i grew up thinking it was perfectly fine and normal that we didn't really have enough to eat and that my shoes had holes in them at the toe for a year before I could get new ones because that's just the way god wanted us to live
it was okay that all my friends had all the latest toys and gadgets and could go pay to have their hair cut, and they always had new clothes and shoes and i didn't because in the end i would be in heaven and have everything i needed, and plus we were middle class
man... that was some potent ass copium