, and animals die when bombs drop too, bozo.
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Unironically though, having a usable and competent Search that actually finds what you're looking for and gives it to you as your top result is great. Win/Super key + type 3 letters + hit Enter. Don't have to care about where things like programs, games, etc are.
I have been playing Lies of P and I've started the DLC before beating the main game cuz I read that the dialogue changes in the rest of the main game if you do.
I'm finding it very obnoxious because every enemy has 12 hit combos and just never stops attacking.
Makes me feel like dodging is not viable and you're supposed to play entirely like Sekiro and master perfect parrying or else you're screwed.
I know it's been a few days, but I wanted to make sure I thanked you for your replies.
I made some assumptions, but I think you probably understand a little better how I feel about that whole situation I was describing. I think that I'm definitely lenient with folks regarding things like veganism and other moral choices, given my partner is vegetarian, and most of my friends are not vegan/vegetarian either. I'm sure some music artists I listen to are horrible people without me even knowing. There's always something. There just comes a line where it feels like I'm not being given the same respect like when a friend was talking to me about what they do with their backyard chickens. To be clear though, my feelings don't matter in the grander context, just this little microcosm of an interaction, and what I really care about are those being harmed.
I started reading Unmasking Autism and I'm still only partway through Chapter 1 because I stopped to do the activity in the intro where they have you reflect on your most fulfilling moments. That took a little while. But so far this conversation and the introduction to that book have been really affirming. I do think I made the right call in ultimately separating myself from that friend group, as painful as it was, and have been able to reflect a little on my own behavior in the process. Not just now, but in the past too.
I plan to continue through it and seeing how much else connects.
Thanks again.
I see this thread is still going. I glazed over it last time. Putting aside the huge thread talking about gooners, I want people to know this entire franchise is based on real horses from real races and has ties to Japanese horse racing organizations (also the Yakuza and organized crime). There is at least one horse who was raced to death in the anime/new gacha game and its not shown with any empathy whatsoever, since it was great the horse girl was so "dedicated" to their "sport".
Not calling you out or anything, OP, but this thing has taken over my entire internet feed and I think people don't know that its actually one step away from visiting the race tracks themselves.
Appreciate the response. I think that's part of my issue is that I only really had one group of friends, so I didn't have separate people I could vent to, others to play games with, etc and kind of compartmentalize that. Definitely a lot of unintended meaning going around.
I do plan to start reading that book, it's already on my ereader.
How are you running the installer? Just with Wine directly? Have you tried something like Lutris to see if it makes a difference? Personally never had luck with Fitgirl on Linux, so I always avoid repacks.
Pretty much. You start by growing weed out of an RV and hotel room and then work your way up from there. Everything has a mini-game. You gotta cut open the bag, pour the soil in the pot, bury the seed, water the seed, then come back and trim off all the buds, put them in baggies, then do your deals and start again.
It's also multiplayer so you can run multiple operations at once.
You reminded me of this, so I have to share
I'm a very verbose rambler, so no worries there. I've spoilered my replies too to make it a little less long.
On your recommendations
I appreciate the book recommendations. I'm scrolling through the stimpunks website and it's a lot to take in, but I've already opened a few links to look at later. I did see that they encourage you to just kind of scroll.
I've heard of the Unmasking Autism book before. I think I'll start there. I've never really felt like I masked in public, which is part of what leads to awkward or unsatisfactory social interactions. But I'm open to the idea that I don't fully know what all masking encompasses and that it might help to recognize if that is something I have been doing all this time without realizing it. The Unlearning Shame book might help in that regard too. I think I have a tendency to just withdraw socially in reaction to stress so as to avoid future situations entirely.
I think what you've said about being othered is a common sentiment I've come across and felt. I think part of it was to reject the label, excel in spite of my condition (at least in some areas), and 'prove' to people that there was nothing 'wrong' with me. Nobody else I was trying to prove anything to really cared though. In that they're just glad that I'm better off than I was.
I have a long term partner so my relationship there is great. They're very supportive and understanding of the quirks I have. I don't think they quite get why they manifest. But it's kind of impossible to explain to someone what it feels like to be a child with sensory overload and have clothing 'hurt' you to the point that you refuse to wear it. It just doesn't make sense.
On relationships
I understand what you mean regarding respecting people's actions. That's sort of one comment someone made to me during that interaction. I don't know that context to the specific scenario is helpful. It's hard to explain especially if someone is not vegan (I'm just assuming in this case). It's not a direct comparison, and some people probably experience similar circumstances. But suppose that from the moment you wake up to the moment you go to sleep, every billboard, every ad, every label on every object you pick up, every conversation you overhear all reeks of casual racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, or whichever form of oppression might apply to you or people you care about. Even FROM those same people. That's kind of as close as I can get to describing the experience of vystopia. It's sort of an inescapable and ever present anguish that is constantly fed. I could compare this particular circumstance to if all your friends were all playing the new Harry Potter game, despite knowing noted transphobe Rowling receives money from every copy. It kind of ruins the vibe of commiserating with that group, since interacting with them brings more stuff like that into your life, rather than being a joyful escape from it.
In general, I think that my most commonly presenting trait other than a general shyness, is justice sensitivity. I was diagnosed with oppositional defiant disorder as a child, which if you read now, has been heavily criticized for being racist but also pathologizing a natural resistance to whatever you feel is unjust, not necessarily what is. So this could easily apply to things like going to school, or nap time. But to put it in Hexbear terms, as an adult, I think this essentially manifests as acting like an Appalachian Maoist who is consistently critical of everyone not living up to their expectations. I don't think I'm that obnoxious, but it comes out now and again when I'm just exhausted by the circumstances. Especially now, as you mentioned in the political climate in places like the US. It makes it feel like indifference and inaction are more offensive than they would otherwise be and it's definitely upped my confrontational meter a little bit.
I don't necessarily think I've lost respect or hate the people I am talking about in this scenario, but it feels mutually unbeneficial to continue interacting with them, even after being friends for over a decade. I've done a lot of thinking since that interaction the last week or so and concluded that online-only friendships based primarily on media consumption are not satisfying to me anymore. Not that I think everyone is a mindless consumer, but they want people to relax and play video games with to escape thinking about unfortunate events, and I want people to commiserate and take action with. I am geographically isolated at the moment, contributing to my general unease, but that is changing in the next few months and I hope to join some activist groups in my new location.
Apply that kind of thing to strangers though, and it's difficult to make friends if your hard line is stricter than others. I don't expect everyone to be like me or have the same thoughts or moral or whatever, but I do want to get a sense that they are at least considering these things when making their decisions and take me seriously when I am expressing my feelings about them.
I feel like most people I talk to on Hexbear are in that camp. As long as someone isn't saying something obviously heinous, people are understanding and compassionate and genuine in their interactions. Like you were with your reply. Which is part of why I decided to try posting in this mega in the first place. I've only felt that sense of community once before, in a completely different country, where it felt like people were all working toward a mutual goal and understanding, with everyone supporting each other along the way.
Hey folks. I've never posted in here, so this is a long one. I 'qualify' medically, but I've always been very resistant to self-identifying with my disabilities. I asked my parents to stop posting "I love my autistic child" junk on Facebook back in the day, even though they were well meaning.
I'm strongly aware of how they influenced my past and current behaviors, what overwhelms me and why, and things like that. But the resistance to the identification is still there.
I've had some pretty hard falling out with friends recently in part due to my own overzealous nature when it comes to relatively minor injustices, which is a quirk of my condition. I essentially called them out for all playing a new game that directly funds horse racing/animal cruelty and was given a lecture about how tired they are of virtue signaling in response. As a vegan poster, that was the last straw in a sequence of other events.
So I guess I'm trying to break out if that resistance and see if I would be actually be better off interacting with other ND individuals.
Has anyone else experienced this resistance and have suggestions/readings on how to get over it?
I think it used to come from childhood trauma. That my life till now would have been fine if I just had been born 'normal,' that I wouldn't have to dwell on every awkward interaction, that I wouldn't have been so arrogant in college or caused my parents so much grief, etc. A lot of self blame, regret, and self-isolating to protect myself and feeling others were better off away from me too.
I get that a lot of that now is a societal construction problem, not necessarily an individualized one.
I don't think I feel that way anymore, but I do still get residual feelings in situations like my most recent one, where my own behavior damages my social relationships, at least insofar as the group dynamic is concerned.
I'm not sure where the current feelings stem from if not the same thing.
Tldr; is there a book for people who (previously) hated themselves/their condition and so rejected communities and labels that might have helped?
Alternatively, something to help temper or more effectively harness injustice sensitivity/righteous anger?
Are you on the GNOME or KDE variant? Sounds like you've fixed it either way.
I've been running Bazzite KDE for a little over a year and evangelize about atomic desktops every opportunity I get. I recommend only Bazzite or Bluefin/Aurora for 99% of people.
Happy to help answer any questions or solve any annoyances if they come up!