kids parents will be picking up their body parts. Oh well click the button.

If you're a (imperialist)soldier or a cop you're a bastard. Simple as. You may have been propagandized into it to a massive degree or you may have few other economic options. Still a bastard.

It seems obvious. If someone walks up to me and says hey "I'll give you 1 million Dollars to go kill that mom, dad, and kid over there just hanging out in the park" and I accept that is an evil action. Even if I'm dirt poor and dang a million dollars would let me escape poverty that's an evil action.

Choosing to join the military is the same thing except Americans have been told it's good their whole life. Plus it pays way less than my example so it probably won't even let you escape poverty.

Now I won't say soldiers or even cops are irredeemable of course. If you get out and realize your evil and spend your time now atoning one way or another then good job you are no longer so evil. Obviously expect no forgiveness from those you hurt but if you're truly atoning you wouldn't. This is where many people seem to go wrong. Like oh damn I joined the military and I know/knew it was bad but please feel bad for me now cause I feel sad about it. No you go do something to make up for your sins if you feel bad about it.

Of course individuals making evil decisions in a huge system that requires them is not the biggest issue. I won't spend all my energy on individual soldiers. They are bastards but the bigger problem is and the focus must be on the machine that told them to be.

I'll have you know I turned down big money at the defense contractor. They offered me $.76 more than the job I took instead.

Once I was offered a job out of college at a defense contractor. I did not take it because guess what I'm not a ghoul. Even then when I was 99% lib I was like nah don't wanna make weapons seems gross.

Tbf as an autistic there are situations I'd take the money. Namely if the drivers license said "Elon Musk" but this is still consistent withy morals of steal from the parasites

He works for bellingcat a "open source intelligence agency" that is pretty opish.

I personally doubt he's literally on CIA payroll but that's largely irrelevant if his bosses bosses are and he parrots such propaganda frequently.

It's so beautiful